Whoa! It's so weird to write 2010. That's crazy!! That means later this year I'll be holding this little bub in my arms and I cannot wait!!! We did some rearranging in our room last night and even though July is a ways off we made room for the pack and play that baby will sleep in for the first 3 months or so. I wanted to go look at some pack and plays yesterday, but we never made it that far. Maybe today I'll look around online.
I did find some super cute bedding for a little girl, and daddy saw some ISU bedding for a little boy. We were going to have someone come in and paint a mural but decided that if we plan to move in a few years we'd save the money and have the mural painted in the new house. I may change my mind by the time it's time to set up the nursery...only about 10 more weeks until we know the gender...hopefully! I hope this little one decides to share the goods. Lauryn decided to be difficult, but I will get 2 peaks at this little one. I can't wait to find out if we have a Hayden or a Cameron in my belly!!
I'm having a really rough day...I'm loosing my temper at the drop of a hat, I'm yelling at the girls for stupid things, and I've seriously stressed myself out. Ugh! I don't know how I can do this. I am constantly worried that something is wrong with the baby. I worry because my belly has shrunk, I worry because my m/s is gone, I worry because I've constantly got cramps and sharp pains in my belly and on my side. I worry about EVERYTHING!
It's been a stressful week to boot. I got rear-ended on the way to work on Wednesday so I've been dealing with stuff from that as well. DH's car got some damage to its bumper, but that's it. I called my OB to talk to them, and they said unless I'm bleeding they can't do anything to see me. Well, I wish they would. Maybe that would put my mind at ease. Gosh, this is so hard!!! I don't know how anyone does this after experiencing a loss. Every little thing freaks me out, and I don't think DH understands at all. I'm a nervous wreck, and he wonders why I lose my temper. I just can't handle the stress from the emotions and hormones.
I tried to find LO with the doppler again today and I couldn't. I did some rereading of the directions and it's a 2 MGH, which typically can't detect a hb until 14 weeks or later. Seriously?!? I can't wait that long....this is nuts! I may call the oncall doctor tomorrow just for peace of mind. I need some reassurance that everything is going to be ok. The only symptom I still have is sore boobs, and I don't remember them hurting this long. I will take it because it's all I've got, but....I just wish I could feel LO move.
I had some "movements" today that feel like the first movements from a baby, but since I'm only 11 weeks, I doubt it was the baby. It's wishful thinking though!! Come on second tri!! I'm so anxious to get there!
Well, my fear got the best of me and I called the oncall OB this morning. Thankfully he agreed to see me, so I went to outpatients this morning and they did an u/s. At first I couldn't see the baby...I realized she was taking a lot of measurements of other areas, and then she focused in on the baby. My how he/she has changed in a little over a week. His/her legs have grown considerably, and I could see his/her arms moving around too. I could see the flicker of the hb, but she played it for me, which was music to my hears. I've never heard it yet...only seen it. After she got all of her measurements, I went back out front, and we were to go upstairs and wait for the results.
Just as I had arrived upstairs, there was a phone call requesting me to go back downstairs. I asked what was wrong, and she said they needed a few more pics of my uterus to make sure "it calmed down." I was confused...I didn't know what that meant, but when I got back in the u/s room, she said I had had a braxton hicks contraction, and they wanted to make sure everything was ok. She took a few more pictures and said everything looked good. I went back upstairs and waited for another 15-20 minutes and finally the nurse came in and said, "Everything's fine," and walked out...umm, ok?!
As we were leaving, the nurse said Dr. Vereen was on the phone, so I picked it up and he said everything looked really good with the baby. He or she was measuring right on track, and the hb was 163 bpm. She said everything looked good...phew! I should be able to relax now, but I seriously think I will have a hard time relaxing until I'm holding this LO, but I feel better. All these sharp pains I've been having evidentally are round ligament pains....and main they hurt! Anyway, that was my excitment for today...good times!
Woohoo I've officially got less than 200 days until I meet this LO!! I'm so excited!! I decided to tell my boss yesterday and his reaction..."I kind of figured." I don't know how to take that, but he was happy for me. I am thinking he realized how many doctors appointments I've been having and put things together
I've also come to the conclusion that more people at work are aware that I'm pregnant than I realized...I had a co-worker come up to me today and congratulate me. I know I haven't said anything to her, so I'm curious as to how she found out. I was going to wait until next week to break the news, but think that I will go ahead and do it tomorrow. When Daddy gets home, I'm going to run to the store and see what I can find that is pink and blue.
I am excited to report that I found LO with the doppler...for real this time!! To me, the baby's heartbeat always sounds like a galloping horse Dont't ask me why...it just does. Anyway, I decided I've give it a shot. I haven't had the doppler out for nearly a week now because I couldn't find LO. I tried for about 5 minutes and decided I'd just give it another quicky try and I'd be done, and bam!! There it was...the galloping horse! The hb bounced around between 155-163, so I know it was the baby!! Yay!!
