New life begins

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New life begins

Well, I've decided to write this journal, in hopes of expressing my fears, hopes and overwhelming emotions. Maybe writing this down each day will help me to better handle the pressure of this pg. I've decided to write this journal directly to you, little one.

Little one,
I am so excited, and yet so scared to be excited. You have an older brother Benjamin. Benjamin was a beautiful little boy, but he had severe heart and lung defects, which eventually sent him to heaven after 5 short weeks. I so wish you could meet your big brother right away. Unfortunately, we will all have to wait awhile to see him again. Your Dad and I have been trying to get pregnant ever since Benjamin died. It took us about 5 months to conceive you. Your Dad is so excited. He has wanted you so badly. Now we are both desparately praying that you stick, and are perfectly healthy. Based on my temperature shift and potential ovulation, we think that 40 wks is on October 6th. We are so hoping you will be able to dress up for Halloween! That means that right now, I am a little under 5 wks pregnant. This is such a risky time right now for miscarraiges. Our 1st prenatal appointment is on February 16th, so we hope to see you through an ultrasound for our very 1st time. I am happy that I'm finally down to my pre-pg weight (141-142), although I know that won't last long. We love you already little one.
Your momma

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Tuesday

Little one,
Well, you showed up stronger than ever on my last pg test in the house. In fact, the pg line is pulling all the color from the test line! That is a great thing, and hopefully it means you are continuing to grow as normal. Your Dad and I hope to hear your heartbeat for the 1st time on February 16th. Last night, I started to get sick with a bad sore throat. I'm hoping that gets better quickly. I was just sick 2 wks ago, so I wouldn't appreciate being sick again so quickly. I have taken my prenatal vitamins every day since we started trying, and I'm trying to avoid caffeine, just to ensure you have all the nutrients you need! So far, no morning sickness yet, but I'm only 5 wks today, so that has some time to arrive yet.
Love you peanut,
Your momma

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Wednesday

Little one,
Well, as I write this, the construction guys are screwing in drywall to finish off the basement. I bet your favorite part of the basement will be the toy room! It will be so good to have it completed before you are born. We are also considering putting in a swimming pool, but not sure yet. Well, I am real sick, with the flu. My whole body aches, and I have been taking regular Tylenol. I hope I get over this quickly, and I hope it doesnt impact you little one. I have been keeping a close eye on my temperature to be sure it stays in the normal range. So far so good. I can't wait to hear your little heart beat!
Love you,
Your momma

P.S. Today is Grandpa Vince's birthday! Biggrin

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Thursday

Well, I had a real long meeting at work today. When I went to the bathroom at 1:30, I noticed some light pink spotting on the tp. I checked my cervix, and found some more pinkish spotting, light, but definately there. Nothing on my undies, but I do have some definite cramping on my right side. This evening, I checked my cervix again and had some red spotting, again none on my undies but definitely there. The cramping has eased some, but I can still feel it. Mark is real worried, and actually went out to Cubs tonight, because he wants me to test. I told him to buy a packet of 3 tests, so we can test over the next few days. Mark wanted to tell his parents this Sunday, and maybe Mike and Cindy too. I wanted to wait until the 1st ultrasound, because I worried about the potential for m/c. I don't know what to think. I guess I'm thinking it's 50/50 right now. I'm praying for a miracle.
Angela

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Friday

Well, here is my long story.

Yesterday, around 1:00pm, I started cramping somewhat significantly (I called it a 4 out of 10 scale with 10 being full blown labor) on the right side. I went to the bathroom, and found some pinkish spotting on the tp. When I checked my cervix, I found some more, but nothing on my undies. I was concerned, but I've had spotting in the past. Once I m/c, the other time led to Benjamin. So I didn't know what to think. I came home after work, told my dh, and went to the bathroom again. Again, nothing on the undies, but when I checked my cervix, I found some spotting again, this time more red in color, and one was a bit clotty. The cramping seemed to lighten, and in the evening and overnight the spotting stopped. About 9am, I went to the bathroom today and the spotting started again, this time pinkish brown. By noon, there was just a little on my undies, and I thought I better call the clinic. My positive blood test was 1 week 1 day ago (last Thursday), so I started to get worried, just a little. Since I have m/c previously, my ob sent my to an ultrasound lab, then I had a meeting with my ob right after.

I knew things were not good when the lab tech was so quiet. I honestly went thinking I would be reassured with that magical heartbeat. My dh's parents are coming this weekend, and my dh wanted to tell them. I thought this ultrasound would put my mind at ease and enable me to tell them confidently, w/o as much fear of a m/c. The lab took many pictures, and then even took pictures of my kidneys. She asked if I shoulder pain, which at the time I thought a bit weird, now it makes sense. At the end, she quickly snatched the photos and sympathetically said, I hope the ob can bring you good news (she knows I lost Benjamin). I asked her about the heartbeat, and she said there wasn't one, but that didn't necessarily mean I wasn't pg, I could just be earlier on than I thought.

I went to my ob, she arrived, and told me the results of the ultrasound did not show anything in my uterus, but did show a growth (3cm wide in one area) near my right ovary. She highly suspects a tubal pg. She talked about my options, that chance of self resorption, using methotrexate (a chemotherapuetic agent) to dissolve the tissue or having surgery to remove it. That's when I cried. The loss is one thing, it's another thing to look forward to potential surgery, and potential scarring, and the potential to lose one of my tubes and how that would affect TTC. She ordered a stat blood test, to check if my body could handle the methotrexate, and to found out what my quant blood test would say. My Hcg level came back as 831, which my ob was happy about. She sent me home, if my cramping worsens or I have significant bleeding I have to go to the ER. Otherwise they will be another quant on Monday. If the quant goes down on its own, then the chances are better that I may be able to pass the tissue on my own (but not guaranteed). If my quant goes up, they will do another ultrasound. If my uterus still looks empty and my quant is up, she recommends laproscopic surgery. There is a very small chance that I still could be pg. She said the embryo does not typically show up via ultrasound in the uterus until the blood hcg levels are btwn 1500 towards 2000. So I still could be pg with a viable embryo, but she said the chances of this are slim.

