This is what I got on Wednesday morning! I was and still am in shock that I finally got my BFP. This past year has been filled with so much happiness, but also a lot of heartache on this journey to our little miracle. There have been so many ups and downs, but when those 2 little lines appeared in front of my eyes, it wiped it all away!!
My name is Holly and I've been TTC since 12.1.2008. My first two pregnancies were easy and uncomplicated. My first daughter, Addison, was concieved our first month of trying and was born nine months later on 6.1.06. We decided when she was 9 months old to start trying for a little brother or sister and after two cycles, we were pregnant with our second daughter, Lauryn, who blessed us with her prescence on 11.29.07. When she turned 1, we decided to try for our final little miracle and after 3 long, crazy, complicated cycles we were pregnant only to have that pregnancy end in a m/c. I was completely crushed! I never thought I was invincible to a m/c, but after having 2 beautiful little girls with no complications, I thought we would be ok.
After 12 long weeks and 2 D&Cs, I was able to start trying again and finally went to the doctor in July for my wonky periods. She shrugged it off and didn't make it seem like it was a big deal. I wanted a second opinion, and decided to try another clinic. I had a great appointment with a wonderful doctor who ended up prescribing me Clomid. My first cycle was unsuccessful and I was really crushed. My due date was fast approaching and I had a lot of emotions running through my mind. I decided to not temp, use OPKs and try to stay away from preg.org (which was unsuccessful ). Well, I got pregnant and here I am!! This is what I've gotten over the last few days:
I'm so excited, but I'm terrified at the same time. I'm trying to enjoy every moment of this because I now know that it can be over in the blink of an eye. I hope that at the end of this journey I am blessed with that little bundle of joy, but until I am, I think there will always be a part of me that is worried.
I am keeping this journal to help remind me how precious this journey is. This will be our last baby and I want to remember every detail, good or bad, after the time has passed. I cannot wait to meet our little one. His or her name will be Cameron Keith/Camryn Grace, and we are so excited!!
Last edited by Holly_Anne618; 11-22-2009 at 09:31 PM.
I'm officially 4 weeks pregnant today!! I don't really feel pregnant yet. I have sore bbs, and I've been peeing quite a bit during the day, but that's it. I'm waiting for m/s....I'm actually anxious for it to get here. Supposidly the sicker you are, the healthier your bean is, so come on m/s....come out, come out wherever you are!!
I am going to take my first belly pic today!! I'm excited
* * *
Alright, my first belly pic. Nothing much there, unless you count the little bit of bloat I've got going on
* * *
I just got home from my nephew's birthday party and I'm worried. I went to the bathroom and I had a tiny bit of blood. I don't know where it was coming from, as I had a BM (and it hurt), but I'm freaking out. I am going to mention to the doctor tomorrow that I had some spotting and see if they will do another draw to ease my mind. I'm so scared....I hate the first tri and how it plays with my emotions....ugh!
Last edited by Holly_Anne618; 11-22-2009 at 09:30 PM.
I called this morning to get my beta results. At 13 dpo, they were 152. I think that's good. They will not do another beta. They said that number is good, so I hope so
I haven't had any more spotting. It was just the one time, and I think it might have been from straining too hard to go potty. It still scared the geebies out of me. I hope it's nothing serious. As for symptoms today, my boobs hurt A LOT!! I'll take that as a good thing. I'm waiting for any other symptoms to come along, so we'll se
Happy Thanksgiving!! I have so much to be thankful for this year!! My beautiful girls, my husband, the miracle growing in my belly I'm so happy today!! I only wish that my symptoms would start to kick in.
As for symptoms, I still don't have many. Frequent peeing during the day, a little breast tenderness, and once yesterday I had a little bit of nauseus. I want the m/s. I want it!! Come on...pretty please
I've told a few more people than I had expected to, but I want the support in case something should happen. I hope and pray that I get to hold my beautiful Cameron/Camryn in 7 months. I am so anxious for July to get here already!! I just keep telling myself to be patient. I keep trying to relax, but until I see my little baby and hear that heartbeat, I don't know if I can relax.
Well, I survived my first Black Friday experience yesterday and it was actually a lot of fun. Not necessarily standing in the massive lines, but the deals that I was able to get were great! I only have a few things left to get for Christmas, but they are things I need to order off the internet, or things that I can buy the week before Christmas. That's probably a good thing though...I spent a little too much money yesterday
I am not feeling so good today. I spent all day outside without a coat on and am now suffering from a cold. Wonderful, huh I wish it were something else, but it's just from not wearing a coat. I'm hoping it will clear up quickly, but I keep sneezing and my throat is sore.
