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    Food journal


    Small handful of almonds
    Small handful of trail mix -both eaten while making breakfast because i was so hungry
    3/4 of a Cheesy Fritatta
    Ingredients: 2 eggs, chopped onions, zucchini, tomatoes, fresh basil, nature's seasons, cottage cheese, ff half and half, mixed shredded cheese on top.

    Falafel pita- it was huge, I ate about 3/4 of it. It had falafels, lettuce, sprouts, cucumbers, mushrooms & Tzaziki sauce.
    Pretzel sticks
    1/2 (8oz) vitamin water - I was dying of thirst and waiting for water to filter.

    A few bites of salad, but something about it started to make me nauseous so I stopped eating it.
    Chocolate Smoothie
    Ingredients- frozen banana, 1 large handful of raw almonds, 1tbsp raw carob powder, 1 tbsp cocoa nibs, 1 cup rice milk, flax seeds, 1 tsp spirulina, 2 tsp raw coconut oil, 2 tsp tahini. I had about 8oz of it.
    Snacked on pretzel sticks and trail mix.

    About 2-3oz of unsweetend cranberry juice diluted with about 12oz water


    1 Banana sliced and sprinkled with about 1/2 cup of cold cereal
    Rice milk

    1/2 PB&Banana sandwich drizzled w/raw honey
    1/3 cup grapes
    1/3 cup trail mix
    Pretzel sticks.... okay I'm starting to see a trend here. I'm waiting too long to eat, then snacking on carbs while preparing my food because I'm hungry.

    1 slice meatloaf
    Mashed potatoes

    O.J. with Green Miracle powder

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    Oops! I forgot my roar for the day. This is a high and lofty goal, but in the Tahoe summer ladies study, we're doing the Excellent Wife book and study guide. This verse popped into my head when DH was looking sad after feeling baby kick tonight.

    Who can find a virtuous wife?
    For her worth is far above rubies. Proverbs 31:10

    The footnote says virtuous means- literally a wife of valor, in the sense of all forms of excellence.

    I looked up valor in Webster's dictionary and it said- boldness or determination in facing danger.

    I think there are times when he needs me to be brave for him too.

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    Food Journal-

    1 Scrambled Egg
    2 Blueberry Pecan pancakes w/ syrup on the side to dip
    O.J. w/ Green Miracle powder

    1 Apple
    1 Tortilla - I don't know, I just wanted some bread with my lunch but didn't have any
    While heating up lunch I snacked on corn chips and trail mix.

    Indian Lentils and Rice:
    Brown rice
    olive oil
    chicken broth
    garlic powder
    a dollop of plain f/f yogurt on top
    salad-baby greens
    baby carrots

    6/13/07 Wed

    A handful of raw almonds
    1/2 a grapefruit

    Turkey sandwich with
    lettuce avocado
    white cheddar popcorn
    fruit salad-
    grapes cantaloup

    Shanghai Grilled Tofu:
    low sodium soy sauce
    vegetable oil
    white vinegar
    salt & pepper
    Brown rice

    6/14/07 Thursday

    A handful of raw almonds

    Blueberry smoothie:
    frozen banana
    coconut oil
    flax seeds
    raw almonds
    rice milk

    Leftover Lentils and Rice in a burrito
    Corn Tortilla Chips
    O.J. w/ Green Miracle powder

    choc chip cookie

    Pasta primavera:
    pasta shells
    lightly steamed broccoli & carrots
    diced orange bell pepper
    diced red onion
    canned corn
    olive oil
    chopped provalone cheese
    Green Salad

    Choc Chip Cookie - I know I'm bad. We baked a batch.

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    6/15/07 Friday

    A handful of raw almonds
    1/2 Grapefruit

    Scrambled Egg Burrito (I got hungry again)

    Lentil and Rice Burrito
    Baby Carrots
    Choc Chip Cookie

    Hungarian Hamburger Steaks:
    Cole Slaw
    Baby Carrots

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    Whew! Made it through the IL visit w/o too much trouble. MIL did ask more than once if LS says the baby is okay.

    FIL got sick with the stomach flu yesterday so I hope we don't get it. I've been taking a GSE/echinacea blend so hopefully that'll keep it away, but Elijah was the one hugged and kissed the most by FIL and echinacea will do him no good and he can't swallow a capsule and there's no way he'll take GSE liquid. Heck, I don't know if I could swallow that stuff right now, it's so nasty.

    Since FIL got sick, they left early this morning w/o calling us. I hope they made it home w/o too many problems. I also forgot to give MIL the flyer to the hospice grandparents' support group in IL's area. I was hoping MIL would learn something about grief and how not to add to your children's burdens if she 'd just go to it. Maybe I'll email her about it. I don't know.

