18weeks and 1day!!!
I can't believe how far this pregnancy has gone. Considering it wasn't supposed to have happened in the first place, and there were so many potential problems that could have occured...
Anyway, apparently this week Little Pumpkin, vernix is forming to protect your skin and you've started hiccupping! We kind of knew that anyway though didn't we?! LOL
Oh and there's been a bit of arguement over your potential name. Your big brothers seem to think that you should be called Liberty Love, not Liberty Hope.
Anyway, here's a belly pic taken at 18weeks!
And here's the balloons Martin got me yesterday (and then forced me to hold whilst we were out!)...
We had a great day yesterday. Didn't get as many photo's as I was hoping and none were good ones so I'm not going to bother posting them.
First we went to my Mums for a short while, then we went up the City Centre shopping... We didn't actually end up buying anything for Pumpkin at all but it didn't really matter I suppose! She doesn't need anything yet anyway! We had lunch in Burger King before and Martin got me some balloons (pictured above!) and then we went glow bowling and had 2 games of that. Ashton fell asleep after the first game though, but the other boys enjoyed playing for him!
Then after that we went and looked for a restaurant... And ended up in our favourite Chinese. Only mild problem was that during the first course the three younger children were so tired they were starting to play up so Martin took them off to my Mums so we could finish dinner.
It was good fun!!! The kids really enjoyed it which was the most important thing really as we haven't done anything fun with them in awhile.
19weeks and 2days!!!
I can't believe I'm almost (or just over depending on which way you look at it!) half way there... Seems unreal to me.
I may not be around much the next week or so. I am pretty ill right now, have been going non-stop and not looking after myself for the last week. We were in Wales whilst Martin worked earlier this week and then did an overnight investigation on Saturday.
I have a really bad kidney infection. I told Martin about it at the beginning of the week and he didn't tell me I had antibiotics, so I just ignored it and struggled on through the pain and discomfort... I've also missed a lot of my Clexane the last week as Martin has been too busy working to do it for me... I went over 48hours without a shot a few days ago. So my chest is kinda playing me up and my head is feeling a bit strange.
So generally not feeling great... Am writing this from bed as I just can't drag myself up anymore. I also don't really want to move too much because of the pain but since yesterday I've been loosing control of myself (bladder wise) on occasion and if I don't move it doesn't seem to happen. Hopefully the antibiotics will kick in soon.
Anyway, I'm glad Martin finally told me I had antibiotics (after hearing me complain about the pain for a week or so ) as I was on the verge of going to A&E the pain is so bad.
Babywise, I haven't felt her move at all in days. It'd just got to the point where I was feeling her a little everyday and now nothing, even when I poke and prod her. I wish my doppler was working so I could check but I don't want to seem neurotic and go to hospital or call my midwife out for nothing. I have my anomaly scan on Friday so am hoping things will be OK for that and she's growing well.
I have a lot of appointments over the next week or so.
6th Anomaly Scan
9th ECG & 24hour tape & Midwives appointment
10th 24hour tape & Lung Function (I think or maybe that's the 11th)
I can't remember if there's anything else...
Urgh, I'm going to have to go. I can barely stay awake now.
19weeks and 4days!
Still ill. Blurgh! Thankfully my kidney seems a bit better today, but my chest is really sore now and I feel quite weak. That said I feel much better today compared to a few days ago! So can't complain.
Still haven't felt Pumpkin move in about 5 days. I'm sure she's fine though, just beginning to bug me a little bit now. Still, only two more days until my scan so we'll find out if she's OK then I guess.
I'm hoping to get out and about a bit today. I'm not sure how I'll manage it, as I got out of bed for a couple of hours last night and was left feeling awful afterwards, but I can't stay in bed forever! Maybe I can convince Martin to take me down to look at carpets and paint for the kids rooms...
Martin has decided he doesn't like the four poster cot we bought and now wants to buy matching white cots for the girls. So now I'm looking around for affordable cots that are white and pretty. LOL I guess I can see his point, the cot would be ruined if we painted it and it doesn't match anything we have already, I just really liked the four poster bit!
I've got my Haematology appointment tomorrow... Getting a little nervous as I'm hoping to find out what it is exactly that I've got and what it actually all means. I've also been reading that Protein S can be lower during pregnancy anyway, so maybe the Drs and stuff were wrong and I don't have it?! One can always hope!!!! LOL
Last edited by Sarah-Jean; 06-05-2008 at 01:31 PM.
I'm 20 weeks pregnant today!!!!!!!
Only 18-20 more weeks to go!!!
Apparently little Pumpkin, you are growing hair now and your legs are becoming more proportional to your body! You're doing so well and growing really healthily even though I can barely feel you kicking, I know you're doing a fantastic job in there!
