I apologize for venting on you guys, but i had to get it over and done with.
Here is the post I took away from my last entry because I didn't want the negative vibes from my last entry to interfere with my positive vibes of this entry.
Where to begin. Well 1st of all I am 12 weeks 5 days preggo. I should have been 12 weeks 3 days, But at my first prenat appt. the Dr. changed my due date to 12/01/03 instead of 12/03/03, which makes me two days further along than I had thought. Everything checked out fine, bp was perfect, blood testing was great. They took a urine sample...I'm assuming to check for drugs and diabeties. I guess I will hear the results n the near future. My Snookies' heartbeat was at 162 bpm. I was scared at first because all we could hear was my big ole heart beating, but eventually she found Snookies' Snookie is located on the left side of my ovary area. I figured that because I could feel it being harder than the right.
~Snookie-the past few days have been pretty tough emotionally for mommy. There are so many evils in this world, but you have a mommy and daddy who loves and will protect you. I heard your heartbeat the other day. It sounds so strong, and like music to my ears. I could listen to your heart for hours. You are hanging in there, and growing just like you promised mommy and daddy. You continue to do that and in a few months, we will be able to meet you. Love you always....Mommy and daddy!
I guess you can officially say we made it to the Second Trimester!
I am really beginning to feel good about being pregnant. My MS has been long gone; I am no longer tired; I still pee a lot, but am getting used to it. Sleeping on my left side is no longer a difficult task because I use a pillow now. The only thing that is bothering me is my pants. I can no longer button them, and although I have some elastic waisted pants, they are very few. I think this is the dreadful in-between phase, becore you can really begin to wear maternity clothes.
I have a cold, which really sux. I got it on Saturday, and have been miserable every since. I went to my nieces dance recital, and it was wet and dreary. I stupidly didn't wear a coat; thus causing me to get sick. Dh is sick also (thanks to me) He's extremely happy about it I say sarcastically!
I could have sworn last night I heard Snookie's heartbeat. I have this preggo habit of placing my hands on my belly, and last night while I was laying in bed; I did just that. right in the position where the uterus should be. When low and behold I felt this fast beating. It was like lub dub lub dub. At first I thought it was mine, but when I hooked up my prenatal heart monitor, I heard my heart beat, and it was lub----dub-----lub-----dub. Much much slower. I also felt the faster heartbeat at the same I was listening to my slower heartbeat. So I don't really know what that was, but I am assuming it was Snookie's. I couldn't hear the faster heartbeat on the monitor though. I guess it is still to far along.
Well, I guess that's all I have to report. Till next time, Steph!
*Snookie-I feel an extreme close bond to you. I know that you are within me growing stronger and stronger. I worry about you sometimes, but I know deep in my heart that you will be OK! You are truly loved by both mommy and daddy, and although we have a few more weeks to go before we meet you; we are going to patiently wait because we know that every moment you spend within me is vital to your health. And of course we want you to be healthy. * Luv always, Mom!
Man, if I hear another person tell me how big I am getting I am going to scream. I mean, don't get me wrong, I know they don't mean it in a negative way; but lately I have been so touchy about the whole weight topic. I think it may have alot to do with me losing the weight, then seeing it creep back on.
I finally caved in and bought some maternity clothes last week. I purchased a few elastic waisted pants; and tops to coordinate. I also searched my closet for my elastic pants that I wore back in my chunky butt days. I think I am in love with the maternity tee shirts. They are so cute on my. I am wearing a white one today with grey pants, and I look really cool in it. *Note to self, must buy more t-shirts*
Nothing really new to add to the pregnancy list of symptoms. Belly is getting bigger; boobs are still sore; still urinating often; had heartburn recently (bad heartburn); starting to feel dizzy a lot more. Mainly when I get up, or overexert myself by walking up the stairs.
Speaking of which, I totally have a hard time walking up the stairs at work. By the time I reach the top, I am completely out of breath. I feel like my heart is going to burst through my chest it is so bad. I don't really work out anymore...problem #1, but I decided to park as far away as possible, and take the long way to the building. ...problem #2 I don't work out anymore. I really do wish I still did, but now I Don't even have the drive too. I worked out to lose weight, but that's next to ridiclious now.
I've been thinking of names: Boy, Colin Marcell Phillips
or Trenton Lamont Phillips
Girl: Cassandra LaShawn (combo of DH and My middle names) Phillips-- or Calyse Leighan Phillips
I might just let DH family decide the name of the baby if its a girl. It would be their first, but we'll see.
Nothing else new here to report. DH and i bought the sink and the faucet for the kitchen. I really want to have my kitchen done by the end of this month; but I don't think that's going to be possible. With DH still being on strike and all. I plan on starting with the baby room by August, so it has to be done by then.
