Sept. 1 09
creeping up on 9 weeks and so far still so good! it was so cute, i was talking with daddy yest and he was feeling really paternal, he was talking about how he started thinking about having to teach you things like riding a bike and reading and stuff. well i pointed out that long before that stuff comes crawling and holding a knife and fork and getting dressed! he just looked at me and was all "i hadn't thought about that stuff!" all the little things that as adults we take for granted, someone had to teach us this stuff. and now it's our turn to teach you! he really is cute and happy that you are on your way!
as for me, starting to experience some queasiness but nothing that isn't manageable. went out for lunch with aunty anna and sammy yest. it was all i did all day and it still necessitated a three hour nap afterwards! you sure are taking a lot of energy! not that i mind, it makes me feel confident that you are growing and will be healthy! not much going on here other than really tired all the time, daddy has made it a habit of asking if i napped or did anything else and when i tell him that all i did was sleep he is very happy and proud of me! it's really cute! the housework isn't too bad right now but it's getting there again, might try to do something today, have a chiro appt and have to go pay rent so probably not but it's a thought! there's always tomorrow or asking daddy to do it! well i'm off to start my day (early appt.) love you lots always and always! mom!
Sept 10 09
so i know it's been a while, it's been an interesting time. feelings seem to be all over the place, i can't wait to have a practitioner to handle things, tried calling endocrinologist the other day and still no word, thinking that the synthroid needs to be adjusted. daddy is on strike so he's gone 10 hours on the line now 6 days a week instead of 5 but he starts early so he's still home around the same time. finances should even out though as the money he gets from strike pay is non taxable so i don't have to claim it and now i get the full aish cheque, also i will be getting an additional $30 for dietary allowance for having you. starting to get more easily upset these days, need to see a doc and get some security dealt with so that i can calm down and stop questioning things. it sucks right now because i'm so early still (10 weeks is great but still not that far along in the grand scheme of things) i find that no one seems to have any experience with all this high risk stuff so whenever i try to talk to someone about it i find them changing the subject and i'm left feeling like they don't want anything to do with the pregnancy or baby and that i'm getting on their nerves talking about you but at the same time i know that's not true (i have talked about this and it's been confirmed that this is not the case!) it's just that no one knows what to say and they don't want to make things worse so they say nothing which i think is actually worse because i'm not getting my stuff acknowledged and i think that this is something i really need. however i see the specialist team on monday so i'm not going to get bent out of shape until then! easier said than done but i'm trying! mommy brain is starting, we went shopping yest and daddy left my card on the table instead of putting it away so i didn't look and didn't see it and we got all the way to the till and rang in before i realized i couldn't pay for it :eek: and not having a car i had to send daddy home on the bus (he can go faster than me!) and wait for him to come back with the card! he actually made the bus one right after the other but he was so tired from running like a mad man that the rest of the day was a bust! but i got some food and some cleaning stuff that we needed so i can putter the rest of the week. well i love you lots and will try to keep you updated on the doctor stuff and how i'm dealing with all the stress of not knowing if you are going to be all right, if i am doing enough to keep you safe etc. love always, mom!
Sept 13 09
mommy is not amused. okay so i get that 12:01am IS technically morning, i do not count it as such and REALLY did not appreciate the rude awakening last night! although i do appreciate you not making a habit of this action i would greatly appreciate it if you could limit this activity to times when i am already awake! and the sinuses are not supposed to dry out that badly yet, it's not really that dry out! anyway you know i love you and am happy that things are going so well so far, just don't think you are getting away with this kind of diva-ism after you come out! yeah i know wishful thinking on my part but... i am your mother and i am putting my foot down! LOL! yes it's a better day today than some days and although the hormones are starting to get more erratic i am finding it easier to pinpoint what need is not being met to satisfaction and deal with it, most of the time it seems to be daddy cuddle time, it's still too hot to really cuddle but i need that closeness more than usual these days and most of the time he is willing to accommodate me. at least it's an easy thing to deal with! well i guess that's about it for now, daddy should be home soon as the stupid workers caved just as the company was stressing big time and the strike is over already. hoping he still has tom off as it is our 5 year anniversary and we have plans, including a perinatal specialist appt. for you! we shall see and i will try to kup! love always, mom!
Sept 15 09
so the appt went great yest! i'm doing everything right and they don't see why i should have any problems if this continues, i get to stick with the ob that i found and go to the hospital that i wanted (as long as nothing goes wrong between now and then!) so life is good! synthroid has been uped to 100mg daily to bring my levels to a healthy one for pregnancy (right now i'm healthy for normal) confirmed stopped met at 13 weeks. new u/s for 18 weeks booked for nov 11 and the perinatal team will do that one themselves to look for anything that may be 'off' need to call fertility docs office as i'm not sure who or why they've booked me with another doc? also need to call ob and let them know what's going on as they are holding my appt until further notice. nausea is getting annoying, it comes in waves and then goes away but in the meantime food is not an option! oh well had to hit at some point and at least it is manageable for the most part. love you lots, mom!
