Our miracle, all in God's time- due November 2007

I thought I would start keeping track of things. I have told family and friends about coming to this website to see the pics of my tests and my belly pics so I thought I would give them something else to read about!

Well, we have officially known for 3 days now. I had suspicions before that though... It really is a miracle! Some may not know our TTC history so let me give a not-so-quick rundown.

David and I married in April of 2006 and started TTC right away. Well, the first test I took, in April of 2006 was a digital (everyone knows that these are the be all end all of pregnancy tests!) and I got a false positive! WHAT? That was nuts. So, then I started to see doctors about my fertility issues. I have PCOS and knew that conceiving wouldn't be the easiest thing for me. So, we kept trying while the doctor's took blood sample after blood sample and finally got all of my hormones and thyroid issues straightened out. I was put on metformin 1500mg or whatever, to help with insulin resistance that is usually related to PCO.

And, we kept trying (see a pattern here! :) ) to no avail. I started to use ovulation predictor kits which were not working for me. I learned later that the cysts on my ovaries can produce false positives on those tests!
Then I did one of the smartest things I have done in regard to TTC. I joined the TTC board 0-12 months in July of 2006. I learned SO much from the ladies there and started to take my BBT (Basal Body Temperature) every morning to help pinpoint if I was ovulating and so forth. Well, we kept trying, but I was not ovulating.

My Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) decided that David needed to get a Semen Analysis to make sure there were no problems in that arena. That was not the easiest for David to do and that in itself is a whole ordeal. Well, the results came back that most categories were normal except for the morphology. The first test showed 9% and the second showed 8%. Normal range is about 15%. So, not only did we have to deal with PCOS but now Male Infertility as well! We were frustrated, angry and felt that things were so unfair. David has wanted to have children for years and OF COURSE, so did I!

So after all this trying with no results, the temping indicated that there was no ovulation occuring. All of the "just relax and it will happens" in the world weren't going to cure either of our disorders... The doctor wanted me to begin a round of clomid in late summer. It was suppose to make me ovulate! The lowest dosage gave me a slightly higher chance of actually conceiving and possibly multiples and we were so excited! Well, I didn't conceive a baby just a gigantic cyst on my left ovary. it was 5cm!
Needless to say, the clomid didn't work for me and now I had a huge cyst to deal with. They told me to go home, wait, and then come back in a month and it will *probably* be gone. YEAH RIGHT! So, I kept up this routine for months until the end of January when the stupid cyst was to the point of being small enough that they would let me continue with the next fertility treatment - I began 2000mg of metformin and was to start Injectibles and Ovidrel to release eggs with constant ultrasound monitoring every few days. We were also going to have to pay around $1,000 to do an Intra Uterine Insemination to resolve that morphology issue. I was ready to move forward! But, I had to wait until AF visited again! URGH!

During the whole waiting on the cyst stuff, we made an appt. with an adoption agency and were briefed about the process and given an application. We were interested in this but were amazed by how expensive the whole thing is! We decided we would wait to apply until we had made one good shot at a cycle...

I started yet another round of medicine to bring on a period and this time it didn't work like it usually did. Without going into too much detail, it wasn't suppose to be classified as a real AF and low and behold they said 'yes it was' and so, I missed yet ANOTHER opportunity to get on down the road. ;) I was all set to lie to them to tell them I had started another period so that I could begin the drugs... and then I noticed weird things happening. I was really hot and had mild naseau (had stopped temping for 8 days out of anger, frustration) starting temping again and noticed my temps were so high, higher than I have seen them in all the time I had temped! I KNEW I HAD OVULATED AND KNEW THAT WE HAD BD'ed TWO TIMES AT ABOUT THE RIGHT POINT! Holy smokes, I was excited. You can bet I didn't miss a temp after that!

Thank goodness for my bright idea of increasing the metformin!

After almost a full year of ups and downs, friends' and families' babies, high hopes and smashed dreams, we have arrived at the place we wanted to be all along. I have had a blinkie on my signature for months that says "In God's time". Well, looks like he had it planned out. We just needed to be at a certain place I guess.

I have been told that for each cycle that you ovulate, there is only a 20% chance of a pregnancy occuring. Well, given all of our issues, it is absolutely amazing that it happened with no fertility drugs or inseminations! So, next to my "In God's Time" blinkie is now one that says "I Believe in Miracles".