    I also got stuck sitting with her at lunch on Sat. I told her about the 2 girls in this area who were paralyzed by the cervical cancer vaccine. I hope she got it and told SIL to protect her DD against the shot. All you can do is pass along the info. They have to decide.

    Well, here's my food journal for sat. It was not a good day for eating since the ILs were coming and we had to rush around and all that.

    Food Journal
    6/16/07 Saturday

    A handful of raw almonds

    A handful of grapes

    Falafel pita w/ Tzaziki sauce
    Small Bag of baked Lay's
    Diluted lemonade

    Chinese food
    Paper wrapped chicken
    Wonton soup
    fried rice
    mongolian beef
    orange chicken
    Chicken chowmein

    This was a family-style meal so I didn't serve myself a whole lot. No seconds.

    So I'm glad we finally have our home back to ourselves.

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    23 weeks 6 days

    Not much new to add I was just up early and wanted to make an entry.

    I survived jury duty yesterday. Thankfully I was dismissed as one of the 10 lucky ones who didn't have to serve. Unfortunately, all the sitting and stress caused a sciatica problem. I forgot to spray my muscle stuff on last night before going to bed so I'm still in lots of pain this morning. That was just silly of me!

    I did end up emailing MIL about her questions on the weekend. I reminded her about the support group meeting but she ignored me again. I do hope I got through with her on reinforcing the facts about home birth and that the hospital and EMS workers were at fault for Peter's death, not LS.

    Peter's birthday is tomorrow and I'm actually feeling okay about it at the moment. Since LS is wanting to come to the cemetery with us tomorrow, I'll probably be okay till tomorrow night.

    I read a very interesting chapter in Elisabeth Elliot's book A Path Through Suffering-
    "Open hands should characterize the soul's attitude toward God- open to receive what He wants to give, open to give back what He wants to take. Acceptance of the will of God means relinquishment of our own. If our hands are full of our own plans, there isn't room to receive His...."

    Wow, that's startling, isn't it? We've got to be willing to give (Peter) or take (accusation, investigation) anything He puts in our hands so He can mature and shape us. That's a hard pill to swallow. But He didn't ask us to go through anything He hasn't gone through himself, has He? Elisabeth Elliot quoted Hebrews 2:14-18. But in reading it, the whole chapter applies-

    THEREFORE we must give the more earnest heed to the things we have heard, lest we drift away.

    For if the word spoken through angels proved steadfast, and every transgression and disobedience received a just reward,

    how shall we escape if we neglect so great a salvation, which at the first began to be spoken by the Lord, and was confirmed to us by those who heard Him,

    God also bearing witness both with signs and wonders, with various miracles, and gifts of the Holy Spirit, according to His own will?

    For He has not put the world to come, of which we speak, in subjection to angels.

    But one testified in a certain place, saying:

    "What is man that You are mindful of him,
    Or the son of man that You take care of him?

    You have made him a little lower than the angels;
    You have crowned him with glory and honor,
    And set him over the works of Your hands.

    You have put all things in subjection under his feet."

    For in that He put all in subjection under him, He left nothing that is not put under him. But now we do not yet see all things put under him.

    But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels, for the suffering of death crowned with glory and honor, that He, by the grace of God, might taste death for everyone.

    For it was fitting for Him, for whom are all things and by whom are all things, in bringing many sons to glory, to make the captain of their salvation perfect through sufferings.

    For both He who sanctifies and those who are being sanctified are all of one, for which reason He is not ashamed to call them brethren,


    "I will declare Your name to My brethren;
    In the midst of the assembly I will sing praise to You."

    And again:

    "I will put My trust in Him."

    And again:

    "Here am I and the children whom God has given Me."

    Inasmuch then as the children have partaken of flesh and blood, He Himself likewise shared in the same, that through death He might destroy him who had the power of death, that is, the devil,

    and release those who through fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage.

    For indeed He does not give aid to angels, but He does give aid to the seed of Abraham.

    Therefore, in all things He had to be made like His brethren, that He might be a merciful and faithful High Priest in things pertaining to God, to make propitiation for the sins of the people.

    For in that He Himself has suffered, being tempted, He is able to aid those who are tempted.

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    28 weeks 4 days

    Yet another month has gone by.

    I'd started to fear that I was having twins. Having 2 babies would have been a blessing of course, but the birth would have been so stressful for us! The thought just kept popping into my head- what if there are two of them in there? This is quite an active baby that moves around a lot, poking me in different spots and then moving and poking me again. Then when my sister visited a few weeks ago, she asked me if I was having twins. She joked- one for me and one for her. Then a woman from ladies' study asked if she could pray for me and the baby. Needing all the prayer I can get, I said 'yes!'. She prayed and kept saying things about me that were true, but what's wierd is I don't know her! I just met her that day. Then afterward she asked if we have twins in our family and i said no.

