I've not had the best couple days. My phone was turned off again (luckily I work for a phone company and can get a cell for cheap) and M and I have been less than fantastic with each other lately. Working saturday kinda sucked enough, but that day it seemed like everyone was grumpy. I made it through it however, and however you look at it either "God tempers bad days with enough good to keep you happy" or "With every good day comes 3 bad" however pessimistic I'm feeling that day.
M's mother and I were discussing a baby shower. Really couldn't be a better time for that, I feel it's about *darn* time I get to actually celebrate a baby coming into my life rather than freak out and fret. For once, everyone in my life is excited about the coming arrival(s) and I can celebrate. As much as I was happy for Teresa, watching her have a baby shower and shop for a baby and tell the world she's having a baby was also a bit sad for me. I realize this is selfish but I'm glad it's time for me to celebrate.
Anyway, I look forward to doing the registry and inviting friends (I honestly don't care if anyone brings anything but some diapers..) and just having a good time.
I think I had plans for a big long entry but I just got overwhelmed with being tired and so I'm off to bed
Thanks love!! Man, I haven't been leg humped in forever.
I'm hormonal. I dislike my boyfriend quite a bit and actually don't even want him to touch me most of the time. Is this normal? I remember being smitten with dom when I was pregnant and this time around I could take him or leave him. I just flat dont like him. I know he senses it, and we've spoken of it briefly, but I dont know what to think about it myself and then I can't really talk to him about it. I wonder if it's just stress because of our living situation or what, but I can't shake the feeling.
The tiredness is SLOWLY abating, I'm still tired but not exhausted all the time like I was. Definitely time for a new car though, I'm starting to get consistent chest congestion/cough and sore throat after I drive. That can't be healthy can it?
My phone was shut off for a week or so, but I actually got myself a new one, and I'm the only one responsible for it. It's in my name, and I'm the one paying for it so I should have it for a while. I need to remember to give that number out to a few people so they can call me.
Gosh I can't believe my trip to Kentucky is so close!! And, my boss is going to work it so that I can come in early, leave early and make it in plenty of time to catch the plane. I have to work two hours that day because I don't have enough paid time off. He knows how important this is to me and is working with me on it. Gosh I just can't wait to be there! I want to hug T, I want to kiss those fat cheeks of matthew's and I want to just relax and have FUN. Plus, maybe the time away will help me with the boyfriend situation.
Anyway, enough *****ing. Things have been okay lately. I'm going to bed, early day tomorrow
I had my u/s yesterday. When I went in she first told me that she wasn't going to do a gender check because it's too early and it's very hard to tell. I pouted but eventually got over it and just got into looking at my babies on the screen. They're just full on little babies right now and it was so cute to watch them. Already kicking each other and preferring to be cramped up because they get to be close to each other.
So she's getting some good shots of the heads and body and she says "ok look, if I tell you what you're having you can't tell anyone I told you this early, and don't be upset if I'm wrong." Well I couldn't possibly argue with that now could I? So okay.
There's baby B, she says. Baby B was our first anatomy shot. Nice and clear as day. I'm looking. Now, I've seen a LOT of boy ultrasounds in my day and I know exactly what baby boy parts look like. So she draws a circle around these two white lines and says "So, this one's a girl." omg are you serious? I'm getting my little girl!
Over to baby A who was a little tighter but not much, and there was that familiar shot I knew. "And, this one's a boy"
I couldn't believe it, I'm getting my boy and my girl. Exactly what I wanted. I don't cry often, (more when I'm pregnant obviously) but right now even, the feeling of it, I could cry. I can't wait to have pink frilly things, and cute little dresses, and hair accessories (please don't let her be bald!)
daddy and I are beyond thrilled. He's already got his complete family in one shot
I was in a rush since it was before work but I didn't really elaborate on my appointment much. My ultrasound was mainly to check for both babies having their own placenta or if they were sharing one. She found only one but she thinks that they just fused, since they are obviously fraternal twins. So, they have their own which is good news but they're still fused which *could* lead to problems.
So far, both babies measure exactly 15 weeks 4 days, and are exactly the same size. Nice healthy hb's 160s and 140s and were moving well. Next one is the big one where we measure brains and the whole 9 so it's going to be yet another looong one. I'm really complaining that I'll be spending over an hour looking at my babies. Right.
No pictures to share yet, I'll see if T has a scanner and scan them next weekend so I can share. They're adorable!
The weekend was great. I had a lot of fun being around Matthew and his family and watching everyone. It's obvious that he's very much adored.
While there we got lots of pictures, and I left much too soon. I would love to go back!
For now, I thought I'd post my first belly picture. I should have had on a tighter shirt, you can't see anything going on really but those eastern folks sure keep it cold in their houses.