So, I've been pg 3 times. 1st with a m/c; 2nd with a baby who was born and died from severe heart and lung defects and now 3rd with a tubal more than likely. I have to admit I'm feeling a bit sorry for myself. I'm trying to be strong, but I'm so disappointed. I can't believe the sh-tty odds we seem to fall into time and time again. She said she estimated that tubal pgs only happen about 1%, but now that increases to 10% if I have one now. And Ben's defects were less than 1%, but now those chances increase as well. Sometimes I wonder if we're not meant to be parents. My heart is broken.

So, the wait continues.
Angela

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Well, it's Saturday morning and soon I'll be at MSU for Give Kids a Smile. I am still spotting, reddish brown, enough to wear a pad now. My cramping has increased some from yesterday, still bearable though. If it gets worse, I'll go into the ER. My temp is still up, which makes me think it is probably a tubal since the cramping and bleeding continue. If the cramping or bleeding would stop, I would be more hopeful that this was maybe a good pg. I wish I knew what to expect. I'm nervous about needing surgery, and how long it may take to recover. I'm needed at work, and time off is usually not possible. I hopefully have at least a few sick days stored up from when I left for Benjamin. Mark keeps holding out hope that things will be OK. Sometimes that frustrates me, I feel he's being unrealistic. Actually, last night, we were both really on edge and snapping at each other. Although he doesn't really talk about it, I can really tell how upset and disappointed he is. He seems real concerned with when we can try again, and how long will my recovery be so we can bd again. Right now, bd is off limits - it could rupture the tubal pg. On top of all this I am real sick with a cold/flu. My voice is disappearing and I keep coughing etc. I wish I was healthy. I wonder if Mark blames me for all these problems. He's never said it, but he has made comments like at least we know my sperm work. I'm not sure how I feel about that. He's not trying to be hurtful, he's just pointing out the positive. Sometimes I feel like he tries to be too positive. He keeps saying, we'll get pg soon again, and we'll have a baby in December, etc. It is starting to drive me crazy. I'm just wired differently. He gets upset with me when I say things like we'll be lucky to have a baby by the time we are 30. We are just so different. Being married is not easy. We don't fight often, but when we do it is usually pretty ugly. I can feel one of those big fights brewing. We are both so stressed. I think I will write him a letter, telling him how I feel.
Angela

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Sunday

Well, yesterday, I did write Mark a letter, and he wrote one back. I think we are both feeling a lot better. This time is so hard, not knowing what will happen, still holding onto a thread a hope that my peanut was just too little to see in the uterus. I would just absolutely love a miracle to happen on Monday, where we go in, and there it is! Realistically, I know this is doubtful, but one can dream right?! My cold is getting worse, with my voice disappearing and my cough increasing, even using Robitussin. On Monday if there's no improvement, I'll be seeing a Dr. about that too. My temp was pretty high today, with another positive pg test, so it definitely looks like either I'll be needing surgery or maybe my peanut is OK. On Saturday during the day, I only had real light brown spotting, just barely a streak on my pad. And during Saturday night and early Sunday morning, the spotting stopped. We'll see if it comes back today. Still having sporadic cramping, but overall less than on Thursday.
Still waiting and hoping,
Angela

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Monday

Well, today is the big day, when we should find out more information about this pg. I'm so hoping that my hcg levels have doubled, and they find the little peanut inside my uterus. My cramping and spotting have stopped. My stupid cold continues. Last night, I coughed for at least 2 hours before I finally fell asleep. I slept in the spare bedroom to not disturb Mark. It was sooooo crappy. At least the bed was comfortable. It would also be great if the information they find today is definitive. Such as the best scenario, or if that can't be, then I hope the hcg levels don't rise hardly at all, that would be pretty typical of a tubal. I hope the info we get today isn't wishy washy. I would like it to be good news, but if that can't be, then I hope it is straight forward. I'm thinking if I'm not pg in my uterus, I'll probably have to have surgery. But for some strange reason, even though normally I'm not very optimistic, I have a feeling that I am pg. I sure hope so.
Angela

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Well, the results of my hcg levels were not good. It dropped to 600 something. My ob wants to monitor my levels every 2 days until it drops below 5. If it does not fall quick enough, she wants to try methotrexate to help dissolve any remaining tissue. She hopes to avoid surgery. My spotting has stopped, so I guess I'll be waiting for that to start up again. I have slight cramping on the right side, and she said if anything changes I'm supposed to call in right away. After this passes, she wants to schedule an HSG to check my plumbing out. That will also tell us what our risk is to have another tubal pg. She recommends waiting 2 months before trying again. So, I'm pretty sad. I was still hoping maybe things would be OK. October would be such a great month for a baby, in time for all the holidays. Another set of holidays alone sounds so depressing. But with waiting 2 months, the Spring arrives. And Spring brings new life, hopefully for us once again as well.
Angela

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Wednesday

Well, the results of my hcg levels actually went up today, from 600 something on Monday to 800 something today. Actually, the 1st quant I had was 700 something, so this is higher than that. My OB is sending me for another ultrasound this afternoon, which is going to make me miss both my pain lab and senior clinic. I'm a bit frustrated, because I asked the OB nurse if I should call in for the results, or come in after the u/s and she said no, the Dr. will call after she reads the results. I feel like she won't be able to get a hold of me. Oh well. I'm sure I'll get in touch with her. What a nightmare, as the drama continues. I can't help but hope they find a heartbeat, even thought the chances of that are next to impossible. I haven't had any spotting for the past 2 days, but this morning, some of my cm was tinged brown. That seems to be picking up slightly, turning into more true spotting, but very brown. Having light cramping on both sides. Lisa was nice enough to be willing to cover for me in lab and for clinic. I don't think I'll be going to the meeting tonight either. Such a waiting game.

11:30am I just went to the bathroom and now bright red bleeding has started. That makes me so nervous, as I hope it has not ruptured. Still having some cramping, but not terrible. I guess at this point I will wait and see if the bleeding gets worse or the cramping gets worse, if it does, I guess I'll go in to the ER or something.