    After measuring me at my appt today, LS said we're not having twins. I measured 28 weeks exactly. So there was both dissapointment and relief.

    I did have ketones in my urine though, so that was bad. My guess is it's because I'm dehydrated. The girls had VBS last week and it was hectic and stressful constantly running around all week. I didn't get enough water and it's been soooo hot. That wouldn't be so bad if we had central air, but we don't. In fact I'm feeling quite dry right now so I'm off to get some water as soon as I'm done here.

    My blood sugar was good this morning- 94

    My iron was high, but since LS only tested my iron for the first time last month, she said it was something to keep an eye on, but not as alarming as we had originally thought. She was going to send me in for another liver panel, just like last time with Peter, but once she realized it had only been a month since the last iron test, she said we'd keep an eye on it but no need to send me out for testing. I'll just have to go back in 2 weeks for the blood sugar test and iron test. We can do both of these at her house.

    Baby's HR was 147. I believe last month it was 140.

    Baby is completely sideways with his/her head pointed to my left, butt and legs on my right and facing down.

    I do have to keep watching my diet. LS told me I have to drink water only or unsweetened herbal tea like red raspberry leaf. No juices or other sweetened beverages whatsoever. That means I've got to choke down my green powder in water! I hope I can survive. Last time I tried that I threw up.

    Well, I should go. LS said the best thing for me to do is exercise, so I think I'm going to do my prenatal belly dancing video. Looks funny, but hey, it gets me moving and it's not too hard to do.

    Oh, I forgot to say I started taking swim lessons and water exercise classes at the swim center. I think I'm going to stop the swim lessons. The kid that teaches them is nice and all, but he pushes me too hard. I'm not sure, but I don't think he realizes I'm pregnant. I guess I should have told him, huh? I figured anyone would be able to tell by now. Guess I'm fatter than I think I am and the kid is too polite to come out and ask me straight out. Anyway, It'll cost me less to swim laps and now that I've got the breathing part down okay I can just do it at my own pace or I could just use a kickboard. The exercise classes, however are lots of fun so I'm going to keep doing those. I feel so good afterward and my legs aren't killing me like they do after a short exercise video here at home.

    Off to drink my water!

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    28 weeks 5 days

    Just a quick check in. I ended up not doing my belly dance DVD last night. Time got away from me and DH and the girls came home. I don't like to do it when they're here because the girls just sit and stare at me and DH usually giggles and mimics me when I'm doing a new workout. I'm too self concious to endure that so I'd rather wait till they're out of the house. DS is too little. He just tries to work out with me or stands in front of me and counts like he's my mini personal trainer. I guess it's never too early to start thinking about a career, huh? I think, even at 3yrs old, he'd make a good one.

    I've had 6 glasses of water today. And I'm thirsty again so I'm going right now to pour myself #s 7&8.

    Okay I'm back. I'll just close by saying my mom ordered me some D-Mannose. It's supposed to get rid of urinary tract infections but the wierd thing is it's a sugar so I'm not sure how well that's gonna work. It says it's safe during pregnancy and for diabetics so it won't mess up my blood sugar. Now I just have to run it by LS. The strange thing is LS hasn't said anything to me at all about a UTI showing up in my urine samples so maybe it's really really mild. I'm not in pain or anything, but my pee smells funny at times. I haven't noticed that it's cloudy anymore so maybe it is getting continually milder. I'd rather have it gone completely though so it doesn't cause any problems. I'm a little freaked out by the chance of going into labor early. I know that's unlikely for me, but....

    Well, DH is home and he brought us some tasty salad and fruit for dinner so I'd better get going.

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    30 weeks even

    Well it's hot today, just like it's been for the past month almost! At least it's only going to hit 92 or so instead of 99 like yesterday. I went to the swim center for an exercise class last night and it felt soooo good to cool off in the pool. It even got a little windy as the sun started to near the mountains but it wasn't so cold I had to rush in and get dressed.

    My heart feels heavy today. The last few days I'd been feeling a bit sad over Peter and now I'm hurting for my friend Kelly. Her beautiful boy's Heaven day was yesterday. I feel so awful that I can't make her feel better. I just want her pain to go away but I know I don't have the power to do that and I feel so helpless about it.

    Well, if I keep talking about it I'm going to get too depressed so I'd better stop.

    I need to go do some schoolwork with the girls. We got some library books that look like they're going to be fun to read.

    Oh! I got my d-mannose yesterday and started taking it. I'm feeling nauseous. I wonder if that's what's causing it or if i'm just having hormone issues again? LS says she thinks I'm going to have an easy birth. I hope she's right. I had my easy birth last time too though, but look what happened. Well, all I can do is keep going. Nothing's going to change tomorrow so no point in worrying about it today.

