Just when I thought that my symptoms were fading for the most part...some of the ones I had originally seem to be back, the headaches and the hotflashes...ugh. The nauseousness isn't so bad but the tiredness varies greatly from day to day and my boobs tend to hurt most at night. Well one less thing for me to worry about is Dylan needing surgery to remove his tonsils/adenoids. ENT said to keep with the nasal spray he's on for another 6 months and come back for a check in May. He really doesn't like doing surgery in children under 2 years of age.
Other than that, I wish I didn't feel so worried, I pray each night to God to let you be ok angelbug, I guess I am just so anxious hoping that everything is ok. I just want to be able to hear your heart beating though it feels like forever till my next appt on the 25th, I'll be 12 weeks and 6 days then. Some days it worries me mainly because I don't feel pregnant where others I do.
Well not much else really that I can say for right now other than God please let my baby be alright.
11 weeks, two more weeks till I start 3rd tri and finally get to hear your heart beat my little angelbug. Right now I guess I'm feeling a bit apprehensive about things as I just don't notice if I'm getting any bigger stomach wise or not but Ron does. In some ways I don't feel like my stomach was as big as it was, probably because it was more bloated I'm figuring and not it's not as bloated. I'm just praying everything will be alright on the 25th. Of course I shouldn't worry so much, I've not had spotting for a long while now, no cramping outside of problems with my Irritable Bowel Syndrome or normal ligament stretching and haven't had any bleeding, and I don't think my little angelbug would leave me without much of a sign like those at least this early in pregnancy. Dylan started using a spoon on his own yesterday and said 'mom' for the first time. I'm so proud. Now to just focus on him and everything else and not worry about you my angelbug, I know you'll be alright.
Wow, 12 days till I start second trimester and 11 days till I get to hear your heartbeat my angelbug. I can't wait to hear that sound I've longed to hear since I found out I was pg on Oct. 2nd. Not really much to say today except I've been able to relax a bit more except for the feeling of my ligaments stretching and all being a bit painful more than I remember with my pregnancy with Dylan. I feel pretty good outside of being pretty tired and almost living in the bathroom to pee alot.
Ugh some days I wonder how I'm going to survive this pg. It seems since I got pregnant my IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) has gotten worse and since I can't take my meds to help out with it. I get cramps so bad that some days I wonder if I'm having a m/c. I would give for my meds right now but they aren't safe in pg, hoping my doc when I see her next can find a safe alternative, I've been using metimucil and all to help out but it's gross. I get to start back on my anti-depressants in about another 8 days, thank goodness, I'll be able to have some more control over my depression and mood swings. Ron will be very thankful.
I think I'll be glad when I can get some decent sleep if ever, I find it so hard to fall asleep and if Ron comes to bed late and wakes me up I can't get back to sleep. It's so frustrating. I'm even finding it uncomfortable trying to find a position ok for sleeping.
Less than one more day till 12 weeks, time doesn't seem to be going too slow at all. Another week and I'll be in my second trimester already. At least I'll be able to go back on my anti-depressants hopefully that'll help with my worrying so much over losing you my little angelbug. Today I'm so tired, didn't get much sleep last night, Dylan ended up sleeping with us in our bed and between him snoring and kicking and Ron snoring, sleep was at a premium and was something I didn't get enough of at all.
I can't believe it 4 more days till I start second tri, I can't believe this Tuesday I'll be 13 weeks pg. I'm just praying everything goes well with my appt. on Monday and we hear your heartbeat and then I can relax a bit more knowing I'm in my second trimester. Well definitely hasn't lacked for being an interesting day...well maybe interesting isn't the word for it. Disasterous might be. Dylan went head first over the handles of his push and ride little ride on car and bit his lip so had fun getting the bleeding to stop. It's stopped, his lip is a bit swollen, put some cold cloths on it and all and it seems to be getting better but he sure did give me a fright.