Angela

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Went for the ultrasound on Friday at about 1:30pm, then was sent to the clinic to see my ob. I asked the tech if she could describe what she saw. She said she still saw something on the right side, but it looked different than before. She didn't know if it looked better or worse. Mark met me at LCM, and then we dropped off my car and drove to the clinic. After waiting just a bit at the clinic, Dr. Goerish saw us. She did an exam, and said my cervix was dilated slightly. My bright red bleeding continued, my cramping was there, but not severe. However, the rising Hcg levels combined with the fact that the mass was still there on the ultrasound led her to recommend surgery. She said she would rather be conservative, and if it was not a tubal, she would do a D&C at that time. I told her that since Mark and I were both worried about a potential rupture, and wanted to save the tube if at all possible, we also thought surgery was the best option. Also, it worked well for me with work, I would only miss Thursday's Oral Path class, I had Friday off. Dr. Goerish was on call all day Wednesday night, so it worked well for her too. I was wheeled over to the hospital and checked in on the 5th floor. Mark called our family, and my mom and dad came to wait with Mark. The nurse who did my IV did not do a great job. She dug and dug the 1st time, but was not able to find a vein. She then redid it and finally found a vein. OUCH!

I was wheeled down to the surgery room right at 5:00pm. It was pretty scary, and I was pretty cold. I didn't realize that I would be intubated while under general anesthesia. My throat was so sore after.

The surgery took a little over 2 hours. It was a tubal, and there was blood spilling from the tube into my abdomen. The Dr. had to remove both the blood, which irritated my appendix, and the tubal pg. So now my appendix is at risk, so hopefully it heals OK. The good news is that she said my ovaries, tubes and uterus look great. She has no idea why this happened, I do not have any risk factors, and she could not identify endometriosis either. She thinks my risk of another tubal is low, but will know more definitely after the HSG. I can't have the HSG until my tube has healed, along with everything else, so that will be a minimum of 2 months. She was very surprised/disappointed that the 2 ultrasounds did not pick up on the internal bleeding. I consider myself so lucky, because the bleeding and rising Hsg levels led her to believe I was on the path to a rupture. She was able to spare my tube, and barring any severe scarring, I should be good as new.

I had to spend the night in the hospital. Luckily, Mom agreed to stay with me. I had low blood pressure, which set off the alarm every hour on the hour all night long. At about 3am, I woke up and was in quite a bit of pain, approaching 4-5 on the scale of 1-10. The nurse wanted me to go to the bathroom first, which my mom knew was a mistake. Standing up for the first time, my pain increased, and I was starting to get real dizzy. I could feel myself coming very close to vomiting, and felt terrible. Just as I got to the toilet, the nurse said wait, could I wait until she got a drop bucket to measure my urine output. I said, are you serious? She said it would be best assuming I could wait. I stood in the bathroom waiting, and knew I was about to pass out, I called for my mom, and she came rushing in. Finally the nurse returned, but my pain had really increased, and I could feel myself starting to hyperventilate. By the time I got back to my bed, my pain was at least a 7 and rising. She didn't have the pain med ready, so I laid in bed crying on my left side as Mom tried to reassure me. I told Mom I was getting scared, because each breath I took just killed my abdomen. I asked her to reassure me, she stroked my head and told me everything would be OK. In 10-15 minutes, the nurse finally returned with the pain med, and relief came at last. That was the worst part of the night. From there on out it got a lot more bearable. Although, now I'm careful to not let my pain meds lapse. They never offered pain meds, so I felt like I should try to tough it out or something. I asked my new morning nurse if they preferred I try not to take pain meds at home and she told me I should take them, as my body would heal faster if it was not in pain. Wish I would have had that reassurance last night. Oh well. During the night I also experienced some terrible headaches.

I was discharged this Sat. at about 11am. Mom stayed with me today until Mark got home from work. I'm having some pain, especially in my shoulders from the gas they pumped into my stomach for the surgery, but the meds are helping. The worst part is the swelling - I look pregnant, but I'm not. If that does not improve by tommorrow, I have to go in and get checked for a possible infection/internal bleeding. I am sooooooooooo glad it is over, and feel so lucky that my Dr. took an active approach rather than waiting for a rupture. I'm going to send her a thank you. I go back for a check up in one week.
Angela

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I'm hoping that sharing my story will help me heal.

My DH and I married in April of 2000. I wanted children right away, I knew that being in early to mid twenties would be better for TTC, but my DH wanted to wait. In retrospect I know this was a wise choice, we needed that time to secure our relationship with each other, before adding a new life to our family. But I also know that as each day passes, my odds of getting pg decrease. I can feel the clock ticking, and it seems to tick faster each day. My parents and even DH think I'm crazy to worry. But here I sit, 27 years old and no babies in my arms. If I get pregnant again, it will be my 4th pregnancy, and yet the nursery still sits empty and alone. What if I never have the opportunity to bring a baby home?

In July of 2002, DH agreed to start trying. We managed to get pg in Sept, and I was so excited. The baby would come in May, perfect timing for my teaching job with the summers off. I had spotting even as I first found out with the HPT. My blood test was positive, but the spotting continued, so more blood tests were drawn. My hcg levels were falling, and I m/c on my own.

DH and I tried again right away. We managed to get pg in early November 2002, and this baby was due on July 29th, 2003. Benjamin Alan was born on July 20th, and lived for 5 wks in the PICU. Unfortunately, severe heart and lung defects took him from us, and he's in heaven instead of in the nursery we had all ready for him. All of our baby things are gathering dust. The closet is full, but the room is empty.

Again, my DH kept on trying. Recently, after 2 long cycles I found out I was pregnant on January 29th. We were sooooooo excited! This baby would be born in early October, in time for all the holidays. I was so looking forward to a baby in my arms again, this time hopefully in my home. Unfortunately, we found out this was not a normal pg either, but an ectopic pg. I had surgery on February 11th to remove the tubal pg from my right side and remove the blood which was spilling from my tube. We need to wait for things to heal before we try again. Despite the Dr. stating that my ovaries, tubes and uterus look healthy, and she thinks the odds of having another tubal are rare, I feel so sad. And scared. Life is not fair. I feel a little like "God is up on top of the ant hill with a big magnifying glass, burning my ant feelers" (quote from Jim Carey's recent movie).

I am trying to hold onto hope, however small it may be. I am hoping that this new Spring will bring new life.

Angela

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Well, it has taken a long time for my Hcg levels to fall to a normal range. But today, they finally measured below 2. Yeah! I am on CD8, and my pre-O temps are a bit high, I'm thinking because of the clomid. This is my first cycle since the ectopic. Mark and I are so hoping that we will get pregnant. If we do, I would be due around January 1st. I will be 28 years old by then. How depressing. My hope is diminishing. I am doubtful of the future.

