2 days till our first u/s. One good thing is the morning sickness seems to be going strong still and so are the rest of my symptoms. Been vomitting more this pregnancy than with Dylan but not near as much with before my m/c. I have no clue how I'll hold my bladder so long in the car for an almost 1.5 hour drive to the hospital where the u/s is being done. The u/s pic is going to cost us $10...eek. But it's worth the money for sure. Mom and a few of my friends keep saying this will be a girl and they are also teasing me about twins. Now that would be a shock but Wednesday will probably rule that out quick. I just want to be able to see that you my little angelbug are growing fine. Goodness it feels like everything is stretching from my ribs down. Eek!
Well less than a day till we get to see you our little angelbug. I can't believe it's been 20 days now since we found out we were going to be parents again. I'm finally relaxing a bit more into this pregnancy as the symptoms seem to have doubled compared to the pregnancy with Dylan and that of my m/c which ended at 4 weeks. In some ways the symptoms and all are reassuring that things will be ok and the nightmares seem to have gone and don't bother me as much.
I know I'm really getting excited about seeing you tomorrow, to be able to see you moving, your little tiny heart beating and be able to know that God has blessed us with another miracle. I can't even explain in words how I felt that first night I did the HPT and it came back a dark positive. With Dylan even though I was 9 weeks when I found out I was pg with him, the lines were barely visible even under most light. It was hard to believe but then seeing the HPT I did this time, it was hard to believe it could be real again.
I feel truly blessed. I've always dreamt of being able to have two children as I grew up an only child and had always wanted a sibling. And now I have a chance to give Dylan a sibling and you an older brother that I know will love you just as much as me and your father will...and as much as I do now. It's so hard to get attached to you but no doubt tomorrow will help make things real.
I just know that this is going to be a journey with you that I'll never forget as I haven't forgotten my journey to having Dylan in my arms back almost two years ago now. I pray each night that God will make things alright and that your father and I will hold you in late May-early June.
Well tomorrow with the u/s, I'm going to ask the technician to do a picture for us so we can remember our first time seeing you as we did with our first time seeing Dylan. The u/s as well tomorrow will give us a more accurate due date (I hope), right now we're due around May 30th (by Doc's EDD) or June 2nd (by LMP) and now we're looking at a 3rd EDD. Hopefully that'll be the last as I had about 6 EDD's when I was pg with Dylan all them spanning between late Jan. to early March. It was crazy. I just knew that when Dylan was ready that he'd come unfortunately we had some little glitches on that one. Hopefully, we won't have another high risk pregnancy and this one will go smooth for you and I.
When I do get to my first prenatal appt. on November 4th, I'm going to talk to her about a scheduled c-section as I had one with your brother so that I can get my tubes tied as well at the same time.
Other than the morning sickness, tiredness and all the other fun pregnancy stuff. I feel pretty good, some days my moods sway a bit and I feel like crying but I'm doing well. Hopefully things will go smoother with my depression than it did when I was pg with your brother. I can't wait to see you tomorrow.
Well today's the big day! We get our first u/s today in about less than 5 hours. Why do I feel so nervous when things are going to be alright? They just have to be ok. I have no clue how I'm going to hold so much water in my bladder without exploding. I can't wait to see you baby, your daddy's getting excited to see you as well. I have to get Dylan's diaper bag together as it's going to be a long drive and got to bring a sippy cup for him as well as a few nutrigrain bars to tie over till we have lunch and supper. I'll definitely update this later with another entry after the u/s.
Well my u/s appt. went very well today. We didn't get any pictures as the u/s technician couldn't get a clear view of the baby with the u/s machine being used. You our little angelbug are 16mm long and had a heartbeat rate of 164 today. It's so amazing, I can't wait to hear it. I am so relieved my nightmares were nothing but simply that...nightmares. It was so hard holding my bladder though for so long. I could barely walk from the parking lot to the hospital. Well angelbug, I can say with honesty. Today is one of the best days of our life together.
Well angelbug I find it completely amazing to have the reassurance that you are healthy and all. I went to a site called Babymed today and they have a calender that you can find out due dates based on u/s measurements on any given date and it basically said that I would have if the u/s measurements were accurate had to have conceived you on September 11th. September 11th is a day that a tragedy happened in the States and there were many lives lost back in 2001. I can't believe that it is possible that from the greatest day of sorrow for some was the start of a new life and greatest joy for me and your father.
My morning sickness isn't as bad as it was yesterday, only just nauseous and all. Other than that things are great. I can't wait to my first prenatal appt on Nov. 4th, 2 days after my b-day.
Well another day has gone by my little one. I can't believe how quick times flies by since I had Dylan and now it seems to be a mixture of slow as it'll be a long while before I have you here and fast as Dylan approaches his 2nd birthday. The morning sickness today wasn't near as bad as some days but it has decreased my appetite that was for a few weeks much better.
A week from tomorrow and we have our first prenatal appt. I can't believe how slow time is going by in some ways yet the other part is going fast watching Dylan starting to do new things. He has discovered it's not so bad lying on your back in the bathtub and that you actually float for the most part rather than sink. He is also trying to put his face in the water and lay on his stomach in the water and kick.
