It's been a nice (but too short!) weekend. Prelude went fine this morning, except for after the first service. I was nervous and as soon as I finished playing, I started to feel nauseas and crampy and breathless. Thankfully, Al was there and we sat for several minutes in the lobby area while he helped me relax. I think pregnancy and nerves don't go well together. The next two services were much better, since I knew what to expect and was able to force myself to relax while I was playing.
I'm still cramping a lot, but I think I know possibly one of the 'triggers' now. Between ballet and piano, I've always held my stomach in to keep my core strong. I catch myself doing that ALL the time, especially as my belly is starting to really expand. It's such a habit, though, that I am constantly having to tell myself to let it go. I've had to do it three times just typing this paragraph! My guess is that even though my stomach muscles are strong, my uterus probably doesn't like the pressure??
Feeling lazy today. Even though the extra hour of sleep is nice, I really hate daylight savings. It's been dark since before 5pm. That makes me think it's time for bed and I just don't feel like doing any work at all. Al's puttering around in the kitchen, though, so I think I'll join him and scrounge up something for dinner. And relax my stomach.
M/s made a nasty reappearance this morning. I really haven't felt all that wonderful since last night, then my magic breakfast shake came back up this morning. I cried like a baby, I was so disappointed. Now I don't know what to eat in the mornings. I may try the shake one more time, we'll see. It may have just been a fluke.
In other news, I might possibly maybe felt the baby move this morning. I ended up taking the day off from school and Al went in late because I was such a mess. We were laying on our bed and I felt these twitches on the right side of my abdomen. I was afraid to even breathe! I'm not sure that was it, but later, I felt several little flutters more centralized. Actually pretty near where the nurse put the doppler last week at my appt. I'm not convinced that was it, but I wanted to record it for prosperity's sake. Just in case. I can't wait for Al to be able to feel them!
Aside from noticing that I had actually lost a pound yesterday morning, this week has been fairly uneventful in the land of pregnancy. I called my OB (God help her!) and the nurse said it's perfectly fine to fluctuate and that what really matters is that the baby is growing. Apparently they'll start measuring the baby at 20 weeks (my next appointment).
We're having our house exterminated today, so we're staying in a hotel tonight. Yay! I love hotels! This one has an indoor pool and hot tub (which I will only sit in for a few minutes). We're really looking forward to it. Al can't wait to watch cable.
Our big u/s is coming up soon! I'm so excited!!
Still not showing too much, although if my clothes are a little tight people can tell. If I wear a loose shirt, though, no one can tell. It's weird. I feel like I have one of the smallest bellies on my board, but I don't care as long as our baby is okay. There are some advantages to carrying small, too. It's nice to bend over and I can still sit in virtually any position I want (although I can see that sitting with a leg pulled up to my chest is going to be a lost cause pretty soon ).
So now that I'm not sick anymore, I'm determined to find the energy to walk on our treadmill for at least 10-15 minutes a day before I get all achy and really not want to. It's just hard because I work all day, teach lessons at night, and I'm just exhausted. We had a 2 hour choir rehearsal last night and it got out 30 minutes after I usually go to bed! And this was after going pretty hard all day. I was completely wiped out. No way can I exercise in that condition - makes no sense. So I'm hoping for a break in my schedule sometime, somehow. I'll keep working at it...
This is the life!! I'm laying on the most comfortable hotel bed ever with no fewer than four soft pillows behind me and the laptop in my lap and the TV on. I have a cup of decaf next to me and two muffins just waiting for when I get hungry again.
Al had a rehearsal at 8am but is on his way back now. We're going to attempt to DTD for the second time this pregnancy and then go for a swim. What a perfect day! It's amazing how little it takes sometimes.
The best part is we have Monday off school for Veterans Day!! The teachers were all smiles as we were leaving yesterday. Funny, I don't remember my teachers being so excited about breaks, etc., when I was growing up. Although I will say that my classes never had remotely the level of behavior problems that we deal with every day. That's exhausting.
I keep feeling what might be little movements, but I guess it'll just be a while before I know for sure.
I have a heavy heart today. My sister called me last night to tell me that she's divorcing her husband of 17 years. This has been coming for a while, but it still seems like a pretty drastic step to me. Unfortunately, I haven't lived in the same city as my sister since before she even got married, so it's hard to think that her DH is as bad as she makes him out to be. She's also 10 years older than I am, too, so there's always been a big gap between us. Anyway, she has claimed that he is verbally abusive and he made some kind of threat to her on Saturday so she's decided she's had enough. I want to believe her, but my heart tells me that they're both in the wrong and that they can work this out. I'm just not a quickie divorce kind of person. It's one thing if there's unfaithfulness or abuse, but I just don't think this is the case for them.