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Well, that cycle did not take. On to 100mg of Clomid, and I'm calling to schedule an HSG too. Dr. Goerish and I keep missing each other on the phone. We also bought a fertility monitor, ridiculoulsy expensive - 199 for the monitor and 50 for the tests. As long as it works, it will be worth it. So today I am 5DPO and hoping everything turns out perfectly - actually I'm hoping for twins! Biggrin
Angela

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Well, I'm pregnant again! WHOOOOPEE!!!! Biggrin :D Mark and I saw our first very faint line 9DPO, and today, 10DPO the line was still faint, but darker than yesterday. I've noticed by bbs are bit bigger, with a few more veins, and my back is killing me. I'm also having slight sporadic cramping. I'm just praying everything is normal. I'm also wondering about twins! Tomorrow, I go in for my first quant blood test. I'm guessing she'll have me retest on Monday. That will be the first hurdle to jump. Mark and I are so excited, it's hard to breathe! Biggrin :D

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Today is the second time we are running our garage sale. Mark was able to get off work to help, so that is really nice. Last Saturday we didn't sell near as much as we hoped, so since everything was set up, we decided to run it again. I doubt we'll sell much more, but you never know! Biggrin This morning I'm headed off to the lab to find out my quant. I'm so nervous. I hope everything turns out well.

We made about $140 at the garage sale! We were pretty pleased considering we didn't sell any big items. Biggrin

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Well, I got my lab results, and my Dr. said the quant is OK for an early pg, it was 23. She wants me to come back on Wednesday for another quant and a progesterone level. I haven't had a progesterone check ever, but I'm assuming since I've m/c and had an ectopic, she justs wants to cover all the bases. Well, I hope everything goes well! If the quant doubles every 2 days, it should be around 130 or so. I am so nervous I feel sick to my stomach. Wednesday seems like forever away. I was hoping I would go back on Monday. Mark agreed that I can buy some more HPT to see if the line grows darker with the upcoming days. I desperately want this to work out.

Angela

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Well, it's Saturday morning and I took another HPT today. It was only marginally darker than the one on Thursday, which is a bit disappointing. At first I was really feeling that this was over. But I decided I'm going to try a positive approach. My blood test yesterday was only 22/23, so today the most it would be is 33, which is still real low for a HPT. I think it should start to get darker around 50-100. I haven't had any spotting, my cervix feels softer and still closed, not open and firm when I had my ectopic last time. I'm a little constipated, which can be a pg symptom, and my bb's are still bigger with veins. I'm going to continue to hope for the best. Mark wants to tell his Mom tomorrow, for her birthday, but I really think we should wait until we get the test results on Wednesday. No sense in getting them all excited if this doesn't take. I've even held off my Mom until Wednesday. She asked on the phone last night if I knew anything yet, and I said no. I went to a garage sale this morning, and bought 6$ worth of clothes. One girl dress and a pink sleep sack. A couple boy items with long sleeves and 2 blue sleep sacks. I looked at my clothes, and the months are all wrong. I won't have much from Ben that will work, as most of it was short sleeve in 0-3 and long sleeve/warm in 3-9. Oh well, looks life I would have to do some shopping! Biggrin I'm still really praying everything works out.
Angela

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I thought I would wait until Monday to retest, but today (Sunday) came, and I just couldn't wait. I have a sickness Wink . But the good news is, the line is getting darker! Biggrin :D Biggrin :D Mark thought yesterday's line was darker, but today's is much more obvious. I am feeling a lot better, but still realizing how early it is. No spotting yet, and my cervix still feels closed. I am really hoping for the best. I sooooooooo want this to work out. Last night, Mark and I got into a big fight about friends. I feel like he is spending a lot of time with Paul, which is fine, but I don't think we need to do everything with him. I wish Mark would get as excited about doing something with me as he does with baseball or Paul. But what the fight was really about was our friends Chris and Karey. I do not know why, but Mark is having a terrible time with jealosy and/or bitterness about their new baby Heather. It is getting really bad, where Mark avoids them, and when we do something together, he sits like a bump on a log and says next to nothing. His poor attitude is going to push them away, and Karey is my BEST friend. I don't have many friends, and I'm so hurt that he would act this way. He hasn't given them even one compliment about Heather in the 8 weeks she has been here. He held her reluctantly for the first time last Wednesday when we babysat while they went out for their anniversary. I asked him last night how hurt he would be if they did that to us??? He just sat there, and finally said, I'm such a terrible guy aren't I? I wanted to scream YES!!!!!!! He does not get it at all. I thought when we got pg, he would snap out of it. I don't know what to do. We go back to counseling in July, so I guess we'll work on it then. Also, my friend Kristine irritated me a bit. She never came to Benjamin's funeral, and yet she told me she was going to one of her other friend's baby's funeral. Why would she tell me that? Did she want to hurt me? Did she learn from Ben's experience that although things can be hard to deal with, you can't run away from them? I guess if that is what she learned, then it was worth it. People have a hard time dealing with death, and I still love her regardless.

Angela

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Today is Monday, memorial day. So far this weekend it has rained every day - depressing. I am really hoping for some sunshine today. My HPT today is a little darker than yesterday. The lines do not match yet, the pg line is still lighter than the reference line, but getting thicker and more obvious. I looked back when I was pg with Ben, and at 14DPO, which I am today, I only had a faint positive then too. That makes me feel a little better. Yesterday Mark and I returned to church after probably a month. It felt good to be there. Before communion I begged God to let me have a healthy baby, even though I know I don't deserve it. I apologized for letting him down, for my anger. I am so nervous about this pg. Yesterday afternoon Phyllis and Gay stopped by on their way home from the cabin. For Phyllis's 60th bday, we bought her an Italian bracelet with all the grandkids birthstones, including a new one for February. It did not take her long at all to figure it out. She was sooooo excited. It was good to see her happy, I hope she is not disappointed. The good thing is I know she will pray for us. I'm still having mild cramping on both sides, sporadic. No bleeding yet, just creamy cm. I looked back and for my ectopic, the bleeding started at 5 weeks 2 days. If I can just make it through the first 6 weeks and see a heartbeat, I would feel much better. I will still be nervous for our 18wk ultrasound, but at least I won't be worrying as much about a m/c or ectopic. The wait for Wednesday continues.....