Oh, unfortunatley we are going to have to give away one of our furry babies--if not both. One we are definitely going to have to give away though. Gage, the baby of the two is really aggressive with kids. Our next door neighbor has a grandaughter who is 2 years old, and he nearly bit her fingers off. My 3 year old nephew came to visit, and when he tried to pet him, he snapped at him. I don't think I want to take that chance with him. And also the older one, Felony is really beginning to turn aggressive...towards me. He snarls and snaps at me all the time now...for no reason. I have been thinking alot about letting them go, but now I am really considering it. I hate to see it happen, but I don't need something bad happening to my baby
Oh well, that's enough for now!
*Snookie-I cannot express how much I do love you. Sometimes I feel a little down about my weight, or the way I look; but I know its all for the better. Everyone tells me that I am going to make a great mommy. I hope so! You deserve the best, and that is what will be provided for you. The best in love, care and comfort. I do have to warn you, daddy and I are going to be extremely protective of you. I am like that now, and you aren't even born yet. I hope I get to see you sometime soon. I picture you in my belly with your little fingers and toes moving around. I can't wait until I can feel you moving inside me. I know that will be the greatest joy I could ever receive. Right up there with hearing your heartbeat! Daddy and I love you dearly, and continue to grow big and strong. Luv, mommy!*
Everything went fine. Baby's heartbeat is still beating strong at 150 something bpm. I had a resident Dr. who really didn't know what the heck he was doing. He couldn't tell the exact #, so I have to settle for 150 something. Dr. still says my due date is 12-01-03; but it might change when I have my next U/S scheduled for 07-08-03. I will be 19 weeks by that time.
I was concerned about my weight gain, but Dr. said that of course I have to be more careful, but as long as nothing is affected (bp, glucose) It's ok! I was really worried because I gained like 20 something lbs by my 16th week. SInce my last visit I gained 7. I am going to be more careful, and start working out again. I think I am going to start by walking on the treadmill and see where that takes me.
I tape recorded the baby's heartbeat yesterday. DH couldn't be there due to his job, but by recording it, I was able to let him hear it. It is also good for me because now whenever I want to hear it, I can. DH is really beginning to turn around about the baby. I think now that he sees my belly sticking out, reality is setting in.
Yesterdya, I also had that Triple Screen Test done. I think I may have to call next week to find out the results. I don't think I can wait until 07-16-03.
We had an argument the other day about me becoming a part time SAHM. I want to quit my full-time job, and find one that is part time so that I can spend as much time with the baby as I possibly can. I don't want to have to surrender my child over to his sister for 40 hrs. a weeks, only to have my baby a few hours a day before he/she falls asleep. We are still discussing that subject, but I think I may win!
Anywhoo, I better go and get back to work!
*Snookie--I luv you sooooo much. There isn't a day that passes that I don't think about you and pray for you to be ok! I know you will, and when you are born, you will see how much of a worrier mommy really is. Daddy is more laid back, so I guess it balances us out. I heard your heartbeat yesterday. It is so strong; it's like music to my ears. Pretty soon, I should feel you kicking, and that will be a sure delight. Next month, I am going to begin getting your room ready for you. There is alot of rearranging that needs to be done, but it is going to be worth it so that you will have a nice environment to sleep in. Mommy and Daddy loves you dearly*
Man, next monday I will be entering into my 5th month; How exciting!
I am reporting my new symptoms of pregnancy.
Ya'll, I have swollen feet, hands and NOSE! Why is this happening to me? I know that happens on occassion, but I didn't think it would happen so soon to me. I totally am going to have to buy new shoes now. Not that I am complaining! I am totally in need of new sandles.
I found out yesterday that I may be having two baby showers. At first I was complaining, but now, I kinda like the whole idea.
Oh well, this is a short entry. TTFN!
*Snookie--I have to be honest with you when I say that I worry about you constantly. I think about are you ok? I wonder when I will feel you kick again? I wonder if what I felt a few days ago were really you, or just my imagination wanting it to be you? I am starting to dream about you. Although I don't see you, I know that you are born, and everything Daddy and I hoped for. I want to hold you so bad, and can't wait to see you in 12 days. I love you dearly! Mommy*
Every now and again, I reflect on how bad I wanted to be a mommy; however those prayers were never answered. Then one day, when I decided to give up trying, WHOMP! My little one appeared.
Having my baby in my arms in about 22 weeks is the best thing that could ever happen to me. I daydream about being a mommy; as well as Dh being a daddy. I think I will have a wonderful experience, so much so that I won't want to wait too long before we have another.
I have been thinking about ideas for the baby room, and I can totally envision it in my mind. I can't wait to get started.
On a sad note, Gage (my other furry puppy) is leaving us tomorrow. He is going to the home of an 84 year old woman. She wants a companion dog, which will be nice for them both. I feel bad about having to let him go, but feel good that he's going to a really good home. I thought it would be easy to let him go, but when the final decision was made; I totally bawled! I do love him so, but I know it is the right decision being made. I just wonder what impact it will have on Felony( my other furry puppy). I know the 2 are attached, but I hope not so much so that it sends Felony into a depression. We are planning a really good dinner for them both, and I am going to buy him some treats to take with him. I know its the right thing, but why do I feel so bad?
