hello in there Jade! wow thank you for letting me get some sleep last night, i could have done without the major argument when i tried to roll over but we both got comfy again so it's all good! you are getting so big i feel almost every little flutter of movement now, and sometimes it's hard to tell what's you and what's muscle! started getting the braxton hicks the other day (think i've had them for a while but i can't feel them unless i'm touching the tummy) they are starting to get to the point where i can tell when they are here, the tummy is getting big enough that it's more noticeable. so far i am just breathing and letting them do what they need to so that tummy can get some practice, when they start to hurt.... we shall see! the chiro is having a field day trying to keep up with my shoulders and hips, you really are doing a number down there! he laughed the other day because i was doing my first stage breathing during the adjustment to the hips, told him i might as well kill two birds with one stone, practice breathing while getting adjusted!! daddy is showing that he remembers things from the classes too! it's cute when he comes out with some comment that is a direct quote! we got the "Great Expectations, Laugh and Learn About Baby, Lamaze and Beyond" dvd since scheduling just wasn't working out for birth classes, i learned sooo much, and the breathing actually does seem to work if it's done right! i took lots of notes so that we can go back later and remember what was said (ie. hunny didn't we hear something about this... look it up for me) stuff like what are the signs of labour and what to do at what point (water breaks - sit down, note time, call doc, check fluid, green is go) still waiting to get out and do the registry. every time we have it planned, either one or both of us is sick (aunty anna is taking me) or the weather sucks. we were supposed to go yest but i had a headache from hades and just was not having a great day (i cried when daddy got home because i missed him and was glad he was home!) so we are supposed to go today, but it's snowing again so i don't know if she's going to bail on me or just borrow her mom's vehicle (newer and in better shape!) we shall see. you finally popped out some more and moved up a little. it was funny because the night you moved up (two nights ago) was the night that i had to pee 7 times! and then i pee'd all day long. it was weird! anyway, you will be here before we know it, 3 1/2 months ish to do! we already are starting to get stuff from others, your car seat is here (there is one on the stroller too but a back up is always good since we don't have the stroller yet!) and a bunch of clothes (first pink ones in the house!!!) all from a neighbor here that has been nice! okay this has become quite the novel so i will go for now, love always, mom!
woohoo your shower registry is up and running! i had so much fun yest going through the store and saying 'i want one of those and one of those and ooo one of those!' there are so many neat things available for you little ones now that it really does boggle the mind sometimes! i tried to stick with reasonable things that i will use (although some things are pretty expensive) and a bunch of stuff that i would never buy myself but that looked very handy to have! another milestone down and time is creeping up faster and faster! can't wait to hold you in my arms sweety!
had a weird dream last night about trying to breast feed and it just wasn't working and then i finally got it and the dream changed! i really hope that i am able to do this for you my love, it would do us both so much good. and i think that regulating the hormones faster will make everyone very happy as it will help to get me back to normal faster (whatever mommy/normal will end up being!) well just wanted to let you know that i'm on it! also, hospital tour will be feb 2 so that's a go and we are done watching the birth class dvd and have learned sooo much, hope that my notes are enough to supplement the memory loss when the time comes! love you always, mom!
okay so since i'm feeling pretty good this morning i wanted to update a couple things! first of all i am not complaining so fate pls leave this as is! so far no constipation or hemerroids. i think i may have had one of the later trying to start but caught it right away and no more issues *knock on wood* starting to fill out nicely, everyone keeps commenting on how i don't look fat anymore and that i finally look preg (gee thanks all, but i guess i did start that one!) you are kicking more, and i figured out why dad isn't feeling it as much as i though he should be... he didn't realize what he was feeling! i put my hand on top of his last night and felt you move his finger, i smiled at him and he was oblivious!! so i asked if he felt his finger move and he said 'yeah a little nudge' 'well... that was your daughter!' 'OH!! cool, good girl!!' some times i just have to grin and nod! he seems to think that somehow i have enough muscle control to make my stomach move in such a controlled and localized area! so hopefully he will be more aware from now on! i love you so much and although i want you to stay put until it's time, i am really excited for you to be here in my arms! although in the meantime i am having fun watching daddy transform before my eyes into a new man, more calm and patient and relaxed than i think i have ever seen him! it's wonderful, even his ppl skills are improving! i think having him talk to you through the tummy is making him realize that he can be as anti social as he wants, YOU will require some interaction from him!! he really is going to be a great daddy, just remember this; just because daddy is wrapped around your little finger, that does not mean that it is right or fair to take advantage of it. pick your battles and choose when to use this power and it will remain much more effective in the long run!!