Last edited by Holly_Anne618; 01-13-2010 at 07:34 PM.
Well, I told my co-workers and students today. For my co-workers I made cupcakes with pink and blue sprinkles and then took a picture of the girls shirts. On the front of a card I put the picture with "Guess Who" above it. On the inside I put a picture of the girls. I think most of my co-workers already knew. Someone seems to have known and told people. Go figure!! Everyone was happy, but I got a lot of "Are you hoping for a boy" questions. Honestly, people, I just want healthy.
For my students, I told them I had a secret and they had to try to guess what it was. I got all kinds of responses ranging from getting a raise to staring in the Twilight movie (haha ) One of my students shouted out, "I think you're having a kid because you're getting round." O.M.Goodness!! I just about died. It was too funny!! They were all excited once I told them although a few of them thought I was having the baby any day now. I'm glad everyone knows now and am so ready to just relax and enjoy this pregnancy. Alright, off to try to find LO again...
It's the last day of the first trimester Where did the time go? I'm so thankful to have gotten to this point. I have worried and stressed over getting here for so long and now I can't believe that I'm here. It's amazing!! I was able to find LO again with the doppler. In fact, I've been able to find LO for nearly a week now The hb was steady at 163 bpm. I was looking back at my Dec. 07 space and realized Lauryn always had a low hb, so the theory of low hbs being a boy and girls being high means squat to me. I've been looking at a lot of girly things lately which makes me wonder if it's my subconscious that knows better, or if I'm just to used to looking at girl things. I'm not sure
I bought my first two items for baby. I bought a onesie that says "Mommy and Me...Two Peas in a Pod." It's adorable!! I also bought a set that had jammies, a onesie, a hat, and bib. On the feet of the jammies it says "hello world." I still want to buy a baby book too, but they're pricey, so I'm waiting just a bit, although I'm going to have to bit the bullet here soon and start buying the big things we need for baby: crib, monitor, pack-n-play, etc. I also need to buy more diapers. I'm not sure what I'll get. I'm thinking maybe 6 fitteds (xs or s) and 6 pockets. Daddy really likes the pockets, and so I must humor him or he'll resort back to sposies...silly man!
Alright, I'm off to take a cat nap. We had a snow day today (again...) and I woke up early still. I'm a little tired. Hopefully I can get a little sleep before the crazy kiddos wake up!!
I've been slacking on writing in here. I've just been so busy with work that by the time I get home, I'm exhausted. Today was rather eventful, and I've decided this LO is going to be a stinker. He/she is causing me a lot of stress...but it will all be worth it when I hold LO in my arms.
I woke up this morning and told Daddy I wanted to go to Perkins for breakfast. We got your sisters ready and headed out the door. While we were waiting for our food, Addison had to go potty. I took her and decided to go while I was in there. As I wiped, I noticed a red spot on the toilet paper. I wiped again trying to figure out where it had come from and whether or not there was more. There was more and it was coming from a place it shouldn't be
I let Addison go potty and when we got back to the table I told Daddy that there was some blood when I went potty. He told me to relax and when we get home I should call the doctor. We ate our breakfast, although it was hard to enjoy it, and when we got home I put a call in to the OB.
When she called me back she asked what was going on and how far along I was. I told her 14 weeks and that I had had some blood when I wiped. I told her it wasn't a lot, but it was red. She asked if I was cramping and I said no, but that my lower stomach was really sore. She immediately said I needed to go the ER.
I got to the ER and they got me checked in. I then waited for 2 hours before someone came back in the room. That was scary and annoying since Daddy wasn't with me. I was finally taken for an u/s and I was a little bummed. I didn't get to really see you and most of the u/s was of things that I didn't recognize. She was able to get what she needed and I was taken back to the room to wait for another 20 minutes.
The on-call doctor, Dr. Jones, came in and said that baby looked great but that my placenta was "really low." Wonderful!! I've heard of this before and it's not something I was hoping to ever have to go through. I am on pelvic rest and if the bleeding picks up again I am to call immediatley and get checked out. She said if the bleeding starts again I'll be put on modified bed rest. I am hoping it doesn't come to that, but if it does, I'll do it to make sure LO is safe. I just hope and pray that LO continues to grow strong and healthy so that I can meet him/her in 5 months. Please send good vibes our way...I'd greatly appreciate them!
Other than today's strange events, I've been feeling pretty good. I'm starting to get a belly and I had to break out the maternity clothes. I feel so much better not having to suck in my gut..haha!! I've also picked out bedding for both genders and we found a diaper bag, baby monitors, and bathtub that we want to get for LO. I am excited to start buying things and making this feel more real. I've got several diapers coming in the mail, so now we start buying the big things!! Yay!
