26 weeks 4 days pregnant :D
He's gotten so high! He's practically in my ribs and I can't bend very well at all. It actually hurts to bend over. He's definitely an active baby though, I wish I knew if he was head up or head down though. He's still got plenty of time to turn though.
One of my worries has been the possibility of needing a c-section if the doctors think im not progressing, or that the baby is too large for my birth canal. I really really don't want a c-section, but in the end it's all in Gods hands, right?
Another thing that's kinda been annoying me, but idk if its just my pregnancy hormones or what, is that me and Alex seem to spend less and less time together. He gets up and goes to school from like 8 am to 3 usually, and then works from 3 to around 10. I work from 10-7 so we're apart the entire day. That's totally understandable, I realize that it's out of both of our control. The part that annoys me is when we both do have time off, it seems like we still don't get to spend quality time together. Like for instance, last night he got out of work and he wanted to go bowling with a bunch of his friends, and wanted me to go too, but HELLO, I have work at 9 am. I don't understand how he can expect me to go bowling with his friends and him till 2 am when I'm pregnant, and have to be up early to work 8 hours the next day. I was upset that he wouldn't drop his plans to spend time with me, but I don't know if thats being unfair or unreasonable of me. He doesn't get time to himself all week, and I understand that he needs time to relax and have fun too, but I'm in the same boat. I went to bed at like 10 pm and he got him somewhere between 1 and 2 am. At least we have tonight and the day tomorrow to hang out (hopefully, unless he comes up with other plans). I don't mean to be needy, but I wish we had more intimate and personal time. I think it's just pregnancy hormones. Sometimes I wish he'd want to do something nice and thoughtful like give me a nice back massage without me having to ask, or cook a nice dinner for me, or take me out somewhere. :( We'll see how the rest of this weekend goes.
Noah, mommy loves you.
28 weeks & 2 days pregnant!
So, I had an ultrasound on Feb 1st. It was really really nice to see Noah again. He was really active and still a boy :D. The only thing that threw me off about the ultrasound was that I was 27 weeks and 3 days, but he was measuring 25 weeks and 1 day. That's a whole 16 days off. It really worries me and gets me thinking that maybe he's not developing or progressing as he should be. That's the scariest feeling in the world as a mother (I can't believe I'm gonna be a mother!!!). Either way, he will be my life and joy, it would just break my heart if he wasn't able to lead a normal life though. At my appt with my midwife yesterday we talked about it and she didn't seem terribly concerned because she said my uterus was measuring 30 weeks for 28 and that alot of times the position of the baby and the way the tech measuring could have alot to do with it too. She said she would have me go for another ultrasound though if theres still a concern about it in a few weeks. If I was to go by the stretch marks I've been getting, I would say he is growing just fine!!
I just hope the brain and kidneys and heart and everything else is developing as it should. Oh, and he has hair too, we saw it in the ultrasound. :D
I did the glucose testing yesterday, the drink wasn't that bad. The first sip was actually kinda good, but near the end it felt like it was burning my throat and just really gross. I hope I passed - I ate a bowl of sweetened cereal like an hour before my appt :( !
I am getting nervous about being a mother. I hope I'm good at it, because if I'm not, not only am I letting myself down, but I am letting Alex down. And worst of all, I am letting Noah down. I know I am probably not going to do everything right, but I sure as hell will try. I want to raise him to be respectful, smart, god fearing/loving, successful, and loving. I want him to have all the great qualities his father has, the patience, the caring, the thoughtfulness, the talent. I want him to have all of my best qualities too. Cannot wait to meet him!
29 weeks and 1 day pregnant
So my midwife Joyce Wilder called me on Monday. Wasn't very positive news. She said that Noah was in the 3rd percentile and that he had poor weight gain according to the ultrasound. She kept telling me not to worry though until there is a for sure reason to worry. I don't know what I would do without Alex, because he has been there to pick me up when I break down. I can tell that he was shocked and surprised and hurt as well, but he put himself back together quickly for my sake. I couldnt have picked a better man to be the father of my children.
I'm anxiously waiting my ultrasound on the 29th of feb!