I had so wanted to start this journal on Monday (Dec 2) the first day I found out I was pregnant. But sometimes life just doesn't work that way. Especially having two very active little boys to keep me busy!
I took 2 tests on Monday, in the middle of the day, not really expecting them to come out positive. But I was taking Alex to the doctor (our FP, who is also my OB) and wanted to be able to get a progesterone level drawn while there, if I was indeed pg. Well, imagine my shock when I did the test and the line came up quite quickly. Brett keeps telling me "I told you so", seems he "knew" we would get pregnant again quickly. I feel incredibly blessed that we've been able to get pregnant so easily. This is our 4th pregnancy, and the 4th time it happened for us within the first month trying. I thank God for this blessing.
At this stage, I'm still fairly nervous about miscarriage. Even though I've had two successful pg's since my m/c, the worry never goes away. Once I get to about 15-16 weeks (I m/c'd at 14.5wks) I will really feel better. Hey, only 2.5 months to go to get there!! Well, actually I think hearing the heartbeat will help too. And I may ask my doctor for another quick peek, early u/s to check for viability. It really does alot to set my mind at ease.
It was very fun telling Brett. I chose to make a scrapbook page to tell him. So it will be the first page of the new baby's book. When I get the picture taken, I can show it here. Then telling the J2K board was fun. I didn't really announce it, just changed my signature photos to include the edd on it. Amanda (Mick'smom) was the one who posted first about noticing it! I still need to go copy all the nice congratulations wishes from the gals. I want to someday include it in a book for the baby (as well as this journal too.)
It's going to be hard waiting to tell our families. Thank goodness they aren't close by. I got picture frames to tell them with. The frames have 3 slots, so I'll put a picture of Jarod and Alex in two of the slots and some sort of cute wording in the other, like "photo to be added Aug 2003" or something like that. I just can't wait.
Well, I'm 5 weeks today, if you go by LMP, or 4 weeks if you go by when I o'd. I'll talk to my doctor when I have my first appt on the 16th. My edd is Aug 7 by LMP, or Aug 14th by O date. I'll probably just go with the LMP date. I did with both boys and then went late. Didn't bother me.
It's kind of fun/scary to think about having a third baby. Wow! It's gonna be noisy and busy and full of love in my house. Been thinking about names already. I love names. No real ideas yet, but then Alex only had a name about 6 hours before he was born! Right now I like Caitlin Frances for a girl. Caitlin is the Irish form of Catherine. Katherine is my g-g-grandma on my dad's side, and also my sister, so I like the way it ties in. And we could call her Cait or Caitie. If we have another boy, I really have no name ideas yet. We know we'll use a family name as the middle name again. Just not sure which one. I suppose whichever one fits best with the first name we choose.
Physically, I'm feeling pretty good. A little achiness low in my belly, my ligaments are stretching already. But I guess 3rh (4th) time around, my body knows exactly what to do. So far I've felt pretty good. A touch queasy if I don't eat breakfast right away, but nothing terrible. So far my breasts aren't sore like they were with the boys, but maybe that's simply my body being used to the hormones and the stretching and growing. We'll see, it's early yet. My main symptom is fatigue. I'm very tired, sleepy all day long. Of course, having 2 active boys doesn't help, especially since Alex isn't sleeping thru the night right now. Sigh... almost 13 months old and not sleeping thru. Hopefully he will be before Baby gets here.
Well, I guess this is long enough for a first journal entry. I hope to get here often to update and add notes. Of course, in the early stages, there's usually not too much going on. I guess I can see how long it takes to be into maternity stuff. LOL, probably not long as I tend to like to be comfy and regular waisted pants just don't offer that.
Can't wait to meet you in 35-37 weeks little Baby B!!
Here is the link to my ttc journal if anyone is interested in reading it.
Our nurse called me this afternoon, got my progesterone levels back. Doc said that they are "well within normal limits". So it looks like I won't need to do the suppositories this time around. Kind of a relief, as they were messy and quite expensive. I do admit it makes me a tad nervous though. Just gotta keep my fingers crossed and keep praying. I took the last of the hpt's I had left today. It came up super quick and got much darker than the others, so I guess I really am pg. I don't know what it will take for me to completely believe it!
Here is the link to our expectnet pregnancy guess game, if anyone is interested in hazarding a guess.
Oh, how I wish I could have a normal pg, free from the worries of m/c. It would be so nice, not to have to worry about what will happen. Will I end up with a healthy baby? I know I've only had one m/c, and others have had several. But it doesn't take away the worry. Part of that is my worrying nature, I tend to worry alot about some things.
And for some reason, I just still don't completely feel like this is real yet. Sure, maybe it's the fact that of course I'm not showing, don't feel movement yet, and actually don't have too many symptoms.