On another note, I will be able to begin doing the baby room once he is gone. We still have a lot of junk to clean out of it, but at least we have the time. I bought my first baby room item a couple of days ago. It's a wicker hamper that I am going to spray paint white to coordinate with everything.
I am also going to buy two candle stick lamps and put ribbon coordinating with the colors of the walls around the lamp shade. I am going to put a glider chair and ottoman in layaway today, that way by the time I get it out, it will be time to put it in place. I can't wait to get started!
Anywhoo: only 1 week until my next u/s!
*Snookie, only one week until I see you again. I can't wait to see your head, legs, arms and little body. I know you will be so beautiful. I love you dearly, and also can't wait until I can feel you moving around inside of me. I want to feel tha so desperately. I love you, Daddy loves you, Mommy and Daddy! *
I just had the U/S completed yesterday, and DH and I will be the proud parents of a beautiful BABY GIRL!!!!!
I am completely thrilled about that. Mind you I would have loved my baby either way, but I was secretely hoping for a little girl!
During the U/S I kept asking the tech what the sex was, and she told me that she couldn't tell because the baby had her legs closed. I replied "Stubborn like her father". Then I thought to myself, "Oh you cannot do this to mommy today, open your legs Please", and sure enough, they opened. The only thing that bothers me is that the tech said that she is not 100% sure that my baby is a girl. She said it looks like a girl, but during early stages of development, it could be a boy. Then she said, but it looks like its a girl. I figured I would not get a definite answer onthe sex, due to alot of times the U/S are wrong about the sex. My brother and his wife were constantly being told their baby was a girl, then it is born and its a boy!
With that accuracy, DH and I decided to purchase everything unisex. I received this Babies-R-Us flier in the mail the other day, and saw this really cute moon and stars crib set. It is Yello, blue and green. I decided to do the room in that motif, rather than in the bears. They have a sale going on until 08-03-03, so I have some time to buy it. the really neat thing is that I don't have to slipcover my glider chair because the navy blue color will totally coordinate.
Well, that's all I have to report for now; except, with the U/S it says that my due date is 11-22-03 instead of 12-01-03. I think I will go by the 12-01-03 due date unless the Dr. changes it.
*Baby Girl Snookie-seeing you yesterday was like looking at a priceless painting. You looked so beautiful moving inside of me. Your little head and little body are the brink of perfection. I am so happy that you are my little girl, as is daddy. I can't wait to see you wrap him around your little finger. I feel your kicks so frequently now. I was praying that I would feel them soon, and now that I am, I hope they never stop! You bring me so much joy, and happiness! I look at your photo constantly. You are beautiful even in-utero. Continue to grow bigger and stronger, and Daddy and I will see you in a few months. Love always, Mommy!*
I signed up for Lamaze and CPR classes today. The Lamaze classes begin in October on the 16-23-30 and 11-07. The cool thing about these classes is that they not only show you proper breathing techniques, but they also show you what to expect from the moment you get into the hospital until you deliver the baby. They give you a tour of the hospital, as well as the last class is when they talk about infant care. So its 3 days lamaze-1day infant care.
I am getting the epidural (if I can't tolerate the pain), but still, I want to be prepared for any and all emergencies.
As for the CPR, I am signing up for that in August for the September sessions. So actually I lied about signing up for CPR just yet. I am taking it with a buddy I met online at another website. She lives only 20 min. away from me and I am one week further along than she is. Pretty cool huh.
I was starting to feel a little sad about being the only preggo girl at work. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. It gets a little lonely because you have no one to share with. I mean, the computer is a big help, but it doesn't compare to that face to face interaction. So meeting that online buddy will be pretty cool (I think).
Dh and I went to Target and bought the baby furniture. Actually it's adult bedroom furniture, but In my opinion, it can double as baby furniture. I bought a dresser that will double as a changing table. The height and width are perfect for such a thing, and a 5 drawer tall dresser. I figure that is were all the clothing will be housed, and the changing table I will keep diapers, changing stuff, onesies and pj's. I am going to start cleaning out the baby room. I have to clean it up from when our dog left.
I also have a crib set picked out. It's at Babies R Us, and its unisex. It costs 155 bux, but I have a 15 dollar off coupon, and a 20 dollar gift card, so it will only cost me 120 bux. Not bad for a 6 piece set. I am going to get the matching wall border and mobile too. After I purchase that, I will be done with buying stuff for the room (I doubt it though).
Well, that's all that I have to report. I have a birthday party to attend tonight, have to go home and rest for that. Till next time, Steph!
*Snookie-the only thing that I can say is that I LOVE YOU!*