keep doing what you're doing, we are both looking great! love always, mom!
good morning my little Jade monkey! so it's been a fun week, had dinner with daddy and papa for christmas, decided to keep this year low key and we will have fun next year when you are here. then on sat we went sledding with aunty robin and cousin john, aunty chantel and family showed up after lunch and we all had a blast. mommy sat at the bottom of the hill all bundled up and took pictures all day! it was a great chance to practice with the new camera and i got some terrific shots! you have become quite the active little munchkin these days and i am enjoying it. have been looking more towards the future and what things may be like when you are outside in this great big world and some days it's pretty overwhelming to look at how my life is going to change. the total variety of emotions that are involved is really something that you have to experience to understand (not that i want you doing this any time soon!) just that when someone says, 'you don't really know until you go through it yourself.' they aren't kidding! daddy and i have talked for years about the little things that we want to do differently and the farther along preg progresses the more relaxed we are getting with a lot of those ideas! getting more settled in the 'wait and see' and 'play it by ear' mentality. the big one, soothers, i have always been against them, so has daddy, however... over the last couple years they have come a long way and we have realized that like everything else, some kids do good with them and others really don't need them. we will see how you do without them but do have some picked out just in case. the big one that we will stick to is that one of us will the first to give it to you other wise i will go mamma bear on whoever it is that does it first! a) it allows us to say when we think you need it and b) if i'm going to go back on my convictions about something, then i want to be the one to do it and not have it forced on my or my family. this is pretty much the approach we are working on now with a lot of things, ear piercing, pets, extra curricular activities, even the schooling issue. we want to home school you, but there are a few stipulations. pre school and kindergarten will be public to help you socialize and make friends, grade one will start home schooling. in order for this to continue you will be outside activities with other children, lots of play dates, and you and i will both have good involvement in the schools activities (the correspondence schools tend to do the fun stuff too, field trips and plays and all that). if at some point you decide that you want to try public school again we will sit down and discuss it, if you go then grades and attitude must maintain or we will pull you out again! i am including all this here now so that should a time come when there is conflict we can look back and see what the wants were vs what the reality became! and so that you know that daddy and i are not 'being unfair' these are things that had been settled long ago!
otherwise... thank you for being such a good kid so far, i still have great bladder control, even when you are using it for bongos, i could do without the rectal percussion symphony but i guess it's partly my fault for exposing you to such variety of music, daddy says you are just trying your hand at music with the instruments you have at hand! bladder, kidney, stomach, bowel, i guess they all would make their own unique noise! knock on wood, no constipation, no hemorrhoids, no bladder leaks. the breasts are coming along nicely, belly button is starting to get more shallow each week. chiro is handling the back and hip issues, and i'm getting good at dealing with the headaches, and daddy is getting really good at the pressure point work for the shoulders! yay! not sure where the weight is right now (see doc next week) but no swelling and joint pain is minimal! i don't think the breasts have grown much cup wise but they are def getting more and more full, thinking i will see some good growth in the next couple weeks though. still some morning sickness but still seems to be sinus related, have just settled into a routine with waking up and dealing with it!
well darling this has turned into another short story so i will end here for the day! love you always, mom!
happy new year sweetheart! thought i'd pop in an update finally since i got the computer back! daddy had it down at papa's for three days playing with your cousins (hailey and john), this is something they all do at least once a year! so we had an ultrasound on dec 30 and WOW! you're looking good! everything is perfect, got to see the heart in close up, all the little parts working away, the tech said that you emptied your bladder at some point during the exam because it was full when she first looked and then it was empty when she went to show us. got to see you stretch out and roll over and yawn (that was really cute!) heartbeat was 129 and you measured 2 days ahead of schedule! it makes me feel proactive and like a good mommy to know that i am helping you with this growth and maturation and that things are going so well, you are almost 2 lbs. which is right where you are supposed to be! healthy baby = happy mommy!!
we officially have had play time now! yest. you were being really active so i thought i'd try a few things. talking to you, check, you responded; tickling the tummy, check, you responded; tickling the toes (or where they were-ish!), check, you really responded! then when daddy got home you were all over the place at the sound of his voice until he stopped and said hi to you, then you started to settle down, i love this part and so does daddy, you have no idea how great it made him feel to know that you were asleep/quiet until you heard him and then you went nuts until he talked to you! keep up the great work! love always, mommy!
