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    To my child . . . . .

    Just for this morning . . . . .
    I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying.
    Just for this morning . . . . .
    I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.

    Just for this morning . . . . .
    I am going to step over the laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.

    Just for this morning . . . . .
    I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.

    Just for this afternoon . . . . .
    I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.

    Just for this afternoon . . . . .
    I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.

    Just for this afternoon . . . . .
    I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.

    Just for this afternoon . . . . .
    I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.

    Just for this afternoon . . . . .
    I will take us to Mc Donald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

    Just for this evening . . . . .
    I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.

    Just for this evening . . . . .
    I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.

    Just for this evening . . . . .
    I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.

    Just for this evening . . . . .
    I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.

    Just for this evening . . . .
    When I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given. I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting
    their children's graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside they can't handle it anymore.

    And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.

    It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day .............

    Please pass this on to other mothers and fathers. We get so involved in our daily routines that we tend to forget what great gifts our children REALLY ARE.

    We never know if God is going to give us one more day.

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    I found this on the Feb 07 birth board, and it just struck a chord with me. After all the losses DH and I have been through, I really hope we always remember what the goal was, and cherish our baby, every day.

    I had to put it in my journal because I am a classic for seeing stuff and saying "That's great!", but then five days later I've totally forgotten about it. I actually think I may have this framed and put in the nursery. Yeah, I think that is a very cool idea!

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    Dusting and mopping can wait for tomorrow-
    For babies grow up we've learned to our sorrow.
    So dust take a vacation, cobwebs go to sleep
    I am rocking my baby, and babies don't keep.


    Here's another poem, I love these!

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    MOVEMENT!!! Last night, I definitely felt the baby move for the very first time!! I was using the doppler, and I kept hearing the swooshing sounds that they say are the baby moving. I wondered if I would be able to feel the baby on any of them, so I let it sit on my belly for a few minutes. And pretty soon, I heard a swoosh and at the same time, I felt a little push on the inside of my belly!!! I have actually been feeling these movements for a while, but I wasn't sure they were baby. Now I know, and every time I feel it I fall deeper in love!!!

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    Talked to my mom today, she wants to get me a moses basket. I haven't decided if I want one or not, but the nursery set I have picked out for a girl comes has a moses basket.

    We'll see, I'm not sure I want one just yet. Other than that, everything is going great. Two more weeks and we can find out the gender!! And then my sister is coming to visit the weekend afterwards, which will be fun because we can go shopping and work on my registry!

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    Okay, last night, DH and I had a horrible evening. First of all, let me just say that DH and I don't "fight". One of the reasons I was so attracted to him is because he is very level headed and doesn't get upset and argue. Coming from my hot-blooded Italian family, this was such a welcome change of pace. When stuff does get serious, we sit down, talk through it, and work on finding some type of resolution. And we have been together for over six years, so I don't think this is a "phase".

    But last night was a different story. And, worst of all, it was my fault. We both got help up at work, and got home late, so our plans for the evening were wiped out. And then DH had been on the road all day and had not eaten since breakfast. So his main concern was getting something to eat, and my big focus was getting the grocery shopping done, because I hadn't got it done over the weekend.

    Well, with getting the grocery list together, him not eating because he felt obligated to come with me (I told him to stay home and eat) we started getting short with each other. It wasn't anything big, but we weren't being very friendly to each other.

    By the time we got home, he finally ate, and I started to do a couple of chores around the house, I was livid!! I just kept coming up with little things that he had done or said that were driving me crazy. And in my head I knew how unreasonable I was being, but my emotions were just getting away from me. One of the things that upset me the most? He put the spatulas in the container on the counter instead of in the drawer where I wanted them!

    How ridiculous is that?! So I am silently storming around the house, shooting dirty looks at my DH, and he doesn't even understand what is happening. He finally asks me to start talking about it, and we do. Even though I feel even more silly telling him all the little things that I am so upset about. At least the talking calmed me down, but I was still frustrated and not in a good mood.

    I don't know if this is pregnancy hormones, but I didn't even feel like you myself. I really hope tonight is a little bit more smooth for the two of us.

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    Things have been going much better with DH and I. In fact, DH felt the baby kicking Sunday night! It was so cool, we couldn't stop smiling at each other. And Friday, we are going for our gender u/s. I am so excited to find out what the baby is, and start getting some work done on the nursery.