Okay, so I knew there were going to be so called 'round ligament' pains. My RE told me to expect AF like cramping... Holy cow. Never knew that this early in the game there would be so much crampiness! I feel like that is something I will want to warn others of! It seems to have subsided today, thank goodness. I can take the pain but it makes me worry all the same! :)

My mom is searching for baby stuff online today. That cracks me up. We have 249 days to go but that won't stop her! LOL!

I am gonna run. She is binging me with ideas!

So today is Friday. The day I regularly scrub my toilets, clean my house, visit/shop with my mom and eat at Cracker Barrel with mom and DH.

I wonder what kind of shopping we will do today? ;)

I am feeling pretty good so far today. I took my temp. an hour early today and it is still high so that is good. My mom, who is a nurse, says she will run my blood work tmw. to look at the beta numbers. I have a real appt. for a lab draw on Monday but I am quite antsy about the waiting!

I took an hpt mid day yesterday and got a positive! I know this shouldn't be a big surprise but it is a good sign that the line shows up even without FMU now. :)

Not much else is new at this point. Just wanted to check in!

I am tired. Isn't that awesome?

I go to bed early and then can't sleep. I go through waves of being hot, then freezing. When I finally get up, it is usually still dark out. I don't know what is going on!

My mom checked my HCG levels today. It was 136-up from 15, 5 days ago. I was quite pleased. A nervous wreck for hours while I was waiting, but so happy afterward.

We had our girls' day today. I was able to point out some things at Target that we had either purchased or were thinking of registering for eventually. That is always a good time. Sometimes I feel a bit overzealous but like my friend said, just enjoy it! I will try! :)

That's all for now. I am having my throat feeling which usually precedes feeling a bit naseauous. :) All good things!

Thanks for checking in.

Liza

Me again.

I meant to talk about this in my first entry but then figured it was long enough to begin with ;)

On our wedding day, I gave this choo choo train picture frame (plays I've been working on the railroad) to David. He loves trains and has worked for several train companies. Anyhoot, the thing sat in the closet in our designated nursery since last April. Well, after a weekend away from home, I was unpacking and the house seemed so still. All of the sudden the thing plays a note. I got kind of freaked out. The nursery closet wall shares a wall with our bedroom so I easily heard it. Well, I shut a drawer and it played a few more times. I went downstairs and told David what had happened and he agreed that having it sit there untouched for about 10 mos. and never having done that before was quite strange. He said 'the baby must be coming!' Well within 10-12 hours of that happening, my best friend went into labor and gave birth to her daughter the next day. I thought that was the baby that was coming! Little did we know that our child would be conceived 5 days from that night. Isn't it kinda twilight zone? It has played a few times since then and now I just figure that the bebe is talking to me!

Nothing new today. I plan on getting up bright and early tomorrow to go have my blood work done. I took a nap today so I must have been tired- but no other symptoms. Crampy here and there but that is nothing new. My new belly pic is up for comparison from last week. Check out the BELLY PICS page 5 on November 2007 birth board!

Thanks for reading.

Ha! I made it. I didn't think I would get to this today. It has been a wild and crazy day full of needles, paperwork, more needles, urine samples, fleas, cramping and work.

YES, I said fleas. I had an issue with my dog today. I guess where we moved to has many, many fleas. She keeps getting them (in the frigid winter). UGH! I freaked out to say the least. Thank goodness I got her into PetSmart pronto. DH was wonderful and swept the whole house to rid of flea eggs. We really have to stay on top of this!

So, the stress of that has made me a bit crampy. Maybe it is conincidence?

My HCG results were 292 today. I don't think they plan on running them again but of course my mom said she would do it whenever. That is good because I like to see them increase!

I need to head off as I haven't see DH all day.

Bye for now!

And, I have to pee. I could have said this same thing about every 10 minutes for the last several hours. ;) Ya gotta love it.

I am sorta sick today. Got a weird thing going on with my throat/voice. I feel pretty good though. I think I mighta Oded on black grapes earlier but I think that is what the bebe likes :)

Some crampiness today and some pressure especially with quick movements. I dunno what that is all about. :?