good morning love! so here we are, by tom morning i will be 28 weeks along with you and life sure is interesting! the urge to straighten out the house and full nesting is starting again. i am constantly redecorating in my head trying to figure out the best way to have things set up. yest i bought some drawers for your stuff so i can start getting the clothes sorted out (we have lots and lots more to come, i am not doing it all at once!). your movement seems to be different everyday, some days you drive me nuts with all the little bumps and twitches and other days you are prone to big movements and other days i'm lucky if i feel you more than once or twice all day. you have shown off to daddy a couple times now with big kicks and stuff, but for the most part seem to be a mommy's girl, constantly showing me what you can do but stopping as soon as someone else tries to watch or feel! i have heard in the past just how different the love of a child is from anything else in life and it's so true, that until you actually experience it, you have no clue just how powerful it is. i love you more and more every day, deeper and deeper to the point where i can now see just how parents can give up everything, do anything and exhibit strength beyond human capacity, all for their child. and the fact that i can see it in daddy that he is going through the same transformation just seems to make our relationship even stronger knowing that this is something we are sharing! you truly are special and i hope that not a day goes by in your life that you don't know that at least on some level!
so i had a thought last night that wouldn't come and this morning it dawned on me what was going on. i posted this in the monthly board but wanted to share it with you here, so here it is...
what do you do when you come to the realization that you have finally reached your life's ambition? for as long as i can remember i have wanted to be a stay at home mom with a good man who takes care of us and loves us, and a nice home that's warm and comforting... well this morning it dawned on me that in april when this lo gets here, i will have all of that! it's a little overwhelming to realize that everything that my life has been leading to (my wants in life) have been met and i am left with the feeling of 'now what'. i know that there is a whole lifetime of being a mom and all that, but that's not 'me' that's life, what do you do when you hit that point in your life where you suddenly need to realize a new long term goal/ambition to strive for, just for you, something that you can work towards to have as your own. it's funny but it really does put the whole 'baby' thing into a new perspective, takes away some of the scary parts of being a first time mom, and helps to remind me not to get lost in this new identity. i may be a mom but i am still me the individual, and it's healthy to try and maintain something of an individual persona. i find the prospect of this new phase of life both exciting and scary, and while using this time pregnant to help shift the old me into the new me, trying not to loose some of what is me at the heart of things.
it's funny but every so often your mother can be really deep! lol!! anyway, just wanted to update and tell you how much you are loved and that things are still going well. no constipation, no hemorrhoids, still have morning sickness but it's still sinus related, appetite is still none existent but i am managing to eat healthy for the most part! hip pain is starting more and more, but some days i know it's because you are leaning right on the hip bone at the front! ouch by the way! and the lower back is starting to need some real tlc. you are getting so big that i really look preg now (full on basket ball belly!) and had a stranger on the bus ask when i was due! also had traffic stop for me at a cross walk where no one ever seems to stop! this could get fun! sleep seems to be sporadic, some days it works others it doesn't. must drink min of 2 1/2 liters of water a day to stave off the bulk of symptoms, especially headache, more is better. and i will be going in for the gestational diabetes test some time this week, doc only requested the 2 hour fast which is good, and said there shouldn't be any problems but it's better safe than sorry, which i agree!
well that's enough novel for now! love you always, mom!
so Jade my love here we are. it's almost 30 weeks now and mommy is getting bored!! not that i want you out before your time, that would be bad, but the novelty of being pregnant has definitely worn off! i do however love to feel you moving around and the 'alien tummy' is really cute and always makes me smile (when you shift and the whole tummy moves!) daddy is going full blown daddy mode now, he talks to anyone and everyone about being a dad! he is even starting to get the nesting bug, he is itching to start cleaning the house, every nook and cranny, and his excuse is that it would be nice if we started now cause then i could help out a little more than i will be able to later! we shall see! thoughts are doing their own thing these days and dreams have started to get weird again. symptoms are holding with no change (yay) and next month looks to be pretty busy with appts and stuff. march we are going to leave pretty open just in case. the shower looks to be held third week of feb and aunty fucshia has a big box of stuff coming for you middle of feb too. one thing you will learn about mommy is that i don't do hurry up and wait very well! pregnancy is a nine month non stop hurry up and wait! the only thing really changing is your routine, my size and the amount of love for you that grows with each and everyday! keep growing! love always, mom!