    Matthew 6:34- "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

    Joshua 1:9- "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."

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    30 weeks 5 days

    Went to see LS yesterday. She went ahead and did a full appt. I guess she was too distracted to remember I was only going to get my finger poked. I was more than okay with that though. I like to know how baby's doing. We got to hear hiccups. it was very cute.

    Baby is currently head down. Just a few minutes ago, baby had hiccups again and I could feel them low and right in the middle instead of against my hip. I hope that means baby is getting comfy in a good position and not off to the side and high like Peter.

    I think she said baby's HR was 158. She didn't say what I was measuring, but my BP is great as usual. Blood glucose was only 76! I wonder if it's because I've been taking Xango? That's supposed to be great for blood sugar. And I've been exercising a lot at the pool. I love the water exercise classes. Wonderful for cooling off in the insane, still heat we'd been having.

    Thankfully it's cooled off over the last couple of days. I actually had to close the sliding door last night and even after covering up with a sheet, 'Lijah and I were still cold. That nutsy boy was freezing, but he hates to be covered up. I got up and went out to the kitchen for some water and was hoping DH would come to bed with me and help warm us up, but he stayed on his beloved couch.

    I've got bunco tonight but I almost don't want to go. I really don't want to see 2 of the regulars. One is so gossipy and the other is so pro-hospital because her DIL works there. I guess I should just ignore them both. It's not my fault the DIL works at one of the crappiest hospitals on the planet. I just wish the 3 crappiest were not all here. We don't have any other choices.

    So that brings me to the news. LS had another death to deal with. 2 in just over a year. Her DH wants her to quit being a MW and he's so angry he won't even talk to her. He thinks she's putting the family through too much stress. I would be so upset if she quit. She's the only hope for someone like me to have a VBAC. Otherwise I'd have to go to one of those awful hospitals. I'd have no other choice but to be sliced open again and probably have another baby with breathing problems and who knows what else?

    Of course, LS is being blamed for the baby's death. Personally, I think everything points to a respiratory therapist blowing the baby's lungs out, but they'll never admit that of course. It's much more convenient (and with much less liability) to put on a witch hunt and blame the midwife. The Drs even started spreading rumors around the valley and the lake that LS has babies that die. How dare they? How dare they use Peter for their own agenda. I'm so angry with them over that. I feel like writing a letter to the editor in the local paper threatening to sue them if they try twisting what really happened to my baby to slander LS. The truth is they don't even know what really happened because all the Drs refuse to talk to LS after a hospital transfer.

    How can these idiots kill and/or injure babies, botch surgeries, lie about it, blame it on LS and get away with it time and time again? I feel like throwing an absolute fit in public but would that do me any good? I don't know. Probably not.

    There are several Psalms about God defending the oppressed. Here's one:

    Psalm 9
    To the Chief Musician. To the tune of "Death of the Son." A Psalm of David.
    I WILL praise You, O LORD, with my whole heart;

    I will tell of all Your marvelous works.

    I will be glad and rejoice in You;
    I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High.

    When my enemies turn back,
    They shall fall and perish at Your presence.

    For You have maintained my right and my cause;
    You sat on the throne judging in righteousness.

    You have rebuked the nations,
    You have destroyed the wicked;
    You have blotted out their name forever and ever.

    O enemy, destructions are finished forever!
    And you have destroyed cities;
    Even their memory has perished.

    But the LORD shall endure forever;
    He has prepared His throne for judgment.

    He shall judge the world in righteousness,
    And He shall administer judgment for the peoples in uprightness.

    The LORD also will be a refuge for the oppressed,
    A refuge in times of trouble.

    And those who know Your name will put their trust in You;
    For You, LORD, have not forsaken those who seek You.

    Sing praises to the LORD, who dwells in Zion!
    Declare His deeds among the people.

    When He avenges blood, He remembers them;
    He does not forget the cry of the humble.

    Have mercy on me, O LORD!
    Consider my trouble from those who hate me,
    You who lift me up from the gates of death,

    That I may tell of all Your praise
    In the gates of the daughter of Zion.
    I will rejoice in Your salvation.

    The nations have sunk down in the pit which they made;
    In the net which they hid, their own foot is caught.

    The LORD is known by the judgment He executes;
    The wicked is snared in the work of his own hands.
    Meditation. Selah

    The wicked shall be turned into hell,
    And all the nations that forget God.

    For the needy shall not always be forgotten;
    The expectation of the poor shall not perish forever.

    Arise, O LORD,
    Do not let man prevail;
    Let the nations be judged in Your sight.

    Put them in fear, O LORD,
    That the nations may know themselves to be but men.

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