I'm going to try my best to relax, and enjoy this, my last pregnancy (likely). I really want to treasure it.
I guess maybe after I have my first doctor's appt, that might help. I wonder if the time will go quickly this time or if it will go slow? With Alex it went pretty quick, but Jarod was still quite young and needed lots of attention. Now the boys are pretty good at entertaining themselves, so maybe I have more time to dwell on it.
I am soooooooooo tired right now. Alex slept ok last night, only woke once and went back down quickly. But then the dumb dog kept me awake off and on all night licking her paw. (She sleeps with us!) Ughhhhhhhhh! At least it's the weekend, but we've got a birthday party to go to tomorrow at 11:30 and it takes an hour to get there, so no sleeping in for me. Maybe Sunday. Besides being tired, my bb's have started to be a little more sore, and are already feeling fuller. And still kind of a heavy feeling down low in my belly. Things stretching already?
Ok, guess I've rambled enough for now. I am so looking forward to knowing this baby, know if it's a girl or a boy. I above all else just want a healthy baby.
Only 34w5d to go!! LOL but who's counting? Well, really I'm not counting that much. I just have always liked keeping track of how far along I am. It's especially fun early, when you can read about how baby is developing day by day. That's always so fun.
Well, we told a couple more friends today. It was actually kind of odd they didn't notice, since I was wearing MATERNITY! Yes, already in my maternity stuff. Thing is my regular jeans, even my "fat" ones were too tight around my waist. I could wear them, but it just hurt my belly, I'm really bloated for some reason. Now I do look preggers already, but mostly because I still have this roll of "baby fat" from being pg 3 times in the last 3.5 years. So... I kinda pop out quick, even though it isn't my uterus popping out yet. LOL I don't mind though. I like being pg, and I like the smiles you tend to get while pg. I'm sure I'll get some LOOKS this time around though, what with having 2 young boys already. Oh well, my life not theirs. And just let someone say something to me about "not knowing what birth control is". Grrrrr.
OK, I got off on a tangent. Anyway, we went to Ashley's 3rd bday party today and I was talking with a friend of ours, Heidi. We were talking about having babies, they don't have any yet. She was asking when we were thinking of #3. I answered "soon". And she was like "oh, soon?? how soon?" And I answered, "well, Aug". Grin! Brett hadn't really wanted to break the news so soon, but I couldn't lie to her. Besides, I'm no good at keeping secrets and he knows that. It's a wonder our families don't know yet.
I'm still feeling pretty good, and hoping it continues. Still really tired, of course. BUt got a great night's sleep last night. Alex actually slept thru, and Brett let me sleep in. So I slept from 11-9. Yay! Of course I was up 2-3 times to pee, but I still felt so much better today.
Went shopping tonight to return a couple of things, and picked up a new shirt and pair of pants. I was really bummed, we went to another mall so I could look for more maternity shirts, and this mall was so crummy. We hadn't been there in forever. But the 2 department stores didn't have a maternity section, and their Motherhood store had closed. Sheesh, all I want is a couple of long sleeve t-shirts. I have basically NO long sleeve maternity stuff since I was the biggest PG during the spring and summer.
Guess that's about it for now. I'm going to get ready and go finish decorating the house for Christmas. Yay, I love Christmas lights and decorations. Just wish I'd gotten it up earlier. Oh well!
HO HO HO!! Merry Christmas. Can ya tell I'm in the Christmas spirit now? We finally put up our outside lights today. Yay! They look so neat. We've got icicle lights, but instead of white, they're colored ones. I like to be different. And the house is all decorated, well, as decorated as you can with a 1 year old and 2 year old running around! I feel bad that we don't have the tree "out", but I don't feel like trying to keep Alex from climbing it 24/7. Jarod would be fine, but I know Alex would be into it all the time.
Feeling okay today. A tad bit of nausea. It mostly hit when I walked by the meat/seafood counter at the grocery. Blech! The smell was nasty. Otherwise, still quite tired. But hooray, Alex has slept thru the night the last 2 nights in a row. Wow! Sure hope he does it again tonight.
I have my 1st half OB appt tomorrow, with the nurse. Juleeta is so sweet, should be fun. I'm trying to remember exactly what they do, but I can't. I think she takes a history, takes blood, and that kind of stuff. Then my 1st doc appt is next Mon, the 16th. Kind of hoping he'll do an early u/s. I don't know whether I should ask for one or not. Maybe I'll wait till the next appt, where I'd be about 10 weeks along, then we'd really be able to see something. Wow, I sometimes still can't believe I'm preggo again. This is all so exciting, even though I've done it before.
