(6 weeks 1 day)
Hello sweet baby,
Mommy is so excited to be starting this journal. It has been one loooooong year...but, I just know that you are our little miracle. I have prayed so hard, and am praying hard, that I will be able to hold you in my arms come Feb/March. The Dr. today said that, you will be due on 10 March 2004. However, because of mom's unique uterus : ), you will very likely be born early. I hope that you can stay warm and comfortable inside of me.....for as long as possible.
I will make this background brief for now, but want you to know that, you have a big sister, Rachael Ann, who is watching over us from heaven. Mom and dad lost Rachael on 21 June 2002. We were very, very sad. We lost her almost a year to the day that we conceived you. Mom feels so horrible that we lost Rachael. But, I also feel that you are g-d's answer to our prayers!
Then, last January, we lost another pregnancy, due to a blighted ovum...no baby. I think that g-d was trying to tell your dad and I that we needed to wait just a bit longer.
Anyhow, we spent the spring and early summer having many, many tests...and were on a really long roller coaster ride. It turns out that I have a rare uterine anomaly, called unicornuate uterus. I have a barrel shaped uterus, about 3/4 of the normal size. I also have only one tube that communicates with my uterus. This anomaly occured while I was developing in Grandma Elaine. It wasn't fun finding out at 35 that there is something wrong with my uterus. But....mom and dad weren't giving up hope! I had surgery in May to confirm the anomaly...and then waited for my next period.....which I never got!!!
Dad and I really didn't think that we'd conceive you so quickly, but, you beat the odds...and are now growing strong inside of me!!!! Yes, you are our miracle child!!!
I had a few pregnancy signs early on, like zits (yuck), and frequent urination. I finally got brave and took a home pregnancy test on 2 July....and your dad said "guess what, your going to be a mommy again!" I sat with the test in front of me for hours!!!! I had a blood test to confirm it on the 3rd of July. I have had two HCG (that's the hormone you produce when pregnant) tests so far....on 3 July, it was 3,359...and on 11 July, it was 22,887!!!!
I am feeling very pregnant now...I am very, very tired all the time....urinate all night....and have a queasy stomach. But, I welcome all of this because I know it means you are growing healthy and strong.
I had my first ultra sound this morning...and I cried tears of joy when I heard your beautiful heart beating...at 120 bpm! I will record it next time, so that I can share it with you some day! I also have a picture to share with you...you are beautiful already!!! My new friend here in Germany, Sherri, went with me, because your dad is traveling a lot right now. I am so glad that Sherri was with me!
Dad and I have a long, long road ahead of us until we see you....but, we will be okay. We will just take one day at a time.
There are so many wonderful ladies here on preg.org who are praying for us, and wishing us well. I am so blessed to have them in my life! I wish all of them babydust and blessings too.
Well, my sweet baby, mommy is tired, so I will stop for now. I hope to write here each day, to tell you all about how we are doing, your family, etc....
I love you....precious.....grow strong!