Right now there is not a lot of going on. I'm feeling great physically. I get stressed every now and then. However, I'm still positive. I just looked at the calendar and saw that as of this Thursday, I only have one week until the next ultrasound. In that regards, I'm all nerves. I'm trying not to think about it.
Side note - Lilly spotted this weekend at the pet store on a "Lilly Flower decoration".
Today Lydia and I start our Mother/Child three day art camp. I'm very excited and it should be alot of fun. Yesterday Lydia, Leighton and I made pinatas for Lydia 4th birthday coming up. We are having a Toy Story Party. It has been keeping me very busy. My Mom made Lydia a Mr. Potato Head outfit. I'm going to be Jessie. My husband is Woody and Leighton is Buzz. Our pinata is Mr. Potato Head. It actually came out pretty cute. Her birthday party is two days after the ultrasound. That is good in one way and kind of hard in another. Good in that it has been keeping me very busy and my mind occupied. However, I am nervous that if they tell me something I don't want to hear how can I dress up like Jesse and not have a break down. I just pray that God will give me strength. I keep telling myself that everything will be okay - no matter what!!!!
It was a busy week. Lydia had art camp for 3 days. Leighton had gymnastics. In between those things we also went to the pool 2 times a day. We had a great week. I haven't spotted any Lilly popups this past week though. However, only 6 days until we find out the sex. I can't wait for that part. I've been having some really strange dreams lately. I remember the same thing happened when I was pregnant with Lydia and Leighton. I also get a jealousy streak in me that I usually don't have. I guess it comes from all the insecurities you have when you are pregnant. DH says he is not nervous about the ultrasound at all. I wish I could say that. I am nervous. I just want everything to be okay. Nothing going on this weekend. We just plan to hang out at the pool. Still working on Lydia's birthday party stuff for next weekend. I'm currently burning Toy Story theme songs on CD's for the guess.
Another Lilly spotted today. I had just finished writing in my journal about not seeing Lilly for almost 1 week. I must admit I was getting a little disappointed. However, we past a car wash and they had a car out in front that they had just finished. The license plate was Lilly!
On a very sad note - a friend of mine that was pregnant and due 1 day before me, just lost her baby yesterday. It was very upsetting and put my situation in a newer light.
Well it's 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. For one, my daughter Leighton gave me a bad cold and I'm coughing, sneezing, and my nose is running like a fauset. Also, my ultrasound is at 1:00 today and obviously on my mind. However, I'm calm and know that whatever happens is what is suppose to happen. I was watching The Simple Life on E! early. Not alot to choose from in the wee hours. I have never watched it and really don't care if I do again. But, anyway on the show Paris was going to have to be the Mother of the house for the day. The child was 3 and her name was LILY!!!!!!
First let me say that I do believe in Lilly. However, she is not growing inside of me, she's my angel. Yesterday I found out that I am blessed with a son! His name is LUKE!!!! My husband I went to my ultrasound appointment at 1:00 PM. They were running behind, so it was a long wait in the waiting room. So long that my DH started reading CHILD. He laughed when he started an article about a little girl, named of course Lily! It gave me much needed strength at that moment. I had made up my mind that I could face anything that God was going to bless me with. Words can not describe how I felt when they said that what they saw in the first ultrasound had disappeared. All measurements were normal and no further testing was recommended. I am HAPPY beyond words and forever changed. I am blessed that I experienced it. It opened my eyes to things I never knew existed. It opened my heart to people I have never met. It changed me as a Mother. I am a better person because of it. I hope now that I can use this to help others. Now today is a big day. We have a lot to do. My daughter Lydia is 4 tomorrow. Much to do. Much to celebrate. I have to go finish my Mr. Potato Head pinata. Thank all of you that sent their thoughts and prayers. You were all with me yesterday and I could feel that.
