Still no nausea, but the nightmares are still there and my bbs have been so incredibly sore.
Last night was actually OK for dreams, but Tuesday night's were so weird and scary. I really believe my nightmares are stemming from my worries about something going wrong.
I wish I could get an earlier u/s or blood test done rather than waiting until March 9. I know an u/s won't prevent anything from happening, but it might ease my fears a little. Maybe if I still feel this way next week, I will ask Dr. K about it.
I've been spending the day at Rob's today as they are spraying my apartment. Actually, it's my parents place. Although I still live there and I know I will always be welcome there, I see it more and more as my parent's home. I am looking forward to having a place of my own (well, with Rob ). I really need to find a job. So far, nothing. I have another intervew next Monday, but its so frustrating going on so many interviews, spending money to get to and from and getting nauseous on the bus rides. That's the only time that I get really nauseous, is on the bus but I think that comes from my motion sickness as a child.
I took a picture of my 6 week belly yesterday and posted it in an album on this site. Although you can't see anything at all right now, I wanted to take a "before picture". That's another thing that's got me a little upset, all of the other women who have posted pictures at 6 weeks seem to be bigger. Rob tells me I'm being silly worrying about that, especially since we haven't told everyone yet (his mum) it's better that I'm not showing this early. I guess in a way he's right. I also weighed myself today... it was 102lbs. I guess that is my "before" weight as I usually weigh around 100-105, never more, never less.
OK, now that I've written down (typed) some of my worries, I feel a little better.
Nooner, you better be OK in there. I am so looking forward to seeing your smiling face in September!
Not much to report today. I had another weird dream last night. Well, it actually went from about 6:15 to 8:00 this morning. At night, I didn't really dream.
The dream was mainly about my kitten, Sonja (she is really my mum's). She came home from the vet's and was able to make birds appear out of nowhere, but then she would chase them into the bathroom and kill them. She was talking to me too. The dream ended with me having a m/c. This is the second dream to end like this. It's really scary and I don't know why I keep dreaming about that.
My bbs are still really sore.
I did the ring test today - where you hold a ring tied to a piece of your hair above your stomach. If it swings back and forth it's a boy, if it swings in circles, it's a girl. It swung back and forth. I even did it with my necklace and it went back and forth. Rob had to see it because he is still convinced it's a girl, but again, it went back and forth. Even though it's an old wives tale, I wonder if it'll be true...
I feel so bad, I haven't been updating this as much as I'd like to, but I do have a good reason.
The m/s has gotten worse. It's not really m/s though, it's more afternoon/evening nausea. The mornings aren't too, too bad, but come 3-4 in the afternoon, it hits hard. I don't want to sit up much at all. I try to lay down as much as possible. Today it is OK, so far. The queasiness is there but it's not too bad. I think it's because I've eaten quite a bit today, well, at least more than I have been. But, that's why I haven't been posting as much. I don't want to sit at the PC for very long.
I am feeling much better about this pregnancy. I can "feel" a lot more going on down there than I did last time. There is light cramping and some pains every now and then and I don't remember getting that last time. Of course, I feel bad for Rob though. Since everything feels so weird down there, I really haven't wanted sex. It's been almost 3 weeks now. (TMI) I keep apologizing to him and he just tells me to shut up, I'm carrying his child and that's all that matters to him . From what I read and what ppl tell me, it's supposed to get much better in that area during the second trimester so lets hope that it's true.
My dad also knows now. I just found out today. Apparently he overheard my mum and I talking last week when we thought he was sleeping. Well, he asked my mum the next morning what we were talking about. She tried to tell him that we were just talking about life in general but he knew and just said, she's pregnant, I know. I know they're both not too happy about it since Rob and I aren't working but once the baby comes and we have our own place, I'm sure they will be happy to have their first granchild.
The reason I found out my dad knew is because almost everday this week I've either asked him to come pick me up at Rob's cause I've been too sick to walk home and last night I came home really early since I felt so nauseous. I asked my mum this morning if I should tell him because I'm sure he would be asking why I've been sick everyday and she just said, he already knows. That is when she told me how he knew. He just hasn't said anything to me yet. I think it's because he doesn't know quite what to say.