~~~~~~~~~~A baby is God's opinion that the world should go on.
- Carl Sandburg
I can not believe I am over halfway there now! I've had a ton of good news this week. It started with a letter from my Ob saying she'd spoken to my Haematologist who said she was willing to decrease my clexane from 37weeks down from 80mg twice daily to 40mg once a day! And although the Haematologist recommends a hospital birth my Ob is much happier now with the thought of a homebirth and would like to meet up and discuss it further!
Then the next day (Thursday), I went to see my Haematologist for my monthly appointment and everything was great! I managed to get two months supply of Clexane out of her and she again told me she thought I could probably safely lower my dose at 37weeks. She also looked at my blood test results quickly and despite the Dr earlier saying I had Protein S Def. and Antithrombin III she thinks the Protein S Def. could be showing up due to the pregnancy lowering the levels and the Antithrombin III could be highlighting because of the Clexane. So they're going to retest me when I'm not pregnant or on any of the drugs and see what shows up then! But for the moment it looks like I might be clear!!!!
Then on Friday we went for the 20week Anomaly scan. The sonographer was really nice (he also works for Babybond I think as he knew the lady who scanned me for my NT scan) and spent a long time showing us various area's and explaining that everything looked really good and healthy and normal. He spent a long time looking at the heart which made me a bit nervous as normally they just vaguely look and that's it! He also spent some time looking at the brain and stomach and showed us about 4 times that we are definately STILL having a gorgeous little GIRL! I came away very reassured that everything is OK - I've never had such a good NHS scan before! The photo I got wasn't great but she was in a really bad position for photo's but it was still OK. Only mild issue was when the scan finished we went back into the waiting room and two minutes later he called us back in and asked to rescan us so I started to panic a little bit. But it turned out to be a computer error. It hadn't saved the measurement he'd taken of her stomach so he just needed to quickly do it again! By which time the little Madam had moved into a position that was bad for that as well! LOL
Anyway, that was all good stuff. Only mild downer this week was that I was very ill with my kidney. I took antibiotics but they did nothing and on Friday I ended up in A&E because I just couldn't handle the pain anymore. They gave me different antibiotics which seem to be working much better now already and sent a letter to my Dr recommending further investigations as to why my kidney causes me so many problems and why I get so many UTIs.
Today has been a good day too! We went shopping for paints for the boys room. And a family up the road from us are getting rid of their carpets downstairs, which are virtually the same colour as our house carpets are, so they're giving them to us and we're going to recarpet the boys room with it. So that's saving us a ton of money!!! As that room would have cost us over £200 to recarpet. So tomorrow I am going to fill the cracks from where the walls have moved away from the skirting boards, then probably Thursday I'll start painting it as I've got wall to wall hospital appointments on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Then hopefully by Friday we can have their furniture and stuff in there and be well on our way to giving them a great, relaxing and tidy sleeping area!
And after that I can start on the girls room!!!! Can't wait! We're getting two white cots to go side by side, and white furniture. I've also got lovely lettering to go on the walls and it's basically just the decoration once the carpet and walls have been done! Can't wait, I love decorating and organising!
Oh, and we discovered the reason I haven't felt Pumpkin moving much... Apparently my placenta is anterior, so at the front of my stomach and cushioning all the normal kicks and jabs I'd be feeling. I'm a little sad as the movement is one of my favourite parts of pregnancy so I was really looking forward to it this being the last time I'll ever get to feel a baby moving inside of me and they told me the chances are I won't feel much movement this time around as a result of the placenta. Sigh. Ah well, she's healthy and growing very well so that's all that really matters!
20weeks and 2days!
I had a mirade of appointments today. Cardiology for an Echocardiogram which showed that everything appears to be normal with my heart and no leaking valves etc. Then Cardiology again to have a 24hour tape fitted which I'm currently wearing.... It's annoying the hell out of me though as it's really itchy and I just want to scratch the sticky bits off! My midwife came with me to those as she hadn't seen me in awhile and I think she wanted to be there for the ECG. Unfortunately the room wasn't big enough so Martin and the kids had to wait outside which was OK with me... I was probably happier having my midwife in with me then I'd have been with the kids there. I went in by myself and left the two of them talking for my tape fitting.
Then I had a physiotherapy appointment which again was OK. My hips and pelvis are all out of whack, but she's given me some exercises and told me to wear a special belt and come back in a week to see if that helps. If it doesn't we may move to crutches again. Urgh. I like the pain relief crutches give me, but hate the inconvenience of using them and the fact that everyone appears to use you for target practice when you're out walking.
We went to my Mums, but it was a really hot day and after walking around the hospital I was shattered so not very sociable. That and I was wearing a big baggy winter jumper and was boiling to the point I felt dizzy like I was going to pass out. So Martin took me shopping to Mothercare and bought me a new bra and three new tops which I'm dead pleased with!!!
