It all started August 24, 2004 2 days after my 23 birthday. I was feeling quite pregnant and decided it was time to take a pregnancy test. Seeing as I was a week away from AF I thought my chances of seeing that line then was slim, but with my son I didn't start feeling"pregnant" until about a week after AF was supposed to be there,(but I guess I was acting pregnant because I didn't even noticed I'd missed.) So anyways I went to the Crisis Pregnancy Center because I didn't have the money for a test that probably wasn't going to show up but low and behold a very faint line appeared. I left and went to Meijer and got a package of First Response Early Result tests and went Home and took one and the line was quite a bit darker. I called my "boyfriend" and told him and all he said was wow, but later on he said he was really excited. He's 27 and this is his first. So I found out I was pregnant at 3 weeks LMP which is really early. Now for the scary part.
On the Second of September, I went to the ER with flank pain that felt like my kidney on my left side, but the pain wasn't severe I just didn't want it to become unmanageble, and they gave me a tiny dose of morphine and scheduled me for an ultrsound in the morning. I went to the ultrasound, and instead of being a normal result they found a 1 cm space in my ovary and called me back to the er for a beta test. It came back at 662 and they let me go home after scheduling for another quantitative on friday.
But they scared the crap out of me because they said it could be an ectopic. I was told to call the OB the next day and schedule an appointment after my betas came back. So I spent all day on the phone with the OB's med asst. who kept reassuring me that the DOc didn't believe it was an ectopic, and wanted to see my beta's before progressing further. So I went and had more blood drawn(This was the seventh poke they'd given me.) and I went to my appointment at 2pm... Well the Doc didn't do anything, he just said he reveiwed my US and my betas had come back at 1500 so they were doubling just fine and that unless I was in severe pain I should be alright and I needed to schedule with the other OB's office as soon as my insurance clears.
So now it's been 3 days of ups and downs and lots of surfing for info, and this is what I've come up with. Ectopics happen 2% of the time. Ovarian Ectopics happen in less than 1% of those. And psuedogestational sacs only happen in 20-30% of all ectopics. Some ectopics are asymptomatic. And Corpus Luteum cysts occur in 20% of pregnancies and almost always cause a reaction like the one I had at the ER so I'm hoping it's that, but I'm still so worried.
My 4 year-old son is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I can't wait to be a mom to two wonderful babies. I hope so much that everything works out. I love this baby already. EDD 5/5/05. Crossing my fingers!!! :P[/color]
Mom to Carter 7/05/00 and Hunter 5/02/05
And awaiting a Baby Girl 2/20/07
It's still today, but I wanted to write more. I am so excited and worried at the same time. I'm getting nausea at night time which I didn't have with my son and my boobs actually are tender this time(also not an issuse with my son.) I had a dream that I had a little girl and I knew she was mine and she had long fingers and a precious little wrinkled nose and it was Easter. When I was pregnant with my son, I had a dream about my little boy who was so big it was hard for everyone to believe he was brand new. With hands that looked like mine and a little round face on the fourth of July.(I had the dream in Oct. of 1999, he was born July 5, 2000). Carter looked like my dream when he was born. Maybe (And I'm still praying for my little one to make it to her birthday.) this will be a girl with her daddy's hands and her precious nose. This waiting game is so worth it for the end result.
OK so today I got to see Victor for the first time in about a week. I missed him so much, but with my hormones, I just couldn't wait to get away from him. He's worried about this baby because about five years ago his girlfriend Beth miscarried his child at about 8 weeks, and that date is fast approaching. I was pregnant when Beth miscarried, and I went on to have my son Carter. I felt so bad, and I am really worried about this baby also. This baby is precious no matter how long it lives, but I would love to meet him or her and for Carter to meet him or her.(He wants a boy by the way.) Victor's brother David is also worried and he keeps telling me not to be stressed because"That's what caused Beth to miscarry." I'm a lot calmer this time around, which is ironic beause of the situation. I hope I get through the approval phase of my insurance quickly, because as soon as I get it the doctors want me in there. that's it for now got to go shopping.
I am back. My goodness, so many people on tha april board have had m/c's. It makes me sad and nervous. there was another one today, and I wish that nobody had to go through that. These women seem so brave. I can't even begin to understand what that feels like and yet it brings tears to my eyes. I know they probably look at their other children if they have them like I look at my son and wonder what the tiny life they had carried inside them would look like and act like, they thought about names, they looked at baby stuff at the store in passing and thought about going shopping later on in their pregnancy. I'm sad. Where's their happy ending? Will I get mine? How can I be supportive without being intrusive with women I don't even know? I am not out of the woods yet...
A new day. 6 weeks yay!!!! I actually feel pregnant. I'm hot today, and that's odd. I can't wait to get Carter some fall/winter clothes. He's getting so big. I am getting more excited and nervous everyday. I am a grump though. Blech!! Oh well that's all for now.
O.k. so far so good. My friends in the hospital having her twin girls, and I hope to be there when they're actually born. Carter seems a little more relaxed about the thought of a sibling. He loves to look at the babies in the nursery. Well being pregnant is awesome. Being nauseaus sux!!! Later