I have been keeping a pregnancy journal on another site, but I think that I will copy/paste what I have already done and then I will continue to copy/paste over here for each entry. I like the format of that journal, but I do not think it can be shared. All of my buddies are over here, so I want to be able to share it with anybody who cares to read it. Here it goes.
6/6/2003 10:23:25 AM Subject: Found out the good news today
I am so shocked right now. I had a positive pregnancy test this morning. My husband is happy, but kept asking me how we know for sure. I went to the store this morning and bought 3 more tests. I took one of them at it was positive also. My doctor's office said that I do not have to go in to get a confirmation because the over-the-counter tests are as accurate as their tests. She asked me when my last period was and caculated my due date. Febuary 14, 2004! Valentine's Day! That is wonderful. We have tried for so long for this, so I still feel like I must be dreaming. Mark told one co-worker and I told my friend Tehmina and Michele. I babysit Darin and Michele's little boy during the week-days. I cannot wait until we get to tell our parents tonight that they are going to finally be grandparents! I was taking fertility medication for 2 months, so I am very happy that it didn't take long for them to work. I have been crying a lot today because I am so happy. I just wish I could tell the whole world!
It was so fun to get to tell our families last night that I am pregnant. They were all so excited! All of my family members, except my dad, asked me if I was serious. They were a little shocked, I think. I have not been able to tell my grandparents yet because they are out of town. I hope to get to tell them today. They will be so happy. My granddad (on my dad's side) cried and cried. He was thrilled! Mark's family is very excited as well. His granddad cried also. Everybody said that they wanted to come for the birth. I hope they plan on staying in a hotel! I can't house a newborn and 15 other people! I feel so blessed to have such a caring, wonderful family that is so supportive of me.
I am soooooo tired. I have no energy. I just want to sleep all the time. I know that it will pass and I have read that exercise can help fatigue, but it's hard to get moving. I have had some sickness, but nothing too bad. Sipping 7-UP seems to really calm my stomach. I am still having some cramps which I can't help but worry about. I have talked to a lot of people that had them and they had healthy babies, but I still worry. I am trying not to. I want to enjoy it. My clothes seem to be a little tighter already. That can't be possible. I think that maybe I am just bloated. I have been drinking a lot of water, but I should probably drink a lot more. We went to dinner with our next door neighbors Saturday night and we told them I was pregnant. They were so excited, so of course that is what we mainly talked about during dinner. They have a little girl that is almost 2, so they have lots of knowledge to share. I'm glad to have them next door because I can ask them questions anytime I need to and they are so nice. I know they will be a big help to me. I can't wait until I get to see our families next time. Mark's family will be here around July 4th for a little visit, so that will be fun. My parents are coming in August for a weekend. I may be just starting to show at that point. What fun!
6/10/2003 10:54:31 AM Subject: Time is going by so slow!
Time seems to be just dragging by right now. I cannot believe it is only Tuesday. I still have 14 days (counting today and the day of the appointment) before my first Dr. appointment. I just think it will seem more real once I have that appointment, so I can't wait. I actually took another test this morning just to make sure I am still really pregnant. It was positive of course, and my period did not show up, but I still feel like it's not really happening yet. I have still been getting a quesy stomach, but 7-up or ginger ale really helps with that. I am having a hard time drinking all of my water,though. I just don't really like it and it is hard to force myself to drink it. I know that I need to, though. I had planned on walking everyday, but I've been so tired that I haven't walked once! I have heard that I'll have more energy in my 2nd trimester, but at this rate, that will never get here! I'm sure things will start to speed up for me soon. I am really busy with school, so that should help out. Also, once we find out the sex and start working on the nursery, I think it will seem more real and go by quicker. I have just wanted to be a mommy for so long, I can hardly wait for February to get here!