I still don't have any pregnancy symptoms. I really, truly do not feel pregnant and it stinks! I hate the first trimester, and after suffering a m/c it makes the joy of pregnancy very small until those symptoms do kick in. I did have a small bit of nauseus yesterday, but am not sure it was pregnancy related or just the fact that I hadn't eaten in quite a few hours. I'll just keep praying and hoping for the best. My appointment is in less than 2 weeks, and I'm counting down the days. I'm not sure what they do at the first appointment, so am anxious to get to it....keep your fingers crossed for me, and if you have any sticky vibes laying around, I'd love them!
Why can I not just relax during this pregnancy? I absolutely do not feel pregnany. Very rarely do my boobs hurt anymore and I'm just sad. I am fearing the worst...I know I shouldn't but the m/c has really affected me and I don't know that I can handle going through another one. I am trying not to really think about it today, but I can't help it. I'm not really bloated. The only thing I am is really itchy My appointment is in 12 days....too long
* * *
Here's my belly at 5 weeks. I don't see much, but bloat
Last edited by Holly_Anne618; 12-02-2009 at 09:36 PM.
Holy Bloat Batman!! My goodness...I look like I'm 3-4 months pregnant. Just the difference a day makes. Yesterday I was saying I wasn't bloated, and even today Daddy asked if it was normal to look so big already. I told him it was just bloat, but was happy that he noticed it too
I even felt a little sick to my stomach this morning and am feeling it again tonight. Not sure if it's m/s or just something I ate, but I'm hoping it's m/s. I've also had the sorest boobs today. They've been sore all day, like they were when I first got my BFP. I'm trying to remain optimistic!
I've been feeling off all day. I keep getting these sharp little jabs in my back and on my side. Of course, my mind starts thinking the worst. I've been thinking all day, "Oh no...its ectopic!" I finally called my OB because I was worried and when I described my symptoms, she said it sounded like it might be a kidney stone. She told me I needed to go to urgent care or my family doctor right away.
I don't have a family doctor and am not willing to shell out big bucks for Urgent Care, so I was just going to let it be. She called back a few minutes later though and asked if I could get there by 4:30. I went, and they don't think it's kidney stones. They think it's just round ligament pains. I don't remember them being this painful, or this high up my back, but I'm not the doctor. It literally feels like someone is stabbing me from the inside with a needle. Ugh!
They did a pelvic and he said my uterus feels good for how far along I should be. He said it feels like it's growing nice and comfortable for my baby. I sure hope so! I still get them every now and then, so I don't know what to think, but my appointment is in 1 week, so I'll hang in there until then. I'm afraid my u/s won't be until January though...I'm a little bummed about that.
As for symptoms, I felt a little bit of nauseus this afternoon, but not much. My boobs still occassionally hurt, so hopefully it's a good thing! On the bright side, last night at work I looked HUGE! I thought for sure someone would notice, but no one said anything. Whew! I would tell if necessary, but I really want to see that heartbeat. I hope the next week or so flies by so I know when I'll get to see my bean!
Here's my belly in all it's glory I don't see much difference except that the top part of my belly isn't quite so bloated. I've felt extremely bloated for the past few days, so I'm probably imagining all of it!
Yesterday was the first day that I felt nauseus ALL day. Today it's just been waves of nauseus. My appointment is in 4 days and I'm freaking out!! I want it to get here. I wish they'd hurry up and do an u/s. I'm so nervous.
I went and looked at some unisex clothing today. Oh.My.Goodness!! I forgot how tiny newborn clothing is. I found an adorable outfit that I may go back and get after we confirm a heartbeat. I'm anxious to start buying some stuff. I can't wait!! I've also decided to try to teach myself to crochet. I want to make Cam a hat. We'll see if I have the patience for it!
Ugh....today has been a tough day for me. This is when Lovebug's heart stopped beating last time and I'm having a hard time. My head is thinking the worst today. I felt a little bit of nauseus this morning and haven't felt much since. I just want to be out of the first trimester. I hate how hard this is. I hate that I can't have that 'ignorance is bliss' attitude. I hate that any woman who has experienced a m/c has to deal with all of these fears during the first trimester, or even worse, later into their pregnancy.
My appointment is in just 2 days so I'm trying to remain optimistic. I'm really hoping they will schedule my u/s for 8 weeks. I'd love to have it right before Christmas so I could tell my parents. I may tell them anyway if I'm feeling sick enough, but I'd love to see Cam's heart beating away in there before saying anything. We'll see how it goes I guess and play it by ear.
Today we got hit with a massive snow storm. It's been snowing since 6 AM and it's now 10 PM and still going strong. We got out early today, and they've already called school off tomorrow. I'm happy to be home with the girls tomorrow but now we have lost a day in February, which stinks, but oh well!
Ooh, my tummy isn't feeling so good. Off to go lay down...
Last edited by Holly_Anne618; 12-10-2009 at 08:16 PM.