I'm so tired....I just want to take a nap, but with 2 little ones and DH gone all the time for class, it's just not possible. I guess I will try to put them to bed early tonight
I'm dealing with a nasty cold...AGAIN! I took meds for it a few weeks ago and it went away rather quickly. It sure didn't go very far though. My throat hurts, I've been coughing and I'm loosing my voice. My students told me today I should stay home tomorrow. Gee, thanks!
I can't believe I'll be 15 weeks tomorrow!! That's just crazy. I'm so happy. I've bought a couple of diapers for LO and am anxious to find out the gender. I want to buy the bedding and get started on the nursery. It will be more real for me if we're able to start buying things for the nursery. We won't do much to it until spring, but I just want it here. We may do some painting, but otherwise we'll wait. I'm not sure I'm ready for the girls to share a room yet, although at this point, it would still just be Addison in there. Lauryn will not sleep in her bed. Little turd! She makes it a game at bedtime of chase, and it drives me batty! Most nights I get tired of fighting it (since I'm by myself) so I just make her lay down with me and DH moves her when he gets home. Hopefully it's just a phase and she'll outgrow it before summer hits. Otherwise I'll be forcing her to stay in there because with the baby in our room, she definately won't be sleeping in our room.
We're dealing with more snow and ice. I'm so sick of this weather...ready for spring!
I had one of the worst dreams last night. I don't remember much of it, but I do remember that I started bleeding heavily. It looked as if I had just started my period or I had just had a baby. I know I hadn't had the baby yet as my belly was still round, so I went to the hospital. I don't remember much else from my dream but I woke up panicking. I hope the dream was my subconcsious's way of dealing with all of the stress and anxiety I've been feeling since being in the hospital last weekend. However, there's a tiny part of me that can't shake the feeling that it's my mind's way of telling me something bad is going to happen.
I just want to hold this precious little baby in my arms. I just want him or her to be healthy...I just don't know. By this point, I should be able to relax, but I can't. Every pain, every twinge, every little thing makes me freak out.
I've been using the doppler to help reassure me but even that isn't helping because sometimes it takes FOREVER to find LO, and then I'm not sure it's LO anyway. Ugh!! I'm so anxious for this baby to start moving. That will give me some comfort, I hope. I hope I'm able to relax and enjoy this pregnancy. With it being my last, I want to remember all the good things, but I'm having a hard time letting go of this anxiety.
I have started buying things for the baby. We decided to start buying the little things each week when we get groceries and then we'll have to save to buy the bigger things like the crib, the bedding, the rocking chair, and the stroller. I'm trying to find things around the house that I can sell on Ebay or Craig's list, but am not finding too many things. We have an old glider downstairs that does not match our nursery themes we have set up and it creaks really loud. We want to sell that, and we also want to sell our double stroller and carseat and buy just a single stroller set. So far, I have bought LO a onesie, a set of jammies, a bib, a hat, and a set of bottles and liners. So many things to think about...little things, so we'll see.
I'm just hoping to make it through these next few weeks and am anxious to go to the doctor again. Hopefully then we'll schedule the u/s and I'll feel better about all of this. I hope...
Wow!! I look at that and am just blown away...16 weeks already? How did I get here so fast. I know this pregnancy is going more quickly than I'd like it to, especially since I'm in such a foul mood most of the time, but I'm nearly half way done. 18-19 weeks is halfway for me since I'll be c-section. I feel so unprepared!
Things have been going well. I haven't had any more bleeding episodes and I seem to have gotten back quite a bit of my energy. In fact, maybe too much of my energy. I did 8 loads of laundry yesterday (washed and put away), made a delicious dinner for Daddy (garlic steak and onions), and cleaned our bedroom. I even woke up this morning and did three more loads of laundry and some cleaning upstairs in the living room. Daddy isn't going to know what to do...he'll think I've been possessed by aliens I'm trying to get the house all cleaned up and keep it that way, but it isn't going to work. I know better
I *think* I felt you kick me the other night. On Saturday I was sitting on the couch and I swore I felt this little kick. It was down low, but I know it wasn't gas. Silly me tried to poke and prode at you to get you to do it again, but to no avail. I stopped and laid back on the couch and about 10 minutes later I felt the same thing again. I'm pretty sure it was you. Made me so happy since the day before I scared myself silly! I tried to find you on the doppler on Friday and couldn't. I went to bed in tears, had horrible dreams, and then when I woke up I tried again. I found you on Saturday morning, but geesh!! You should know better than to scare me. Anyway, I'm so excited that I felt movement, but am hoping within the next few days to feel it more consistantly. I didn't feel anything yesterday, but then again I was running around like a mad woman and not really paying any attention. Oh, I can't wait to meet you!! You'll be here soon and I'm just over the moon!