I can't wait to meet you baby. I can't wait to see who you are. I love you baby!
Well, my first appt (with the nurse) is less than 2 hours away. Don't know why I'm nervous. It's not like anything real exciting will happen. I guess it's just that it's confirmation of things. Wow! I do plan to discuss with her which I should use for my edd, based on LMP or conception day. I'm guessing it will be LMP, that's what they did with both boys, even though I have long cycles.
Well, it's time to go get the boys and I ready to go. I'll update about the appt when I get back.
Back from my appt this morning. I was a little disappointed that it wasn't our regular nurse who was there. Oh well. It was basically what I thought it would be. The vampire took three vials of blood, or 4, I forgot to count. And the only other thing was to take a history. Pretty easy since I'm basically healthy as a horse. And of course I had no questions about pregnancy, since I've been there done that. Now I just wait to go on Mon to the dr visit. For now my edd stays the same, Aug 7. I'll ask him about it at the appt and see if it should be adjusted for O date.
One thing that really makes me mad, we went to the mall today afterwards. Well, I can't wear my regular jeans, I'm already too bloated. Needless to say, I'm in maternity if I can't wear regular pants. Cause I don't have any regular shirts that are long enough to cover the panels on maternity pants! Anyway, I'm pushing the boys along in the double stroller. And these 2 young things, one with a stroller herself, looks at me as I walk past and says "OMG, she's pregnant again!". OMG, can you say I wanted to smack the snide smile right off her face?? How rude! I should've stopped, turned around, and said, "yes, I am pregnant again and we PLANNED it this way!" Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, some people are so rude! I guess I should get used to it, as I'm sure I'll get lots more comments the larger I get. (And yes, for those of you wondering, I do look preggo. I have a tummy pouch from already have 2 boys, and it won't suck in-little muscle control from c/s-so I look about 4 months preggers!)
And heartburn sets in. Ughhh, not already. I hope that is was just the chili I had for dinner. But ughh, I had it ALL night and still have a touch of it now. When I was pg with Alex, I actually went on prescription Zantac, it got so bad. Hope it doesn't this time.
Feeling pretty good. A tad nauseaous here and there. Mostly not too bad. Really tired. And bb's are getting more sore everyday. Looking forward to Monday's appt with the doc. Not that anything much exciting will happen. But it seems to make it more real. I dug out the test sticks last night, just to look at them again. It still doesn't feel quite real.
Is it just hopeful thinking that I've been having feelings of girl? Of course I just want a healthy baby, regardless of gender. But I can't help thinking how nice it would be to have a girl to go with our two sweet boys. Well, time will tell I guess.
5w6d Wow, almost 6 weeks already. The time is kind of going fast. Maybe that's because Christmas is coming soon, and time always goes fast at Christmas.
Have had a touch more nausea lately. Nothing terrible or anything. It was really bad when I went by the meat/seafood counter at the grocery the other day. And then of course not feeling great till I eat something in the morning. I am soooooo tired it's not even funny. Alex didnt' sleep well last night, though it was Jarod who woke us up the first time. Grrr. But dh, saint that he is, got up with Alex and let me stay in bed. I wish I knew why my 13 month old wont' sleep thru the night. It's making this early pg stuff that much harder. I guess that's just what happens when you have older kids. Man, I sure hope I can handle three of them. Sometimes I feel like I won't be able to, but I know once I get past the first 6 months or so, it won't be so bad.
I don't know why, but I'm feeling a bit down. Just feeling blah and like I've not done anything worthwhile. Hopefully this will pass soon. I hate feeling like this.
And feeling it. I felt really crummy when I got up this morning. Ick. I guess maybe I better keep some crackers by the bed or something. I still feel kinda yucky, even after having some breakfast. And oh man I am sooooooooooooo exhausted. I know it's all part and parcel of being pg, but sheesh. I'm already looking forward to the 2nd tri and it's still a ways away.
I can't remember if I wrote about this yesterday, but baby has a name now. Butterbean! That's what I'm calling my sweet lil one. Nowhere near any real names. LOL, probably won't have one till birth. Of course, dh and I haven't even really discussed names yet. But we still have PLENTY of time.
I'm getting so anxious to be able to tell family. Only 1 week till dh's folks will know, when they're here for their visit. I'm hoping to send my dad's gift today, which will announce it. And still 2 weeks from Sat until my mom will know. Arghhh, the waiting is tough. I've never been good at secrets.
I'm done for now. Gotta go sit down and rest. Taking the boys out to Walmart when Alex gets up from his nap. Yuck, but we need milk and diapers, all the good stuff. Oh, at least one good thing, Alex slept thru the night last night. Till 6:20 this morning. Yay!!!!!! Hopeful again for tonight.