OMG daddy is sooo cute! so, for years and years daddy said he didn't want kids but was going to have one (i'll let him tell you that story) and for years and years he proclaimed that babies are boring and he prefers toddlers. well you have changed his mind just as i predicted!!! you are still in utero and he has found out that you are very interactive and now can't wait to see the facial expressions that go along with all the movement!! it started about three days ago now, you have started getting really active around 5:30 pm which is either supper time or when daddy and i just veg out on the couch together. you started kicking and rolling and daddy saw you moving out of the corner of his eye and was instantly enthralled! then i showed him that if i move my hand around or put slight pressure in one spot or another you would react! well! he lifted my shirt so he could watch and then started to play with you himself! tickle the feet, talking to you, shadow play and you played with him for a solid half hour! then you did it again yest! he is so happy that you are responding to him too now! you aren't even out yet and i think it's official that you have daddy wrapped around your little finger!
it's now the end of jan and that means that we have about two months to get everything ready for you, i can't wait but at the same time i am getting little anxiety attacks (good ones though) about your arrival. my tummy progressively gets bigger and bigger all the time now and i no longer wonder if i will ever 'look' pregnant as... i do now!! hips are starting to hurt more and more, especially at night and the heartburn is getting really bad, especially at night, although i think it may be the prenatals, will have to play with when i take them and see if it makes a difference. right now i take them at night. things are shaping up nicely for your arrival, finances are working themselves out and by the time you get here things should all be in order, you have very good timing with all that so far, crossing fingers that it stays that way! i can't wait to go shopping for the remainder of items, but have promised to wait till after the shower which should be in about three weeks. daddy and i are starting to talk seriously about the furniture situation and are both getting antsy to start, will probably be doing that soon just to get something done! love you always, mom!
had hospital tour last night, WOW! it was great! over half the things on my starter birth plan are hospital procedure anyway! i love that at the beginning of the ward is a board with all the nurses names and pictures so it will be easy to go 'that one' if we want to remember a name! they are all private rooms and if there is a crowding issue then we can get bumped to a theme room on the c-sec recovery floor (otherwise $125 for that). everything is in one room, from start to finish and they don't have a nursery so babe will be with us the whole time. there's a cot in the room for 'coach' to stay, and they assess babe on mom's chest and encourage breastfeeding asap. vaginal stay is 24hours, c-sec is 72, if there is a problem you both get shipped out to another hospital though. the beds do 'break down' but there is also squatting bars available (not sure if they will allow use for delivery but they are there for labour anyway) the nurses all seemed really nice and they use cloth diapers to start with!! so we will get to have some experience with that! i am soo grateful that we have people who are willing to schlep my butt all the way out there (okay 15 min but it's outside the city and the regular bus routes!) so that i can go to this hospital!!! it seems that the hospital is set up to be very pro natural birth and mother's choice!!
today is another ob appt, i will update when i get home just wanted to share this before i forget, *** ALSO need to remember to add that i want the vit K and that stuff after breastfeeding, they said that it's not unusual and they seem to prefer it that way but to mention it if this is what we want. it allows you to feed without being poked and prodded and having goop in your eyes first! k, love you! mom!
good morning my darling little Jade monkey! okay so yest sucked and daddy says to that you need to stop having bad dreams and making mommy cry for no reason! although at least one of the times yest was for good reason. i want you to hear me and hear me good, you are not the only person on the planet and you need to be courteous to others around you. if you can see that you are in better condition than someone else and you can do something to make their life a little nicer if even for a little while, please do it. on the bus yest i cried all the way home because i am getting very big with you and uncomfortable and no one on the bus moved, i got bumped into and when i was crying the last 20 min of the ride no one even asked if i was okay and when i got to my stop i had to ask the large man to move so i could get off even though i know he saw me pull the cord to get off at the next stop. if even one person had offered to move, or even asked if i was okay, it would have made all the difference in the world to me. always remember that it's not the big things that we do in the life that move the world and cause change, it's the little things, and they go a long way. okay mommy rant over!
it seems that i forgot to mention just how strong you are getting! the other night you woke daddy up twice by rolling over and shaking the whole bed! when he felt to see if things were okay (he wasn't sure it was you) you were kicking and rolling and having a great ol' time! me, i slept through both times! and yest daddy was sitting on the floor talking to you (i was on the couch) and he got to watch you moving and kicking and i loved watching his eyes, big and wondrous and fixated on every little bump and movement that you caused! you have no idea how tightly you have him wrapped around that little finger of yours already! i can't wait to see the two of you together once your out here in the big world. it reminds me so much of my relationship with my dad, how i idolized him and respected him and knew that no matter what happened in life, he would be there to love me. just remember, as i know i have said before! with the little finger wrap comes great responsibility. know when to use it and when not to and always show respect for the man who would give up his world for you! okay, okay, you have me wrapped around there a little too! LOL! love always, mom!