Angela

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We went out to the lake to see my folks today (Monday). I sat in the docked pontoon for about 30 minutes, the sun was shining, but the super strong wind was just about unbearable. We decided to drive over to Westwood for lunch. After lunch I asked Mom about her favorite color. I then asked her if she liked purple, and what would she think about adding a purple stone to her bracelet. Both my Mom and Dad were excited, but cautious just like us. My mom has really been praying, and I know she will continue. I hope this little peanut grows stronger as each day passes.
Angela

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Tuesday morning, and back to teaching for just 2 more days. I am so excited to almost be done with summer school. I start another class today, using Desire2Learn. I finished my paper for my last Spring class this weekend. My summer classes start in 3 weeks.

My pg test today was darker again. The test line is getting close to the reference line in intensity, still a little lighter, but not by a lot anymore. Tomorrow I go in for the blood tests. I hope to go in before summer school, at 7am for the blood draw. That way I can call at 11am on lunch to find out the results. I sooooooo hope everything is OK. Please please Lord, bless me with a healthy happy baby. As for symptoms, everything is the same, except I should also note that I am extremely stuffy in the nose.

Angela

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Well, I went in for my second blood quant test, and the result was 639!!!!! Holy buckets! Thank you thank you Lord!!! I can't believe it! After doing some research online about average numbers, I'm thinking this could be twins after all! Whoa!!!! I would be thrilled with 1 or 2 - either way, I just continue to pray that my baby or babies are healthy. Dr. Goerish called and said the number looked good, but also commented that they more than doubled, and wants to schedule an u/s for Monday! Whoopee!!! I am so excited and nervous at the same time!!!! Plus, summer school ended today!!!!!!!!!!! It's been a great day. I went to visit Karey and Heather, and I told Karey the good news. After hearing my count, she is convinced I'm having twins. We'll see. I'm trying to be prepared either way. What a great day!!! Biggrin :D Biggrin

Angela

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On Thursday, I spent the whole day away from work. At lunch time, I went to Panera's with Sara. I told her we were pg and she was so excited. She jumped up and gave me a hug. Then in the afternoon I mowed and trimmed the whole yard. It was a beautiful day, my shoulders got a bit red. In the evening Mark and I went out to eat at Friday's. We talked about names, and what we would name them if we had twins. Both of us are excited to have either 1 or 2, but a bit nervous if there were more than 2. I told Mark that I think the odds are 70% twins, 29% singleton and 1% more than twins! Biggrin Monday will be an exciting day.

This Friday morning (4 wks 4 days), I took my last HPT in the house. The pg line is much darker than the reference line. Biggrin :D Biggrin :D In these early stages, that seems so reassuring. The cramping has lessened, and no spotting. My bbs don't seem as big as last time, but I've read that is common in 2nd pg's. Still hoping and praying that everything will turn out great!

Angela

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Saturday, June 5th; 4 wks 5 days
Well, still going well. I get carsick real easily, but I'm not getting super nauseous otherwise. I am more hungry than normal, but I'm really watching what I eat. After Benjamin, I got back down to 141, my pre-pg weight was 142. I weighed myself now and I'm 145! :? Talk about scary. And my stomach really seems to be enlarging. I'm concerned enough about it that I've started a daily exercise routine. I am on day 2, with yesterday being my first day. My routine includes: 5 lb hand weights where I do 4 different arm lifts, 20 reps each. I also do 50 stomach cruches and 25 stomach leg lifts. Then I end with 20 minutes of the treadmill, so far choosing the automatic aerobic cycle which alters slower walking with either fast walking or slow jogging. I sweat just a little bit, which is about perfect. I don't want to overheat or strain myself, but I want to be stronger, and avoid this early weight gain if I can. Or at least be sure the weight gain is from the baby, not fat. I plan to exercise this way every day - just the 10 minutes of weights/situps and then 20 min of cardio. Mark is so good to do 30 minutes of strenuous cardio (running) 3 times a week. He has lost quite a bit of weight. I finally had to ask him to stop talking about his weight loss, as it was getting on my nerves. Not fun to see someone losing weight while with each day you are growing like a house. Today, Mark had a baseball game at 3 in New Market. We plan to go out for a late supper, and then rent a movie. This afternoon the sun finally started to shine again. I'm so excited and nervous for the u/s on Monday. I just can't wait. It is really making the weekend go by slowly. Tracy called us today and told us that Heather's Dad passed away from a sudden heart attack. I feel so bad for Heather and her family. Her Dad was only 48 years old, much much too young.
Angela

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Sunday, June 6th; 4 wks 6 days

I have almost made it to 5 wks, YEAH!! 5 wks to early 6 wks seems to be my danger zone, and is when I lost my last 2. Even with Ben I had spotting at 6 wks, but Ben made it. I really hope I don't spot, it is soooo stressful. Tomorrow is the BIG DAY of the u/s!! I can hardly wait, it feels like Christmas, actually a lot bigger than Christmas. This morning I worked out already, today is my 3rd day. I feel tight in my stomach from the crunches, and my arms are tired after the last set, but overall I feel really good. The exercise actually rejuvenates me, rather than tires me out. Yesterday afternoon, I did take a 2 hour nap however. I slept well last night even with the nap, so I must have needed the extra sleep. Last night while trying to fall asleep, I had the worst gas pains!! I hope I don't have those this whole pg!
Angela

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Monday, June 7th, 7:05am 5 wks
YEAH! The day has finally arrived. I am so nervous I feel like yakking!! I am really hoping for the best! I would be thrilled with however many God chooses to bless me with, and I'm praying they are healthy and perfect. No spotting at all, so that is great so far. This upcoming week tends to be the critical time. I'm dying to know what my HCG levels are now. Depending on what they see today at the u/s, Dr. Goerish may ask me to do another quant. Well, I'm off to work. I am going to miss about 45 min of an important meeting this morning, but my family is more important than work. Hopefully Lynnette will understand. I don't plan on telling them until the end of summer. Please please God, let everything be perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Angela

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Well, I had the u/s today, and the results were a little disappointing. The tech only mentioned one sac, although Mark and I are convinced we saw 2. Maybe the other black circle was just an artifact, but I don't know. No heartbeat either, which seems strange considering how high my quant was. Dr. Goerish wants me to wait for 10 days and then do another u/s. 10 days seems like FOREVER!!!! I hate this waiting.
Angela