6/12/2003 5:47:56 AM Subject: Symptoms are stronger
I am starting to get a sick stomach more often and it's a stronger sickness. I have not thrown up yet- knock on wood, but I have been getting waves of nausea that are pretty bad. I am so tired all the time. I have to take a nap everyday, and it's still hard to make it through the day. I am soooo happy, though. It is finally starting to sink it that this is really happening. I cannot wait until my first appointment, though. I think it will feel really real at that point. It's still 13 days until my appointment, though. Time still seems to be going by so slowly for me. We have told quite a few people about the pregnancy, but I think I will tell everybody else after the appointment. I just don't think I could wait 2 more months to share the good news because we are so happy about it! School nights are hard for me because I get so tired and I don't get home until so late. I signed up for my last 4 classes yesterday, so I am getting really close. We worked it out where I'll only have to go up to school for one class each week, while the other class is online. I think it will be a pretty easy last semester which will be great! I'll have plenty of time to work on the nursery and fun stuff like that. Oh yeah, I have GOT to buy a new bra right away. My breasts are getting big! When I took my bra off last night, I had an indentation in both of them from the bra. They are really sore, too. It's all for a great reason, though so I don't mind so much!
I am still feeling very tired. I didn't get a chance to take a nap today, so I feel like I am dragging. Today is Father's Day. I got Mark a Dad-to-be card. That was cool to get to do that. He thought it was really weird to read what I wrote about looking forward to parenting with him. I started crying because I thought he didn't like it, but he explained that he did. I think he is getting excited about the baby coming. He told me today how he is glad we waited so that everything is in order and we can just really enjoy getting ready for parenthood and not have to worry about money or anything like that. That makes me feel so good when he talks about the baby. I know that he is going to be a great dad because he wanted this just as much as I did. He is so good at taking care of me. He watches what I eat to make sure I am being healthy and is so helpful around the house. I couldn't ask for a better husband.
Over the weekend I bought 2 new bras since my other ones are so tight on me now. Can you believe I walked into the store wearing a 36B and came out with a 38D?! No wonder I was so uncomfortable. I bought a sports bra also to sleep in. I just wonder when this tenderness will go away? I have no idea if it lasts the whole time or what. We looked at several cribs over the weekend. I had no idea there would be so many to choose from! We want to get the convertible kind that will grow with our child, so that narrows it down somewhat. It's only 1 more week until my appointment. YEA! I am still excited about going.
O.K. I feel like Monday is never going to get here. It seems like I will never get to have that first appointment that I am so excited about. I have so much going on with school, but I am finding it very difficult to concentrate on school stuff right now. I think about this baby all the time. I love looking at Maternity magazines and baby things. I'd rather do that than study for my Chemistry final that I have this Saturday. I have been getting really bad about waiting until the last minute to do my homework. For example, I have a paper due tonight and I haven't started it at all. I have to get it done, but I seem to have lost my motivation. I am a great student and I am on track right now to graduate Magna *** Laude. I need to continue to get A's in these classes so that I can do that. Somebody needs to kick my butt and get me back in line!
I am feeling pretty sick this morning. My nausea seemed to have pretty much gone away, but now it is back. My cereal just didn't settle well with me this morning.
Mark is so funny about what I eat. He says he wants a healthy baby so he wants me to eat really healthy food. I asked him last night for permission to eat a piece of cake, and he said "How big?". We are totally joking about that. I don't really have to ask for permission to eat something. I have been eating pretty healthy, though. I eat a lot of veggies for snacks and I love those cheese sticks, so I eat one of those each day too. Ugh. I can't talk anymore about my eating habits. Thinking of food is making me feel sicker right now. I'll have to talk about my food later when I feel better.
We took Gracie to Pet's Mart last night to buy her some more dog food. It's fun to take her because everybody's like, "Whoa! That's a big dog!" Or, "That looks like a horse!" She is so good and so sweet. We just love her to death. We took her for a short walk when we got back. We got her a new collar to wear when we walk her so that she won't pull. Mark won't let me walk the dogs anymore though in case they pull and make me fall down. So, I guess I'll walk and he'll hold the leashes. Maybe I can walk the little one, though. Well, I guess I'd better end this entry so I can start looking at my homework for tonight!
I got to sleep an extra couple of hours this morning, but I am still really sleepy. I am having a problem with drinking the amount of water I should be drinking. I try to make really healthy choices because we want a healthy baby, but I just can't seem to drink the water like I should. I probably only have about half the amount I need each day. I am trying to make myself drink more water now. I told Mark he needs to help me with it. I just don't think about it most of the time. Even when I'm thirsty, I seem to wait a long time before I get a drink. Drinking enough water would probably help me to feel more energized as well, which I really need right now!