Tomorrow morning I get to hear your heartbeat finally. I can't wait, a part of me is so excited and a part of me wants to hold itself back in fear of something being wrong, maybe just trying to protect myself so things don't hurt as bad if they do go wrong. Of course I know deep in my heart that everything is alright. I don't think God would take you away from me. I have been praying each night to keep you.
Well your big brother is getting to the stage that not only does he want his independance, he wants to be defiant too in some ways. He knows how to do up and down his zipper on his sleepers as well as take his shirts and pants off as well as his diaper. He seems to prefer to be naked alot. Unfortunately with winter settling in it's too cold to do that.
Well the count is on right now till tomorrow, 11 hours and 54 minutes till doc tries to find your heartbeat. I've been waiting for three weeks for this to come.
13 weeks finally!!! I'm finally to the second trimester! I was so happy to hear your heart beating yesterday my little angelbug even if it was for half a second, it gave me so much more reassurance as well as that my uterus was in the right position for being 13 weeks. I have another u/s in two weeks, be 15 weeks then to check on a large fibroid that the doctor found in the report from my first prenatal u/s. I just pray its not going to cause you and I any problems my dear little one.
I am so not ready for Christmas yet, I got to get all the stuff out of the basement to decorate, got to get shopping, and I'll be having to pack this week as we're supposed to be going up for a week to visit my parents. Mom's coming to visit from Thursday to Sunday and we head up there for a week on Sunday to the next Sunday.
Well my next prenatal appt. is Dec. 19th (I'll be 16w + 2d), 6 days before Christmas. Then we get our next u/s after the one on the 10th in the first two weeks of Jan, I'll be 18-20 weeks then so hopefully we'll find out what gender you are my little angelbug.
Well I'm just glad to be back on my anti-depressants now that I'm 13 weeks, it's hard getting used to them as I have to go through all the wonderful side effects before they fully work again which could be 1-4 weeks. I find myself a bit shaky from them and a bit nauseous but getting a tiny bit more energy.
Have to take Lucy (our cat) to the vets today to get a checkup, she's not doing really good, I think she's got a really bad allergy to fleas as she has been pulling hair, scratching herself till she bleeds and has scabs and bald patches all over her head and neck, hopefully the vet can do something about it but I know it's not going to be cheap that's for sure. I really don't want to put her to sleep, Dylan loves her and loves to pet Lucy.
Boy am I slack this week, of course I've been busy as I am now visiting my parents till this Sunday, got here this past Friday. Well 14 weeks this week! I can't believe how time seems to fly even if it is only week by week. A week from tomorrow is my angel's birthday (EDD) and my second u/s appt. Hopefully we'll be able to get a picture this time of you my little angelbug. I just hope that fibroid they found won't cause you or me any problems.
Well almost all my Christmas shopping is done for this year. Your big brother is going to love it, he'll be able to open presents he couldn't do last Christmas when he was still a baby himself. It's hard to believe it's less than 2 months till he's 2 even. It feels like yesterday sometimes that I held him in my arms as a little baby. I know I'll feel the same way when I get to hold you and have you with me here.
Well Dylan and I are enjoying our visit with my parents (yours and Dylan's grandparents). It's nice to be able to be here to visit once in a while with my parents, won't get to see them for another long time though mom will probably be staying for the week you are born to help out with Dylan. I hope that things go great and she is able to make it down for then.
Wow it's been a while since I updated my journal since I was away at my parents. Well today is a day of mixed feelings for me. My angel in heaven was due today and today is my second u/s to see this baby I'm carrying. Well I don't have much to say right now other than not looking forward to having my bladder so full it's hard to walk but definitely looking forward to seeing you my angelbug this afternoon, I'll update after my appt.
Well now that I have some time I can give my u/s appt. update, everything went well got to see the baby's heart beating again and moving and I now know for sure that I've been feeling this little one for about 2 weeks now after feeling this baby move during the u/s and seeing it move. The u/s tech didn't tell me the baby's size or heart rate which I was rather disappointed about. But I did get a pic this time, unfortunately my scanner died, hopefully by tonight I'll have a new one and will post it up.