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Well, my u/s is scheduled for June 17th at 10:30. I am starting to feel a little better about the whole ordeal. The good news is that next week Mark and I both have vacation. That should work great to help pass the time. We are also getting started on our fence this Saturday. Then during the week we'll continue to work on it. I want to enjoy my summer, and the next 2 weeks are the only time I really have off completely, so I need to stop stressing about this pg. I have to trust the God will take care of me despite what happens with this pg. If the baby is not healthy, then I certainly would want God to stop it from progressing. However, I am still praying and begging that the Lord would bless us with a healthy child. My parents should be returning tonight, so maybe I'll spend some time at the lake later this week. Today I need to keep working on my internet class assignments. Another reason I am feeling better is I'm taking my temp again. This morning it was 98.7! Biggrin Nice and high where it is supposed to be. I think taking my temp each morning will help alleviate some of the stress. If my temps stay up where they should, a m/c is unlikely.
Angela

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June 9th, 5 wks 2 days

Last night was my worst night of sleep in a long time. We had major thunderstorms with flash flooding with a loud storm which produced 3.5 inches of rain!!!! Hopefully that rain will bring up the lake levels! Anyhoo, I woke up several times in the night, first thinking someone had a flashlight outside our bedroom window. Then later after a terrible nightmare about tornadoes. Haley was out near the tornado in my dream, I woke up sweating and had to turn on the news to be sure no tornadoes were near. Luckily, I didn't have to work this morning, so I slept until about 9:30am. So, no temperature today. Things seem to be going fine. I exercised yesterday, and plan to exercise again this morning. I'm meeting Mom for lunch at 1 at Panera's. Hopefully I'll get some more things done to prepare for my EdD school and for my online course.
Angela

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June 10th; 5 wks 3 days

Well, I've known that I am pg for 15 days now! Biggrin It seems like forever!! I'm still trying to patiently wait for more reassuring news at our next u/s - which is one week away. I stopped at the lab today, to look at the u/s photos from the last visit. I tried to see if there were 2 or not. I did see 2 black photos in some of the pictures, but it is impossible to know for sure. I'm really surprised they let me see them.

We have been having rain the past 2 days, accumulating over 9 inches!!!! Lots of flooding, and I'm worried it will be too wet to start our fence this Saturday. I'm looking forward to spending a week off with Mark, I hope we get some sunny weather. We went to John Bowman's funeral today, so sad, he was only 46 years old. I don't know how Heather will handle the stress and grief. I can't imagine losing my Dad right now.

Sara went into labor last night!!!!!!!!!!! She is 3 wks early! Unfotunately, she is having some trouble with hypertension and low platelet counts. She will not be able to have an epidural or ISN due to the platelets, so is trying to labor with only nubain. At about 2:00pm she was 5cm. I can't wait, and I so hope everything goes OK for both mom and baby. I'm so excited to visit.

So far with me, everything is going well. No spotting, just some discomfort at night in my back. I exercised today and yesterday, I'm really proud of myself. I'm thinking that my situps will really help with my back pain. I am continuing to pray that my baby is safe inside me, growing each day perfectly.

Angela

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June 11th; 5 wks 4 days

This morning I went to visit Sara and Tony at the hospital! Biggrin They had a beautiful baby boy, 7 lbs, 1 oz, born last night at 5:59pm. They named him Max Anthony. Her labor went well, but she has a rare form of preeclampsia which will prevent her from coming home until Sunday. Luckily, she went into the hospital before she had any complications like seizures. The lucky duck got to deliver 3 wks early! Biggrin :D And other than being sleepy from the medication, both mom and baby are doing great. Being in the hospital made me so nervous. I so want a child of my own, and I'm so fearful of losing another child. I really pray that everything will be OK.

Angela

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June 13th; 5 wks 6 days

We did start the fence yesterday. It was quite warm and not a cloud in the sky. The heavy rains made our back yard like a swamp though, and the clay was so sticky, we each had 20 lb shoes with clay stuck all over. It was pretty grueling work. We worked from 8:30 to 3 and put up 6 panels and 7 posts. 22 more posts to go!!!! OH MY!!!!! Today I am burnt, and tired, I feel hung over w/o having a drop to drink! I even feel a bit nauseous, but maybe that's the pg, who knows? Mark and I went to visit Sara and Tony last night. Mark held Max, and they are doing really well. Her platelet count still hasn't come back up, so they might not get to come home even today. No working on the fence today. Mark has a double header baseball game in Cleveland, and I think I may try to get out on the pontoon with Mom and Dad. I'm almost to 6 wks. I keep hoping and praying that everything is OK.

Angela

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June 14th; 6 wks

Yesterday, I spent the day on the pontoon with Mom and Dad. It was pretty nice, and we went to Westwood for supper. Today we will work on the fence again from 4-9 or so. 3 more days until the u/s! Biggrin

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June 15th, 6 wks 1 day

Today JoAnn Seibel and Mom are coming over to see the house with the finished basement, and then we are going out to lunch. Mark will be playing basketball at noon, so he won't be able to join us. This afternoon, Haley gets a much needed haircut at 1, and we need to purchase the remaining cement to finish the fence. We are half done, and stopped pretty early yesterday because Scott needed to go play softball and we ran out of cement. I am hoping we can finish it today, assuming it doesn't rain this evening.
Two gals on the February board have m/c already. This early stage of pg is so risky, and so so sad when things go wrong. I feel a little better making it to 6 wks 1 day, and I know my O date is right since I temped and used a fertility monitor. I have cut off Mark from bd'ing until the u/s. I just don't want to take any chances, and I know how devastated Mark would feel if I started spotting after. I figure better safe than sorry, and it's just a couple more days. Please Lord, protect my little one(s), continue to help them grow perfect in every way.
Angela

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June 16th; 6 wks 2 days

One more day until the big u/s!!!!!!!!! I am real excited, and I'm praying everything goes well. Haley's haircut looks real cute, and we finished almost all of the fence last night! We left the gate section out so our landscaper will have room to get the bobcat in the back yard. We didn't get done until about 9:45, and then rushed to Cold Stone for ice cream after we had showered. It tasted wonderful.