    Then my sister is coming into town next weekend, so that will be fun. We can start shopping for the baby for real! No more window shopping!

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    We had our gender u/s today, and it was amazing!! As sson as the tech put the wand on my stomach, you could see the baby moving all around. And she spent a ton of time measuring all of the parts fo the baby. Everything measures perfectly. And finally at the end, she told us!!

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    GIRL!!

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    It is so amazing how great this pregnancy feels!! I wasn't sure I would ever have that optimistic, gleefull anticipation that I had with my first pregnancy, but, I do! Not everyday, I still worry, but we have made it so far. Our baby girl is here and growing stronger every day. And come July, we will be able to hold her in our arms!!

    My FIL called and told my DH that this little girl will have a pony when she is ready! (they do horses) As big of a sucker as my DH is going to be, his dad is going to be even worse. And we have picked out her name, which is so great, I love talking to her and calling her by name. We aren't telling anybody the name until she is introduced on her birthday!

    One conversation DH and I had was a little bit difficult. When we had the genetic counseling, we were told there may be a chance that we can't have boys. My mother only had girls, her mother only had girls, and there is a genetic trait that I could be carrying. We only know for sure that one of our angels was a boy... but it makes us curious. What is really difficult is when I think about having more children. I worry that I would have to go through more losses to have another healthy pregnancy. It is such a scary prospect.

    But the most important thing right now is to worry about the little girl inside of me right now! She is healthy and I want to do everything I can to try and help her grow strong.

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    Yesterday I had a scare when I fell on the ice heading out to my car in the morning. I didn't fall that hard, and was going to let it be, but then I talked to DH and we decided I should just call the dr and let them know. We were both surprised when they had me go to L&D. After getting monitored for two hours, blood work, and another level II u/s (yeah!), she is perfect still! Everything is fine, and they said that it really takes a pretty big abdominal impact to cause any harm.

    But I did get to see our precious little girl again, she is so cute! And is she ever active, I don't think we will get much rest once she is here! My youngest sister is coming into town this weekend, so it will be fun doing so baby shopping together. Oh, and I have popped!! I am getting big... There is another girl I work with who is a week ahead of me, and she is barely showing compared to me. I have gained just over 10 lbs, so I'm not gaining too much weight, but I feel huge.....

    But I promised myself I wouldn't spend my pregnancy worrying about weight or size if I was healthy, so I have to let it go.

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    My younger sister came to visit me this past weekend. We had a good time. On saturday, I ordered the furniture for the nursery!!! It is so exciting that in just a few weeks, we will have all of her furniture in the nursery! It was fun too because we spent some time looking at the girl's clothes.....they are all so cute!!!

    You know, I really have a hard time with my family sometimes. First of all, there is my older sister. She and I have had some issues ever since I found out I was pregnant. I didn't want to travel during the first few months, so I did not go down to TX while my mom was having cancer treatments. My other sisters were there, but I just didn't feel like I could. And because I was nervous, I didn't tell anybody it was because I was pg. Well, she got really mad at me, felt like I was being selfish, rude, whatever. . My mom ended up doing great, though, and I tried to do as much as I could even though I was far away. (I did tell my mom I was pg, but asked her to not tell anybody else) Well, I am pretty sure that my mom did tell my sister...... . So come Christmas time, when we called everybody and made the announcement, all my sister had to say was "oh". I had to explain myself to her and explain my dr's orders, etc. It was not very supportive, and her comment was "I still don't understand why you couldn't come, but whatever". It is so frustrating to have to explain to somebody how paralyzing the fear is that comes with a pregnancy after a loss. And the fact that I bled through most of my first trimester....she just doesn't understand.

    Well, during this time she also changed her cell phone number and moved, and she did not tell me the new address or number. So last week when we found out the sex, I didn't have a way to contact her. I sent her an email, but I wasn't even sure that it was the right email address. So my little sister comes to visit this weekend, and we start to talk about it. Ends up, AM (my older sister) called my little sister and complained about the fact that I hadn't called her. Even though pretty much everybody else in my family was calling me to find out......... I didn't call them. But AM told my little sister that I was being selfish and I didn't want to share anything with this pregnancy with her WTF? Who even says that? But by now, I am fed up with her. I got her new phone number and left her a message, she still hasn't called back a week later. Why is this so hard?


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