I'm the only one in my family who thinks David is a good guy. But I was also the only one in my family who *knew* my dad was having an affair, and I was right. It's hard to hear everyone slamming David all the time, and they've been doing it for years. My parents told my sister that the only mistake she's made in this marriage was marrying David in the first place. I can't believe they would say that! No one is perfect and Debbie has made plenty of mistakes. Besides, they're going to be eating their words if she gets back together with him. I value my parents' wisdom, but I really think they're wrong here. They've never liked David and they are blind to Debbie's faults. The reality is that David and Debbie are actually good for each other, but they just get under each other's skin. I really think some counseling would do them some good.
Al and I went to Ruth's Chris last night to celebrate his birthday (one of the best meals I've ever had, too!!) and we talked about our marriage some, too. I can't believe we've been married for 5 1/2 years and still get along so well. Our marriage feels really natural and easy almost all the time. Al joked that God knew how stubborn we both are so He made us really similar so we wouldn't spend our entire lives fighting. He's probably right.
Not much news on the baby front. Still feeling 'things' down there but not convinced they're kicks yet. The sweater I'm wearing today really makes me look pregnant. Most of my students have commented that I'm finally poking out.
Oops, I just realized we forgot to take an 18 week belly shot. I guess we'll just have to wait for 19 weeks at this point, since it's just two days away. Oh well. We've been really good about taking pictures so far.
A butterfly flew across my belly last night! I've never felt anything like it in my life so I'm calling it my first official kick. Or whatever. I was trying to imagine what the baby might be doing to make me feel like that, but I'm stumped.
Darn, the bell just rang. Oh well, that was the big news for the day anyway. Hopefully there'll be more movement to report tomorrow.
We go in for the big u/s in 5 days and I'm so excited! I've been feeling more movements, still light but definitely not my intestines. I'm pretty sure the baby kicked Al twice this morning as I was snuggled next to him before we got up. It was way too light for him to feel, though.
I feel funky and a little 'off' tonight. Whenever I feel weird, I have a mild panic wondering if this is going to be the new 'normal' for me. I really hope not. These past few weeks have felt almost like pre-pg normal and I'm not anxious to feel bad again.
I will say I feel like I'm done growing. We just took my belly shot for the week and I'm HUGE!! We walked to a local restaurant for dinner tonight and I could actually feel the weight of my belly for the first time ever and I'm not thrilled about where this is all leading. I must have been crazy to wish that I was showing!!! If I don't get any bigger, I'll be really happy. And I'm not even to the halfway point yet. That's okay, it'll all be worth it and I hope this just means our little one is healthy and safe and growing.
I managed to sleep almost the entire 6 hour drive here last night, so Al is still sleeping and so is his mom. We didn't get in until almost 3am but then stayed up another hour or so talking. I'm so programmed to get up at 5am, however, that I was up and wide awake at 8am. So I'm just chilling on the computer until everyone else wakes up.
Our u/s yesterday was just amazing, on so many levels. We are having a healthy little girl!! Linda Noelle will be her name and we'll call her Noelle. She's just too cute! We saw all four chambers of the heart, stomach, liver, kidneys, brain. The tech measured her arms and legs and head. They estimate that she weighs 11 oz. It was so amazing! There were three really memorable moments: 1) the well-aimed kick at the wall of the uterus (which I felt!), 2) the shot of her hand moving up to her mouth, and 3) our little acrobat bent in double with her legs over her face. All three of us laughed at that position (see pic below).
I think what might be better than that, though, is that Al is now totally in love with our little girl. He was just amazed at the detail of the u/s and he said after it was over that it was his first 'dad' moment. And now he's being really fussy about me and Noelle [did you take your prenatal yet? Noelle wants a snack , be extra careful on those stairs, you need to have a blueberry shake every day so Noelle will be really smart]. It's really cute. He's going to be such a wonderful dad! I can't wait! He also said that going to the u/s and seeing our baby was the best birthday present ever. My heart melted so many times yesterday. Thank goodness my 'crying' hormones are finally getting under control or I would have been a blubbering idiot all day.
Well, I've been up for over an hour and Noelle and I are getting pretty darn hungry! No one should be hungry (for long) on Thanksgiving!!