Sept 21 09
good morning sweetheart. so things are trucking along as normal here. breasts are a little tender and sensitive but not so much (starting to wonder if breast feeding will be an issue) tummy is progressing a little but very slowly (which is normal and good) appetite waned again and i'm super tired so i think you may be growing again (seems to be the progression). loving you more and more everyday, cant wait to see you again at the end of the month. as for me, thoughts are a little erratic, can't help but wonder how you're doing in there and really getting anxious to feel you so that i know you are okay. that's about it, same old same old just thought i'd check in! love you always, mom!
October 1 09
okay so it's been pretty uneventful which is why i haven't written anything in a while! but yest... well yest was a different story!
okay so day from bleep to start with. as some may have noticed i could be on tlc's 'i didn't know i was pregnant' from the symptoms i haven't shown, well today it started (actually yest but only in mommy brain form!) had breakfast and went to brush my teeth, vanilla mint so it has been all good so far, nope not any more, brushing teeth now requires extra effort. then went for the bus to go to the ultrasound and dh pops some 5 gum, spearmint in the bus shelter, i go out for fresh air and it's too late, so while i'm head first over the trash can, dh doesn't even notice cause he's busy playing with his watch and the bus drives right on by. so now it's the mad call to dad (who is 20min away) to pick us up and take us to the appt (15 min away) which is in 20 min! we made, and with a full bladder i sat there, then they said 'sorry we're running late' and i sat some more, finally get in there and she says 'lay down knees down' and then bumps the bed up higher! pokes around with the wand and baby isn't giving a good shot of the back of the neck, blessed words 'why don't you go pee and we'll see if babe will move for us' "hallelujah!!" go pee come back and try again, doc says not a good shot, go pee again and do trans vag, still not a good enough shot so no worries, go pee and we'll get dh in here, doc isn't going to use numbers or due blood since he doesn't want bad numbers from a bad pic when there's no reason, we'll try again at the 18 week appt., go pee again, in comes dh and WOW!!! THERE'S A BABY IN THERE!!! little one was head banging and rolling over and putting fist to face! it was great!
so baby is measuring 13wk 6d which is a week ahead but that's not unusual, leaving EDD the same for now, HB is 155 and everything looks good!
thanks for you're patience! now the good stuff!
not sure if it's angry alien, 'let me out', or 'open, open, open!' lol!! that is face looking at you on the right and fist waving and hips on the left!
i love you more and more everyday and love when i get to feel the little flutters and can't wait to feel you more! it's fun now cause i can make you flutter sometimes by pressing lightly "poking" my tummy! and you either really like or really hate music! it's kinda funny right now because the most movement seems to be from eminem and country! you are my child alright eclectic from the start! i have some classical for you too just haven't loaded it onto the ipod yet. still trying to find the attachment so that i can plug two headsets into one jack so we can both listen. i will find it though! i did however get some really nice headphones that lay flat so they fit nicely in my pants against your little hotel! i try to be nice and keep the volume down as i know how noisy is can get listening through all that fluid! well little one, i love you lots and i'm happy to report that things look good for both of us so far! counting down the days till you are here! love always, mom!
October 3 09
good morning my love! other than it being to dang dry here i am doing well. the little flutters, although not as often, are getting stronger (which i understand is the way it is supposed to go!) appetite is still all over the place which is annoying, as is sleep, but i know that it is all par for the course and i try not to complain too much! daddy is really getting into this whole daddy bit! i gently reminded him about watching you head bang and roll around it seemed to really sink in that you are alive and here and growing inside me! he is as attentive as ever and after watching the way my mood has been swinging he is making an effort to be in a good mood around me! i know i am gushing but MAN did i ever make the right decision in waiting to find him before bringing you here, i listen to what others are going through and how their men are handling it and i truly feel blessed, i try not to brag or gush too much around others since this has been such a wonderful experience for me and i know many others haven't/aren't so lucky but i have to share this somewhere! we are in the second trimester now and i can't wait for all the next milestones; ob appt, feeling you move more, feeling you kick etc., getting to do the registry, prepping the house for your arrival! OH and the best news, so we aren't quite ready to buy the house yet so we have opted to stay here in the apartment for another year. well i went to renew the lease and it had already expired (i was off by one month) BUT the rent prices came down!!!!! and if you sign a new one instead of renewing you get the current price, well it's $120 less now!!!! per month!!! and the landlord confirmed that you can stay with us in a one bedroom as long as you are in a crib so it's not an issue for them (fire code issues have to be adhered to they are there for a reason and this building has had enough fires for me to be mindful!). energy levels are starting to come back! i went four days this week without a nap while doing appts and errands!! i'm going to veg out this weekend to catch up and make sure i don't overdo anything but i feel really good about this! daddy bought me a DS since i bought him one for his birthday and now we just need a game that we can both play (and two copies of it!) and we can sit on the couch and relax and play games together! i am finding that it's uncomfortable to sit at the computer for too long and i miss playing games, we agreed that the DS was cheaper than a laptop so it was all good! i am addicted to zelda! every so often i get a wave of reality, the 'omg, this is real there is a live person growing inside of me, it's not a dream or a wish or a fantasy this time is REAL i'm pregnant and going to be a mom!' it's very intense! i've wanted you for so long that it's hard to imagine how this is going to change my life. it feels sometimes like everything has been leading up to this point and the journey has been way more involved than the destination for planning and now there is this big grey zone on the horizon about how life will be once you are here! i try not to think about it, i want it to be a journey of it's own, but it's surreal to recognize it as a fact!
well i just had to share some of this with you! love you always, mom!