As for symptoms: My bbs are quite big, with plenty of veins. I get queasy if I don't eat, and I'm hungry often, but trying not to eat a ton. A couple of days ago I weighed myself and I was up to 146! Sucky! Still no spotting, some back ache at night, but maybe a bit better since I've been working out. With doing the fence the past 3 days, I haven't been working out, but now that we are done I will start again. My body is soooooo sore and tired from the fence. Also, I continue to have a stuffy nose.

We were hoping to go out to the lake today, but of course the sun is not shining. Maybe we will be able to tomorrow after the u/s. Please Lord, let everything be perfect, let this baby grow inside me perfectly.

Angela

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June 18th; 6wks 4 days

The U/S yesterday went great! There is one baby, with a good heartbeat of 124 bpm. The baby is measuring perfectly for a Feb 8 due date. I spoke with Dr. Goerish this morning, and she said everything looks great. My 1st Dr. app is July 9th, I'll almost be 10 wks. I'm still worried, but I'm feeling much more confident now that there's a heartbeat. Today I've been feeling kind of nauseous all day, hopefully it's just today.

Angela

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June 23rd; 7 wks 2 days

Well, everything seems to be going well. Yesterday morning on the drive to my EdD, I almost got sick, but managed to keep it down. I have been fighting off waves of nausea, but so far not too bad. My biggest concern is my weight gain, already 4-5 lbs and my pants are getting tight! :?
I'm hoping that settles down soon, I think I'm going to move the scale out of the bedroom, I'm too obsessive about it. My bbs are also HUGE! Sitting all day in tiny desks for my classes really sucks, but over half of the 1st week is done, and so far no out of class assignments. I've been making a few meals, even lasagna. I've been watching what I eat, so I'm really hoping I don't gain a ton of weight, but not much else I can do. I guess I'll just worry about it after I've delivered.

Angela

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July 5th, 9 wks

I can't believe I finally made it to 9 wks! This is the only pg out of all 4 where I haven't had any spotting! YEAH! Biggrin I'm feeling pretty nauseous, particularly if I don't have something in my stomach. I don't really think I'm eating any more than I used to, but my weight today was 149. That's 7 lbs!! I've decided there is not much I can do. Now that my EdD classes are over, and I finished all my assignments for my online Bemidji class, I hope to start exercising again. My appointment is in 2 days, a small part of me still wonders if it is twins. I'm guessing I'll get an u/s since it will probably be too early to hear the baby with the doppler. Especially since I have a tipped uterus. We'll see if my uterus is measuring large. I get heartburn pretty bad t/o the day. Either I'm hungry, or feel stuffed and am burping up my last meal. I've grown out of my capris that I bought for the summer, oh well. Now I'm starting to worry about the health of this baby. I pray that everything will be OK.
Angela

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July 10th, 9wks 5 days

My first pg appointment went great, despite the long wait because Dr. Goerish had to do an emergency c-section. My uterus is still tipped, so she did an U/S. Everything looks great so far, measuring 2 days larger than my due date, so I guess anytime btwn Feb 6-8th could be it. During the u/s, we could see the baby moving its arms, it was so neat. The heartbeat was 179, which is the exact same as Ben's was at this stage. She said that heartbeat is perfect, which makes me happy, but knowing that everything looked great for Ben, and then wasn't still makes me so nervous. She said my level II u/s will be btwn 18-20 wks, and she recommended I do the triple screen blood test, to rule out genetic abnormalities. She didn't recommend an amnio, I guess they only recommend that if the other tests show up problems. Both Mark and I aren't sure if we would have an amnio, the risks scare us both. And we won't abort, so the test would only be for our own preparation.

Rachel was here for several days, we took her up to the MegaMall yesterday. Mark and Rachel went on the new ride at the park in the mall, Timber twister or something of the sort. I'm feeling a little blue today, and not sure why. Maybe I'm just sad that our week off from work is over. Benjamin's birthday is right around the corner. I wonder what he would be like, what it would be like to hold him, to hear him say Momma or Dada.

My stomach is hurting pretty much all the time. I have bad heartburn, combined with achiness and fullness, and yet at times I'm hungry too. Not comfortable that's for sure. My next appointment is August 9th, I'll be 14 wks then. Maybe by then I'll be feeling a little bit better, as I'll be in the 2nd trimester.

Angela

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July 17th, 10 wks 5 days

I am thrilled to write that I still weigh 149! Biggrin I haven't gained any weight for about 2 wks now! Biggrin I was hoping that my weight would level off for a while, but I figured it was just wishful thinking. At this point, I'm only 3 lbs more than I was with Ben! Biggrin I can live with that! Biggrin

Last night we started Karey's fence. Mark has a ballgame today, so I'll help alone. I like hanging out with Karey though, so that should be fun. I'm feeling pretty decent, today, I'm feeling pretty nauseous this morning, but usually once I eat it gets a little better. Ben's birthday is coming up soon. I have come to a point now that I feel OK with the fact that this baby might not be healthy. I am trusting God that he will give me the strength to make it through, not in advance, but just when I need it. I will be thrilled if everything is perfect, but I am prepared if it is not.

Angela

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July 24th, 11 wks 5 days

Still only 149!!!!!!! That is my good news. Other good news, Jill's little boy Isaac got to go home yesterday. That is a complete miracle from God. A miracle, what exactly is a miracle? I know God has done them, probably in my life too. Why is it so hard to see them? Why is it so hard for me to hope for a miracle baby, who is healthy, happy and perfect? My mom says this news of Isaac's miracle should encourage me that God has a miracle planned for our lives too. Instead, I feel somewhat sad. I guess I feel like when other's experience miracles, it reduces the chances that we'll get a miracle too. I mean, how many miracles can I expect to see? Stupid, I know. In my mind, I know this is foolish. I know I need to rest in the Lord, and let him lead. Instead, I find myself constantly wishing I knew more, constantly wishing I had the answers. I should be happy to still be pregnant, to not have morning sickness, to not have any spotting. Instead I am scared out of my mind that this baby will be sick. And I don't know how I will handle it. Will I have the strength? Will I have the faith? Will Mark and my relationship endure?