I've got to take the 24hour thing off tomorrow and return it between 8:30-9:30am. It's going to be a difficult day tomorrow I think as Martin is away on a training course for a big job he's got on (he needs the certificate so he can work in some of their more dangerous area's) so I've got to try and manage all the kids myself. Fun, fun!
Then Wednesday I've got another appointment with Cardiology to have a lung function test. Joy!
Other then that everything seems to be going fine. I feel relatively healthy, Pumpkin seems to be doing well and I'm feeling the odd movement but still nothing to the extent that I used to with the others. We have got the new carpet for the boys room so once these next few days are done with I'm going to be busy redecorating! I keep forgetting I'm working all weekend too. I really wish I wasn't, I don't want to do it, but there's nothing I can do now - I can't cancel so I just have to get on with it I suppose.
Anyway, may not be on to update much more this week... But will try when I get the time!
20weeks and 3days!
The hormones are getting me today. That and the current heat. I've had a really busy day and just got home (have to go out again now though!) and had a bit of a disagreement with Tristan and ten minutes later he came downstairs holding a letter which said;
I'm balling my eyes out now and feel like a horrible person. And the really stupid thing is normally I'd find it mildly amusing that he was being quite so melodramatic over the fact I said he couldn't play his Xbox but today I feel like a horrible mother and a bad parent.To Mum and Dad I am soree to say this but I wish I was ded!
Anyway, we called him downstairs and explained exactly what the problem was and came to the conclusion that he could play his Xbox (Raistlin hadn't had a go despite having had it for a few days so we said he could have a go and Tristan had a complete meltdown over it, which ended in me saying he couldn't play on it at all for the evening) now that Raistlin had finished playing.
Anyway today has been busy. I had to get up early to go down the hospital to return the 24hour tape thing after the school run. Then we had to go to the bank, then we got home and the sh!t had hit the fan basically and everything went a bit ballistic work wise. Then Martin had a training course thing he had to take as a mandatory requirement to get this big job he's been chasing so I had to drop him at the station, making me late to pick Raistlin up but then we realised Martin had forgotten his mobile so we had to go home, pick Raistlin up, then go back to the train station. Then I had to go home, get some work printed and then head over to my Brother's to pick up the changing bag I'd accidentaly left behind. Then I went to my Mums, then realised today was going to be too hard and I'd need help so phoned my brother and asked him to have the two younger boys. So I then had to go back to his house and drop the two younger boys off. Then to the Post Office to post a load of documents. Then to the school to pick Tristan and JJ up. Then got home and thought I might be able to relax for an hour but JJ announced he'd been invited to a party that was happening in less then an hours time so we immediately had to leave again to go get a card and a present but didn't end up having time to get a present so had to stuff some money in the card (which I hate doing as I think it shows that you haven't put any thought into the gift)... Then I had to get petrol as my car was showing as empty and then go find the place the party was being held and drop JJ off. By which time it was almost time to pick the two younger boys up so I rushed over to my Mums in the hope of a cup of tea, but didn't have time, so rushed over to my brother's to pick the two younger boys up and went back to my Mums to discover Martin had called her to say he'd be home in like 20minutes!!! Aaaarrrgggghhhhh!!! I hadn't got the right car to pick him up in, and didn't have time to pile everyone in, get home, pick up the bigger car, get petrol and pick him up. I was just getting the kids ready to go and do all that when he called again to say he was in MK and would walk over to my Mums...
Anyway, he arrived about 30minutes later, at which point we all had to pile back into the car to go home so we could get ready to get JJ from the party. Now I'ev just popped out (midway through typing this) and am now back with JJ from the party and trying to herd children who are all hyped up from a busy day into bed. It's not working though, there's always an excuse to get up again.
So really hectic day and I'm now very tired and fed up... And tomorrow I have to get up early again to get to the hospital for a lung function test! I'm working all day and night on Friday, Saturday and Sunday and I'm pretty sure there's something on Thursday too but can't remember what... Plus I'm supposed to be painting the kids rooms as the carpet is being laid next week.
I need a bloody holiday I swear!
20weeks and 4days;
I'm getting a little bit pissy with having to constantly listen to Martin telling me how much he's got on. Funny cos he doesn't ever seem to be doing anything except chatting on the phone, surfing Ebay or occasionally sending emails. Other then the school runs and feeding the kids whatever's easiest he doesn't tidy (our house is a complete pit right now and it's now to the state it's disgusting to live in so I'M going to have to do it myself), he doesn't cook or feed us much, he doesn't do anything around the house really, rarely seems to feed the animals, doesn't tend the garden, doesn't go shopping unless we've physically run out of food or drinks... I'm just sick to the back teeth of listening to him whinging about how stressed out he is when he doesn't DO anything stressful.