In some ways I'm glad that part is sorta fast as it helps me keep my sanity and focus off any worries or such. We got a toddler bed for him now so going to start trying to get him to have naps in it and then gradually hoping he'll sleep in it at nights so we can take the crib down until we need it in June.
I started to cry today when we put the bed together as it just reminds me how big my little boy is getting. Ron told me that it would be ok as I'd get to go through it all again with you little Angelbug. It won't be the same though as you are both individuals and do you own things at your own pace. It's going to be wierd being in my second trimester over Christmas time again only I was near the end of it with Dylan and in preterm labor. It was so wierd being away from home in a hospital hours away from Ron from Christmas 2000 to when Dylan was born.
A copy of my birth story with Dylan can be seen here.
It's hard to believe everything that we went through to get to this point.
I've also started a photo album for this pregnancy that can be found here.
Well as far as how I'm doing, I'm really tired still and the morning sickness comes and goes and my breasts are sore enough to remind me that I'm still pregnant, I lost 2lbs recently, must have been from morning sickness causing my appetite to go. As far as cravings, oddly I'm craving sweets over sour stuff this pregnancy. With Dylan I had to have sour stuff, definitely have an adversion to dirty diapers, bad thing when you have to change your own child's diapers. The smell of peanut butter makes me gag but for some reason I find myself eating Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. Oddly right now pizza isn't always as appealing as it usually is, I used to be able to eat it alot but right now I can't seem to. Other than that the morning sickness is only bad every other day for the most part though it does give me a kick in the behind to remind me it's still here.
Ugh well last day or so have been fun, got a yeast infection, sinus infection and a cold. I asked the doctor about getting the flu shot but she doesn't feel comfortable giving it to me as I'm pregnant...ugh another pregnancy through the winter with asthma and knowing I'll get the flu and colds worse. Just hoping that I can get over my morning sickness in the next 4-5 weeks and it'll help out greatly. Spent about 4 times worshipping the porcelain goddess...ugh pukey. Overall I'm ok, the tiredness is overwhelming some days especially today as Dylan didn't nap and neither did Zack, the little guy that is just a month or so younger than Dylan. Well this entry isn't going to be long, just wanted to say I love you my little angelbug and I can't wait to my first prenatal appt on Monday and to get past my 29th b-day on Saturday with hopefully something to remember a birthday by outside of morning sickness and tiredness.
Today's my 29th birthday and I don't feel a year older at all. Of course it could have been a better birthday overall, just wasn't really feeling good and all and Ron and I were a bit moody. Well two days or less to my first prenatal appt. I don't know why I'm nervous though, everything with the baby will be alright. Well don't know what else to say, really tired today and got a headache. I did have ice cream cake though so that was a bonus.
Woo-hoo 10 weeks tomorrow! Had my first prenatal appt. today. It was a pretty quick appt. just more of collecting some information than anything else. Usually she'd have done an internal/pap smear but where I had one done in mid-Sept. with my complete physical she decided it was unnecessary to put me through it again. All my blood work came back fine, urine was fine, I was 167lbs back on Sept. 17th, I'm now at 179lbs as of today.
She discussed with me that I'll be going to see probably my old ob/gyn when I was pg with Dylan due to the fact that I'll be having a c-section again this pregnancy and tubal ligation as well. She also has asked me to consider the Triple Screen test to check my risk of having a baby with neural tube defects or Downs Syndrome against other women's risk at my age I guess. Where I had a lot of excessive amniotic fluid with my first pregnancy, I guess that is a more common thing of pregnancies where the baby has Downs Syndrome and all. I didn't have it done my first pregnancy. I think I'll be declining, I know it only tells you if your risk is higher or lower of having a baby with these problems but doesn't tell you for fact that they do or not. I really don't feel like having to worry about that information either for the rest of my pg especially as it's done around 16-18 weeks. That and really want to avoid tests like amnio and all. They scare me.
I go for my second prenatal appt. in 3 weeks, she doesn't really check for fetal heartbeat by doppler till 12 weeks. She told me if we don't find it on the 25th, we'll keep trying and if not found by the 14th week (December 3rd), then she'll have me go for another u/s. I'm just praying that we do get to hear the heartbeat soon. I really hope this baby is doing good.
10 weeks woo-hoo! It's hard to believe when I look back this is around when I found out I was pregnant with Dylan back in July 2000. Sometimes it's so hard to believe that I'm pregnant again and that things so far are going well. I guess in some ways it feels like a dream, I've always wanted two children but sometimes now I feel a bit scared that I might not be able to handle two children and housework, but I know that I need better time management skills so if I can get a routine in, I should be ok. I don't know why I feel a bit nervous about it, I've taken care of up to 5 children at once before and didn't have many problems. I can't believe I only have like 20 days or so till I start my second trimester, hopefully some of my nervousness will ease when I hear the heartbeat at my next prenatal appt. the day before I start my next trimester.