Dear Lord,
I give you my pain, my fear, my worry. I don't want it anymore. I want to trust you. I want to trust that you will always be there for me. And, I want you to know, that no matter what, I will be obedient. Even if it breaks my heart.
Angela

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July 28th; 12 wks 2 days
Well, I hit 150 lbs. Oh well, the plateu was nice while it lasted! Smile Actually, I'm almost relieved in one way, I'm assuming the weight gain means the baby (and the rest of me) is growing a litle. I go back for another app in 2 wks. My tummy is definitely growing, especially noticeable at night after eating all day. My bbs are still sensitive too. I can't believe it is almost August! I CANNOT wait until February, I am dying to hold this little one!
Angela

Andrea from PDA was due yesterday with her 2nd baby and has still not gone yet! I can't believe it - that would be so frustrating, they will induce her Friday if she is still waiting.

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August 4th, 13 wks 2 days

Well, I am now 151 lbs. I'm hoping to hold here until my appointment at 14 wks. I just finished working at PDA for the past 2 days, and my back is killing me. I am really glad that I'm not working full time as a dental hygienist - too much stress on the body. I have been dog sitting Molly since Saturday. She has been pretty good, but I'll be glad when her parents get back. She's a little more barky than Haley is, and there is not as much room on the bed.

Angela

Andrea from PDA had a baby girl, Chloe, on Friday. She ended up going into labor on her own on Thursday night around midnight.

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August 9th, 14 weeks

Well, my second pregnancy appointment is done. It was short, and right on time. I am a little disappointed because she didn't schedule my level II u/s like I thought she would. Instead, she wanted to wait until my next appointment in 4 wks. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to schedule an apointment until Friday of that week, so I'll almost be 19 wks then. The only good part about that is at least the baby will be bigger, so hopefully they will be able to see everything they need to. Also, she waited with the triple screen test until my next appointment, which worries me. I know that the optimal time to test to avoid false positives is between 16 and 18 weeks. I'll be over that a bit, so I think I'm going to call her nurse and ask if I could come in a bit earlier than that just for the blood test. If not, I think I'll skip the test.

Good news - I only gained 1 and a half pounds in 5 wks! Biggrin :D I'm thrilled about that! The Dr. found the heartbeat pretty quickly, about 150 bpm. My blood pressure was a bit high - 140 something over 80 something. She's not worried at this time, I thought maybe it was because I was nervous. I was worried that something could have happened to the baby, and the heartbeat reassured me that my little one is still there.

I bought 4 shirts and 1 shirt/pant set from Sears on clearance all for $30!! I was thrilled, and I'm wearing maternity clothes now. I don't really fill them out yet, but my regular clothes are too tight. I have been feeling pretty good, I haven't been sick yet throwing up like last time.

Angela

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August 16, 15 wks

I still only weigh 151 lbs! Biggrin :D Biggrin I am now only 1 lb over what I was with Ben at this time! Biggrin I'm pretty excited about that.

Mark and I are leaving today for our trip to Wisconsin Dells. I just looked at weather.com and I don't know if the weather is going to cooperate. I hope we have a good time anyways. It really thunderstormed here last night, but I guess we needed the rain.

Sara Abrahamson borrowed me a ton of maternity clothes! I'm am so excited and thankful. I can't believe school starts in a week!

Angela

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August 23rd, 16 wks

I now weigh 152lbs. I'm still doing pretty well, I've stopped worrying about weight gain pretty much. Today was my first day back at school full time, with all the meetings and speeches today, no students until next week. I'm pretty tired as I was out the door at 7:30 and didn't get home until 5:00. Tomorrow I am at PDA. This weekend Virg and Diane and several of the cousins with kids are coming to visit. Not sure who all will be staying with us - we will see. Mom's birthday was nice, it was a great day on the lake.

Angela

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August 24th, 2004

Well, today is the anniversary of Benjamin's death. I did just fine working at PDA all day, and even told Lori it was the anniversary. I didn't cry at all until my drive home. Listening to christian music can often do that to me. While I miss Benjamin terribly, I know he is in a good place. I wonder if he is watched over by other family members who went before him. At the same time, this anniversary reminds me how fragile life is, and how there are no guarantees. While I desparately pray this child I now carry is healthy and perfect, a part of me knows that this may not be the case, and once again, I'll have to say good-bye. Karey invited us over for supper with Tony and Sara, but I can't decide what to do. It can be quite hard to be the only couple without a baby in our arms, and yet, to be alone is hard too. I'm so glad the first year is over, I pray that the memories become sweeter, easier to bear without so much pain. And above all else, I pray that God will provide the strength and courage to face whatever challenges life present.

Angela

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August 30th, 17 wks

I gained another pound and now weigh 153lbs. That is the exact same amount as I weighed at 17 wks with Ben. Feeling good about that.

Today was the first day of classes, and I have class from 8am to 8pm - boy am I really tired now. I told the seniors during night class that I was pregnant, and they were excited for me. Several said they suspected I was, but didn't know for sure. The first day went pretty well, no big surprises which was nice. I had my triple screen test on Friday of last week, and should get the results by Friday Sept 3rd. A little less than 2 wks until my next OB app.

Angela

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Sept 6th, 18 wks

I now weigh 154 lbs. This week I had my 1st stranger acknowledge my pg. I was waiting for a table at Applebee's, and the benches were full so I decided to sit on the ground. Another lady said, take my seat, I'll never forgive myself if I let a pg women sit on the ground. Even though I still feel like I just look fat, I guess I must look pregnant now. Yesterday Mark and I went to the cities and I bought several maternity clothes. It is so nice that today is Labor Day, and we get one more day to our weekend. I was so absolutely exhausted last week, that I really needed this weekend to rest and rejuvenate. I'm feeling quite a bit better. It seems I can't sleep past about 7:45am. I have 4 more days to work at Dr. Flor's in New Richland on Tuesday mornings, and then I'm done. I'm looking forward to capturing back that time to work on other things. I called for my triple screen blood test results on Friday, and everything came back negative. Hopefully, this is the first good test result of many.
Angela

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September 8th; 18 wks 2 days

Yesterday I'm almost positive I could feel the baby move multiple times. As Lynnette was driving to our EdD class in Rochester, I felt it then, and then again during class. I have also felt it a little today. Yesterday, our landscaper started removing sod in our yard. I'm excited to see how it turns out. I am super tired again, and hoping to get to bed early tonight. Mom finished her last chemo app on Monday, and is excited to be done.

Angela

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