I'd like to see him deal with the **** I have to deal with daily and then have to listen to someone who's perfectly healthy and doesn't do that much whinging on and see how he feels.
Anyway, he said we'd go get brushes so I can start putting the tester pots of paint on the wall so I can choose a colour and go buy it to start painting tomorrow but that was this morning and now it's almost time to pick the kids up so I'm just going to go and do it myself. I'm fed up of waiting on him now.
And I've got to get ready for my lung function test later today too.
20weeks and 5days;
I am not having a good day today. I had my lung function test yesterday, basically the nurse made me keep doing the tests until they got one within vaguely normal regions, by which time I was close to passing out and in a lot of pain and when I didn't quite make it within normal levels they just fudged the numbers until the looked within normal limits. WTF was the point in me doing the damn lung function tests if they were just going to change all the results to make it come out good???!! Anyway, I was left in agony last night, I had to take 4 of the strongest painkillers I had in the house (within the allowed timeframes obviousely) because the pain was so unbearable. Today isn't much better... Blah!
Now I've basically been screwed over by so called friends of ours who did nothing but complain about the website I designed for the business we were running and how it wasn't good enough blah, blah, blah... But never came up with any better suggestions and when they did the website basically did far less then it did when it was my design. Now I've announced I've had enough of being constantly told it's never good enough by people who don't know the first thing about websites, they're paying some ****ty "designer" who can't design a website with even a basic HTML package AND to top it off they want ME to give HIM all the work I did for FREE so they can PAY him hourly to basically use the website I designed. You know, the one that wasn't good enough and didn't perform well despite the fact it did better then the one they suggested did.
And Martin AGREED! ON MY ****ING BEHALF. WITHOUT CONSULTING ME FIRST.
I worked for ****ing weeks on that website (for free) and got nothing but *****ing the entire time I was doing it. NOW they want to PAY some **** so called designer who couldn't design a hole in a box to basically take my website, call it his own and just do "updates" to it when they ask. If all they wanted was ****ing updates I'd have gladly done it but all they gave me was grief over how bad my designs were and how the website was working as well as they expected... Which was hardly a surprise as they kept wanting complete redesigns and everything kept changing so it barely had a chance to get any kind of ratings.
I can NOT believe the ****ing cheek. After this weekend I won't be doing anymore for other people, I am fed up of being used and taken for a mug.
On a positive pregnancy note I was lying in bed last night with the remote on my stomach and suddenly it started bouncing around all over the place where Libby was kicking it!!!! LOL So much fun to watch. I could barely feel the movements personally but it was nice to see movement from the outside!!! Sweet little Libby - I can't wait to finally meet you!
21weeks and 3days;
So my kidney is killing me again. I have now had a heavy dose of Ceflex and a heavy dose of Amoxicillon (or however that's spelt) and it's back. I'm at my wits end with the pain from it. I just don't know what to do next really... What's the point of more antibiotics, they don't work and I'm still in pain. Painkillers don't help either. It's agony, it's irritating, burns when I go to the toilet, yesterday I had bright red bleeding too (although not sure where it was coming from), I've had fits, I've been physically sick, I've lost control of my bladder... I'm so tired and fed up now. No point going to the Drs, they'll just give me more antibiotics which won't help. No point going to the hospital, they just treat me like I am wasting their time and don't do anything. No point calling my midwife, it's not her area really....
I really don't want more antibiotics. I point blank, refuse to swallow anymore. They make me gag, I often forget to take them, and they haven't helped so far. I wish I could just go to hospital and they'd fit me up with an IV full of antibiotics, pump me full of heavy duty painkillers and be done with it. Let me lie still in pain for a few days and have someone else take care of me.
My stomach is killing me too now. I'm slightly worried as I know kidney and bladder infections can bring on premature labour but it's not that kind of pain so I'm thinking that's not what it is... Probably just general pain. My whole body hurts for various reasons (chest cos of my lungs, hips/pelvis/back cos of my SPD, kidney cos of infection) why not have a bit of extra pain for no apparent reason!!!!
Oh, I saw my physio today. Things aren't looking too good SPD wise. I've got a ton of exercises to try and grow some extra muscle over the next week and got to go back at that point but with all the rest of the pain I'm currently suffering I hadn't realised quite how bad my hips and pelvis are until I actually focussed on it a bit.
Anyway, I'm going to treat myself to a glass of wine, then spend the next 24hours flushing some serious water through my system and have a bath after my wine too to try and ease the pain a bit...
On a good note, I am gone 21weeks... Less then 16-18 left to go!!! And apparently little Libby is almost a pound in weight now and her eyelids and eyebrows are formed! How cool, she's growing little features and probably looks completely different from other babies by now!