October 13 09
wow it has been a while this time! things are going well, i'm feeling better and nausea has settled into only when i smell things or start coughing (it's snowing here, for the last week and it gets really dry) tummy is starting to show more and more, and is getting more pronounced, it's hard to think that it's already over 14 weeks! daddy is still being super about everything and is handling the mood swings like a pro! one minute i'm crying and the next i have the giggles and then i'm mad at the cat cause i don't want daddy to pet the cat with the hand, it's my hand and i don't want to share! needing lots of cuddles these days! i miss aunty anna, she's been sick for three weeks now but is finally on the mend and we are supposed to go for dinner/lunch today after my chiro appt. headaches are here with a vengeance, daddy has been trying with the rubs but we all know how bad my back gets, you pretty much need a jack hammer to make any progress! energy is sort of back, but the headaches are countering my doing anything with it at this point, but i am enjoying naps when i take them, don't always need them these days! the itchy's are going to drive me nuts! lotion could get expensive if this keeps up! but it's nothing really new, i always get itchy this time of year with the lack of humidity, it's says it's 79% today but i really have a hard time believing that! we have had snow for a week so i guess there has to be some but it's all frozen so it doesn't count! i have been having fun with my new nintendo DS which daddy bought me since i kept using his! we have our first ob appt on the 26 and i'm really looking forward to that as i am hoping to hear your heartbeat for the first time! not holding breathe but it would be nice! then we go for the gender scan and big ultrasound on the 10 of nov. wow almost halfway there! if you are a girl things will be so fun for shopping since i wont really need to buy any clothes, between what we already have and all the stuff you have coming, daddy has a friend at work with a little girl too and we might be getting some stuff from them as well! lol, i told daddy that if we waited till we could afford you it would never happen but if we had you then it would all work out. one of these days he will stop doubting my instincts!! i found the camera i want to get for taking pictures of you! it's only 438 with a 4 gb memory card and an extra battery and does everything i want and more! daddy said it was up to me since i handle the budget, we can do that over the next 5 months easy! and i found two strollers that i like, one is the travel system from sears (exclusive) quinny travel something, it's fantastic but almost $500. if we get the carseat from the neighbor then i only need a stroller and i like the babies r us exclusive qraco guattro tour - diaz, it's got all the features i want (drop down basket, lay flat position, etc) and is a really cool pattern!! it's around $250 but there is a car seat that matches if i still need one that about the same price so either way a travel system is going to be pricey and with all the walking and stuff i try to do i need a good one! well i think this little novel is long enough for now, will try to update a little more often! love you always, mom!
October 16 09
good morning little one! it's been one heck of a week. hormones are all over the place and although i try to keep control of most of it, i think i am getting whiplash now! it's great to feel you moving more and more, and stronger, it's very comforting and i love how you respond to daddy's voice, it's really cute! i would appreciate it if you would stop kicking so hard when you are not happy with me, usually i am in the process of trying to reposition by the time you start, i am aware of uncomfortable positions too you know! but i love you anyway!
a few things: thanks for not making me constipated, for making the sore boobs issue bearable, for taking it easy on mommy regarding nausea, for letting me sleep most of the time. i am enjoying the little bursts of energy, and appreciate that the headaches are not constant!
please stop, reeking havoc on my sinuses, kicking the bladder this early, messing with my appetite (if you want me to eat i have to be able to eat something!), take it easy on the nesting, let me know earlier when i am starting to overdo something so that i can stop before it's way too much!
i love you very much and am so happy that you are here. although i can wait for things since i know things take time, i am very excited for all the little milestones! like when you make my tummy jump, when daddy can feel you, and of course when you get here!!
love always and forever, mom!
October 22 09
so we had our first real movement yest! no denying this one, full on butt roll across the front! i nearly hit the ceiling!! and i'm getting scratched! apparently this sensation is normal so i'm no longer concerned (it seems i spent the bulk of my time trying to dig my way out, as says my mom!) getting there slowly!! i am still getting the odd m/s moments, but for the most part it's manageable and i get tired pretty easily, need to watch how much i do at once otherwise i overdo it before i've realized it's happened. upscale of that though i haven't had to do dishes in weeks! dh is hooked on this 'growing a baby takes work and a healthy babe and mom is doing your part!' we have an old fashioned agreement, he works, i clean and lately he's doing all of it! breasts are coming along nicely (groan) although i don't miss being this big! and i am starting to get goop from the nipples! great sign since we weren't sure if they would work (after reduction surgery the odds are about 50/50) so yay!!
first OB appt was supposed to be on mon but they are training for a new computer system (doppler?) so they rebooked me for tues and i get to be one of the first that they use it on! i can't wait to hear that heartbeat for the first time!!! and then on nov 10 i go for the big u/s!! so many milestones are creeping up fast! 16 weeks and counting!