My mum also told my aunt Dixie last night since they went out to dinner, but she agreed not to tell anyone and I know she won't.
Well, that's my story for the past few days. You are in my thoughts constantly Nooner and I'm trying really hard to think positively for you. It's getting easier every week that goes by. Yesterday was 7 weeks and this was around the time that I lost the last one. I still remember that baby each and every day. But I feel a lot more pregnant than I did last time which is very good. Just, please, stay with me this time!!
I love you Nooner and can't wait to hold you in my arms. <3
Wow, it's been awhile since I posted. It's just I don't feel like staying on the PC much lately. I'll come to this site and browse but I haven't been posting much.
Quite a bit has happened though. I still don't have a job. It is getting very frustrating. I just want Rob & I to have our own place and be ready for when the baby comes, but we can't seem to get work. I went to my mum's work yesterday to help her out, but she can't afford to have me there everyday, even though I'm sure she would need me for at least 2 weeks or more to help her get organized.
Jen and Earl came by on Tuesday as Jen wanted to get her hair done. I wasn't home when they got here, but my mum couldn't keep it in and told them I was pregnant. I wanted to wait and tell them, but it's fine that they know. When I got home, they congratulated me but left pretty much as soon as I got home as they both had to work the next day. Then, when they got home, Earl called to tell us that Jen was pregnant!!! They didn't want to say anything while they were here as they didn't want to take away from me. I find it very exciting. My mum was in complete shock! She went from having no grandchildren to having 2 within about a week of each other. I am due Sept. 20 and Jen is due Sept. 29. My dad still hasn't said much. I don't think he's too, too happy. He is upset that I am not working so I think as soon as Rob and I get straightened out financially, he will be more enthusiastic, but he doesn't usually talk about much as it is. He tends to keep his feelings to himself.
I feel a little better about this pregnancy. I am now 8 weeks and 2 days so I'm past my last pregnancy so it has given me hope. I am still very nervous about not being ready financially. I've gone on so many interviews and it's now been more than a month that I've been off work. Rob had started a job with a guy that he plays CS with, but it only lasted 3 days. The guy lost a lot of contracts and had to let him go. It was a very good job too which Rob really enjoyed so both of us had been excited. Back to the drawing boards.
Tonight we are going to Caseys to meet a whole bunch of people from his CS clan. There is going to be about 15 people. About 5 of them are bringing their wives so I get to go. However, it will be tough watching them all drink and I get to have water or sprite or something to that effect. Although I'm not a drinker at all (I usually can handle only 1 or 2) it'll be hard watching everyone else get drunk. It should be fun though. Of course, it'll be a late night so I hope I do OK. We are meeting at 8:30 and my bed time lately has been like 9:30 and I usually get nauseous come afternoon/evening time so hopefully that is OK as well. I just plan on eating throughout the day, that seems to help, and I'll take a nap this afternoon so I am not tired. I definitely don't want to miss it.
The nightmares still come and go. Last night they were bad. I've been up since 7 cause I was just too tired of falling asleep and having nightmares. They even happened at Rob's last Saturday. I woke up crying at one point. I can't remember the dream now and it's not like I really want to. I don't know what is causing them. I can only guess it's my fears coming out in my dreams. But they mostly involve tornadoes (my biggest fear) and that has nothing to do with pregnancy.
Well, I'm done with my novel for today. Keep being good to me Nooner, you've been doing well so far.
Casey's was fun!! It was a little awkward for me as I didn't know anyone, but being there with Rob made it fun anyways. At least we got to have a night out which we haven't had in awhile.
I was worried at the beginning though as while we were waiting outside Caseys (inside the mall), I started to get dizzy. I think it was just standing still for 20 minutes in the stuffy mall that did it. I went outside for some fresh air until they called us in and I felt much better once we were inside.
They had these yummy strawberry-kiwi smoothies (non-alcoholic, duh) that were AWESOME. I'm definitely going back there soon, just for those.
Other than that, it was a pretty relaxing weekend.
I finally gave in and called my old boss yesterday as I'm just so frustrated with not getting a job. I'm getting that desparate I need a job, we need our own place, and soon.