David and I took Mya and the bebe on our first family walk this evening. That was nice. It was unseasonably warm here... in the 70's. It is suppose to snow over the weekend though! UGH!
DH also talked to the bebe today. That was cute, cute, cute!

I gotta go to bed now! Thanks for stopping by!

Home sick today. I have a cough and throat issue which has left me with no voice or one that goes in and out a lot! I feel worse as the day progresses. I don't know what it is that I have but it is slowing me down!

I was really excited today because I made it to the 5wk. marker. I know it doesn't seem like much for those of you that have been there before... but hey, I am a first timer! ;)

I did a bit of reading in the 'what to expect' book today. It doesn't really interest me too much. I like to talk to my girls on the birth board and with DH but I don't really like to read up on it. The OB gave me this cool magazine with these pictures of an egg that progresses to a baby being born... really high tech ones. Well, of course, it grosses me out. I hate all that veiny looking disgusting junk. YUCK! Nice to know its in there but I think I will like to see the finished package, if ya know what I mean.

I think I need a nap so I am off to lay down. Hope things are good on your side of the computer monitor!

:bigarmhug:

This is darth vader- I am sucking air in like him, anyway.

I decided to do a few things today. First off, I will start posting some links of interest. My mom is going to buy me a cradle. She wants it to be an heirloom type of thing. This is the site that we have concentrated on the most SO FAR!

http://www.netkidswear.com/furniture-craddles.html

We like the vintage antique white one, I really like the cherub one and versallies vintage style one just caught my eye today.

I hear that the baby's room has a lot of great stuff. So we are going to go there soon, too. I think that is where the actual nursery furniture will come from. I'll link ideas some other time!

Next thing I am going to do is post my belly pics. Mind you, this is just for reference and it is full of fat belly bloating pictures. If my belly is something you would rather not see, scroll down really quick!





This is 3w5d...


And 4w4d...


Someone told me to wear the same clothes everytime. I wish I would have started out with something better but at least those pj pants will grow with me! ;)

Here is a pic of my first BFP - HPT...


Ya gotta look really hard to see it, but it is there!

The other thing that I want to do is to change the title of my journal from My to Our. I thought about this last night while laying in bed. So, I'll do that before I am done here!

I am gonna buzz off. I like to check in on my online gals everyday to see how everyone is doing. Some of you know that it is pretty much what I do for the entire day! ;)

Thanks for the love and support.

Still feeling quite like crap. I don't have to work today so that is marvelous. I am suppose to go in tomorrow for the Relay for Life Open House but if I still feel like this, I am not going. :(

Today I thought I would tell the story about getting my BFP and telling DH. Soooo, I ran out to the store after DH left for work on 3/5 (I didn't even shower first... GASP). I bought 4 tests, 2 Answer and 2 FRER. I used the FRER first with FMU and got the faint positive. Well, I wanted to use the same urine for the Answer test but now it was all in the toilet! What's a girl to do? I swished the sucker around in the water and it didn't ever really show a clear line. IMAGINE THAT :roll:

I called and told my BF right away and tried to get ideas to tell DH. I had this plan (which I might use one day so I cannot tell here) but I would need to be home all day to use it and I had to work that night so that wouldn't work out right. What I finally decided was to buy some baby outfits, one girl and one boy, and put them in a box. I found a father-to-be survival guide and put that on top of the outfits and taped the FRER test to the cover. On the outside of the box, I wrote DAD- but he didn't get it. He was under the impression that it was a "I'm sorry I was a crankpot all weekend" gift. Anyhoot, I had to hide all of it in my trunk and wait until I got home that night to tell him! I had to hide from him at work and everything because right when he was about to come in my office I was waiting for my doc to call with HCG results. Luckily, someone called him away and I went and hid. This worked out fine. I get home finally and hand him the box and he opens it and just stares at it and said "You are?" and then "When?" "When?" I thought to myself 'What do you mean, when? You were there too!' Oh my! Then he proceeded to call his entire family and he couldn't get to sleep that night.

Fun times!

Today DH has to go in to the doc. He is having an issue with some sort of big cyst that keeps growing. It is located in the buttock region and is causing quite a problem. I am sorta worried about this so if you could say a little prayer I would apprecite it!

Toodaloo.