WOW! I have been sooooooooo busy. Lydia's birthday was a huge success. It was so much fun and a great memory. I can't explain or put into words the happiness I felt all weekend. I am just beside myself that I am going to have a son before Christmas. I am so glad I found out. The excitement now is unbelieveable. Now everything is LUKE. LUKE. LUKE. Lydia is very excited she will have a little brother. A little confused when I told her that we needed to get some boy stuff. I tried to explain that most of our toys were girls toys and that I didn't think Luke would want to put on dress up dresses. She said, "but why not". Oh, Luke baby, I can picture this now. I'm sure there will be a day when you come downstairs all "dressed" up in a princess dress with makeup on. Leighton doesn't quite get it. However, she will. That girl does love a baby. She goes up to every baby we come across and starts hugging and kissing. I hope she will have that much love for her own "baby" brother. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. My doctor said she knew I was feeling great since the ultrasound and that it must have been a huge relief. She said everything else looked great. My weight, blood pressure, urine, blah blah blah was right on target. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so Happy!!!!!!
My nephew Kody is here for the week. We have been busy doing this and that. Yesterday, we went to the pool and packed a picnic. Today probably the same but earlier. Lydia starts Creative Dance today. I can not wait to see her do that. I'm getting so excited about Luke coming. I just want to go out and start buying clothes, new baby gear, new stuff for his room, etc, etc, etc. But, I'm not getting too crazy. I have decided to do his room in Vintage airplanes. I think I will have a mural painted. I can not believe that June is almost over. The summer is flying by.
Weight at Doctor's Appointment: 124 (I've gainted 9lbs).
Well it's Tuesday morning. It has been so busy lately. Me and the girls have had such a great time with my nephew, Kody. We take him back tomorrow and pick up my stepson, Andrew. So the craziness and busy schedule will not end anytime soon. Yesterday, Leighton went to the potty twice all by her self. YEAH! I'm so hoping she will be completely potty trained by the time Luke gets here. I can not believe that as of this weekend when July hits we then only have August, September, and October left. Once November is here, our lives will change forever. Luke, Luke, Luke. How exciting. I'm a little disappointed that I haven't felt alot of movement. My doctor said it was still a little early. But, come on Luke, I'm ready for one big kick. Plus, I can't wait for Lydia and Leighton to feel him. Yesterday was a great day in that I talked to one of my very bestfriends that I haven't talked to in awhile. However, it was like old times and that we had just talked the day before. That is when you know you are truly the very best of friends.
So now my stepson is here and my nephew Kody went home. What a treat to have had Kody here. He was a true joy and good "boy" practise for me. Now, Andrew is here and it is a joy as well. It is so fun to watch Lydia and Leighton love on their brother so much. Even though they are not always together they are everything brother and sisters are to each other and separation does not change that. You can tell the difference when they are with Kody for example versus Andrew. That sister brother bond is there not matter what and what fun it is to see. The first day Andrew was here we went to the pool and stayed for dinner. That was Wednesday. Yesterday we went to the pool in the morning, had lunch, watched a movie and then went to Lydia's dance lesson and the park. We came home and ordered Chinese. Today we are doing much needed chores, going to the grocery store and then to the pool again for dinner. Lydia and Leighton start their swimming lessons today. DH will be home early so we will have a long weekend as a family. I think today we will decorate for 4th of July and make our decorations for our bikes for the neighborhood parade this weekend. Lots to do. As far as the update on Luke. He is growing and starting to take up lung space. I can feel him when he has decided to move to another side of me. I'm still waiting for a big kick! Hope it will happen this weekend. Lydia can't wait to feel him kick. Also, in a couple of days we are picking up our bird we bought a couple of months ago. He had not been able to come home with us yet because he was too young. However, they say he can come home next week. So now we have Lydia, Leighton, sometimes Andrew, Lisa our greyhound, Ene Cab our guinea pig and next week, Little Ray our parrot. Oh my God, can our house get any more crazy? I guess Luke will make a little more crazy! Can't wait for that!