I told nanny I was pregnant. Actually, I made her a birthday card on Publisher as her birthday was on Feb. 11. It said happy birthday to a wonderful great grandmother. Love, Baby Jen and Baby Earl (for Earl as well). On the inside of the card was a Sept. 06 calendar with mine and Jen's due dates circled. It was soooo cute. Well, she got the card on Friday (the day before her b-day) and she loved it. Aunt Caroline had to somewhat explain it to her, but they were all thrilled. I knew they would be. I've always been really close to them, even though they live so far away. I used to write to Aunt Caroline when I was younger about school and boy problems. That was a long time ago, wow.
Rob also told Luba I was pregnant. She was so happy. He made her promise not to tell anyone since he still hasn't spoken to his father since before Christmas. He doesn't want him to know and feel that he has to be around now because of it. I don't know what to say about this, I will just stand by Rob whatever he decides. It's his family so his decision.
Well, that's it for now.
Happy Valentine's Day!! <3
I love you Nooner, getting excited about seeing you on Mar 9. Less than a month from now.
Another week gone by and still no job. Although the days seem to be going by so slowly, the weeks go by quickly. I am 9 weeks, 4 days today. My u/s is coming soon!!
Nothing really new has happened this week. My bbs are still really sore. The nausea comes and goes. I actually for the first time on Thursday night. I was eating gummy worms at Rob's. They were so good, but I ate way too many. I started to feel really sick, but didn't think I'd actually throw up. Well, I got home, laid in bed for about 10 mins. I got up to go pee before going to sleep. As soon as I was done, I stood up and started gagging. Next thing you know, gummy worms are all over the toilet (sorry, TMI). Afterwards I went to bed and fell asleep right away. I still felt yucky Friday morning but it did go away around lunchtime.
I don't think I mentioned it yet, but Rob and I have changed the girl's name. We don't like the name Kirsten anymore so we changed the first name to Kyra (pronounced Kira). This means we have to change the middle name as well, can't be Kyra Kyara, no no no. We haven't decided on a middle name though.
Well, that's about it for now. Wish me luck in getting a job soon. We need to get out of here. This place (Rob's) is driving me insane. I'd rather stay at home most days, but that would mean not seeing Rob as he hates coming to my place, and I can't do that.
What a week. Rob called me Monday morning at 10:30 to tell me his oma had passed away in her sleep the night before. I ran right over to his house. He was extremely upset, understandably(sp?). She was a wonderful woman. I will miss her very much. She was always very welcoming to me.
So, this week was, as expected, very hectic. There were 2 days of viewings (wed and thurs) and the funeral was yesterday. Everything was done very well but it was extremely sad.
DB told all of his family as the week went on. Everyone was very happy for us. His opa asked us if we have a daughter to name her Marta, after his grandmother. Of course we said yes. So, if it's a girl, her name will be Kyra Marta. Also, his oma's birthday was Sept. 14 so if I give birth a little early, it just might be on that day.
On a happier note, I also found a job. Well, I'm actually going back to the company that I worked for before. I had worked there for 3 years but quit last April. I had kept in touch with my manager though so he was extremely happy to hire me back. I hate to go back but I need something, it is a good salary and it's only for about 6 months (hopefully).
However, I didn't tell my manager that I was pregnant. I plan on going for my u/s on mar. 9 (12wks) then I'll tell him I just found out I am 2mths. I'll just go on "early" mat leave. This has been a dilemma for me though as he is doing me a favor by offering me my old job back. I hope it goes OK.
Well, our new board name is Sapphire Sparkles. I like that name.
I love you Nooner. Everyone can't wait to meet you!!
I am working now I am glad to be back at that company actually. It's weird, the jobs that I had over the past year have been so much worse. I quit this company due to stress of my position. I am now doing a much easier job, hardly any stress. I have also had so many people glad to see me back. I didn't realize how many people missed me when I was gone. It's been kinda fun seeing everybody's reaction to see me back. My manager even took me to lunch on Friday since he was glad I am back. Again, this makes me so nervous to tell them I'm pregnant next Friday.
My hours are 9-6 mon-fri and I get home by 7. I am so tired by that time. Partly because I'm prenant, but also since I'm not really used to working since I've been off for the past 2 months. This was the first week though so I hope it gets better.
I told one friend at work that I was pregnant. I told her because even though I lost touch with her after I left (my fault) she was a really good friend that I missed a lot. Plus, she had given birth to her son Dec 04 and just returned from mat leave in January. She is now 5 months pregnant, due in June with a girl. I am so happy for her. So, I had to tell her I was pregnant as well. She is happy for me.
I found out this week that my mum is a blabber-mouth. She has already told so many of my aunts and uncles. I had no idea until a few days ago. I told my cousin Crystal, well she saw it on Rob's site. I told my parents and my mum admitted her parents knew, and get this, they told them way back at the end of January, over a month ago. Plus, she's already told 2 more aunts and one uncle. I'm kind of happy since that means they are happy and excited, but I would still have liked to have been the one to tell them. At least I get to tell my cousins. Besides, I still have a lot of people to tell. My mum has 8 brothers and sisters and my dad has 3. So many people know now and everyone has so been so happy for us. I am so relieved.
I have a huge appetite now. I can't stop eating. I eat so much I'm sure I'm going to gain a tonne of weight. By mid-afternoon, evening, my tummy gets so big. It's not so much of a good thing now since work doesn't know and so I have to hide it for a bit. I know my belly is coming though. My bbs are still sore and I am getting tired of waking up 1-3 times a night to pee. It gets very frustrating. especially now since I have to wake up at 6:30.
Only 5 more sleeps until my OB appt and u/s!!!!! I can't wait, even though I'm getting really nervous. I'm sure it will go well though, I hope it does.
I love you Nooner, only 5 more sleeps until I get to see you. Yaaay!!
I had my first OB appt on Thursday at 12weeks, 1day. It was amazing!!!!
I first met with the nurse who weighed me and took my BP, then we went over my medical history. Both families are fine. She went over nutrition and I got a pregnancy diary where they record all of my details every visit. It also has lots of information.
Then, I got to meet the OB, the Dr who will deliver my baby. This is my first time so I want to be in a hospital with all the help I can get. He was great. He did the u/s right away and I got to see my little Nooner on the screen immediately. It was so clear!! I was kind of nervous that I wouldn't be able to make the baby out, but it was so easy. Then, Rob asked if that was the h/b we were seeing, so he turned on the volume and I got to hear the h/b. It was soooo amazing. It was 165. It sounded very fast, but the doctor said that's about normal.
The doctor did the u/s for a good 5 minutes. It flew by though. He said everything looked really good. The nurse put me at a due date of September 18, the u/s showed me as being due September 19, I will keep September 20 for this site as all my info says Sept 20 and it's only a few days off.
He told me that I didn't drink enough water for him to take measurements so I get to go back next Wednesday for another u/s!!!
That was his secretary's fault though, she told me just to eat and drink normally, I didn't have to drink all the water.
We met with another doctor after that to go over genetics testing, that's another reason for the 2nd u/s, to make sure everything is OK. I will do the blood test as well. But, the amnio is something I have to talk to DB about.
I'm going to do all the blood tests next week, it was another 45 minute wait for them yesterday and I had to get to work.
Here's the pic, it shows the head on the left and a little hand. I want a better picture next week:
I sent an e-mail on Friday (from Nooner ) to all my family with the u/s picture. So far only Kim replied, and she already knew, her parents had told her. She was one person I was worried about telling since she has been trying for awhile now to have children. I really hope she is the next pregnant woman in our family, after Jen and I.
I also set up our baby pool on expectnet.com, the game name is jennieplus1.
I still haven't told anyone besides Dawn at work. I'm really nervous only because I'm on a 3 month contract and I'm worried that they're not going to renew it. I can't wait much longer though cause I'm going to start showing soon. I can't fit into one pair of pants and another is too tight to wear in the afternoon, when I am bloated.
I am over the moon right now. It has been a wonderful week. Rob and I are celebrating our 6 year anniversary today. Well, I say today he says the 9th . The last season of Sopranos starts tonight. It's been 2 years since the last season, too long to wait.
I love you Nooner, I'm so glad you are doing well in there. Can't wait to see you again on Wednesday!!