On Wednesday we had our second appointment. It was wonderful...the best yet!
We have an 8.5 week baby with a beating heart , clearly visible legs and feet and a big ol' head! It even decided to do a jump for us
Obviously seeing the baby, the heartbeat and the growth were the highlights of the appointment and made it just wonderful, but it was good otherwise, too.
The doctor was so much more understanding and supportive and involved than ever before. When she came in she asked how I was, I said good, Scott said, "I'm nervous. I've never been this nervous for a doctor's appointment and it's not even mine." She went on to say, "I'm nervous too. I thought about you guys first thing this morning because I knew you were coming in. I really hope this is good news for you!"
Then when she inserted the probe and we immediately saw the baby she said, "Well, I think there's good news! Look how big it is and check out that heartbeat! I don't know about you guys, but I'm getting teary hear." I thought that was pretty cool of her. And then, as she was pointing out the legs, spine and head the baby did a kick, which brought me immediately to tears. My baby can MOVE! It was so surreal, so beautiful...just purely amazing.
It was a very happy appointment, and good to finally feel like the doctor is on my side and has some compassion. It's such a simple and basic need to feel like the doctor cares about you personally not just medically, but it's like pulling teeth to find that doctor! I still don't think she gets an "A" in Bedside Manner (Dr. Burke from GA would be so disappointed in her!) but I think she might be in line for "Most Improved."
She and the nurse counted out the heartbeat to be about 130 (I really wish the machine could count it!) and told us to come back in two weeks. I asked if we could hear the heartbeat then and she said probably, but we'll look too "'cause it's fun to look!" No arguements there, I'll look anytime!
I was also given the required Cystic Fibrosis screening information. We talked breifly about it and quickly concluded 1) it wouldn't change our decision to keep the baby and 2) I don't need anything else to worry about so we're not going to do the screening. I'd like to keep this as simple as possible so I don't see the need for the screening at this point.
Now I just need to make it through the next two weeks!
I feel like I am living my life "appointment to appointment" and everything in between is just filler. I have worries already even after seeing our baby just two days ago. My breast tenderness is definitely waning, but it's still there, just not as noticeable. I should probably be thankful for this since some nights they hurt so bad I almost cried, but I just don't want it to mean the beginning of the end. That's always been my first sign, so obviously it's freaking scary!
I woke up this morning to the realization of Double Digits! What a great feeling
Unfortunately I left the camera hooked up to the computer and ON for a week so the awesome lithium batteries I had in my camera for just a short time are now completely shot and I couldn’t take my ten week belly pic this morning! It’s very rare in our house to not have AA batteries of any kind available, but of course, we’re completely out! AAA, C, D, 9-volt…anyone? Just no AA’s. Even the rechargeables were dead! So, I will take the pic tomorrow, which is no big deal, I was just excited about the milestone of today.
I’ve been feeling good during the days this past week or so, but really getting my *** kicked in the evenings. My energy goes way down, my appetite flees and the nausea sets in. I’ve been getting a horribly upsetting taste in my mouth (maybe like metal, which some women complain of??) and altogether dreading the evenings. But I must admit…last night was pretty good! I had energy once I got home from work to help Scott clean my car (finally! It looks so good now!) and I didn’t head straight to the couch once we were done. We went out to grab a bite to eat and although I didn’t eat much, I was very glad not to get that funky taste in my mouth either. Hopefully that is gone for good, but I can’t be so sure as I can sort of feel it coming on now. My stomach is a little rocky, so I think I need to eat. Hopefully that will curb the ill feeling. Now if only the guys at work would get out of the break room so I can eat!
Our next appointment is a week from today, and of course I am in anticipation of it already! Luckily I have a short work week (closed on Friday, thank you to whoever for making Good Friday a Stock Exchange Holiday ) and then this weekend we are going to visit family for Easter. I’m a little nervous about Easter because Scott wants to tell his brother and his brother’s wife that we are pregnant again, which in all reality is fine, I just wish we had our next appointment before then. They are completely supportive and understanding and I do want them to know, I would just be more comfortable if Easter were NEXT weekend, after the appointment!! I also have friends that want to go out drinking, so I’m either going to have to find a way out of that one or decide to break the news to them too. It still seems a little early, so I might just “be sick” that night…and who knows…I could very well be!
I guess it's not really that great of a day (it's gloomy and raining outside and I haven't done anything yet besides sit on the computer), but at least I'm not at work! I have plans to watch a few hours of Baby Story and go to Target and Old Navy. I need to pick up around here, too. I've felt great the last two days so I really don't have an excuse for being a lump on the couch anymore. I feel like I have almost my normal amount of energy back, which is exciting but unnerving too. I don't want to start feeling too good, because then I will panic about the progress of the pregnancy. I know Wednesday and the 11 week appointment will be here before I know it so I just need to relax until then, but I just can't help but wonder. That's just me.
Okay...time to motivate! Start some laundry and pick up the kitchen, shower then shop. No maternity or baby gear...I have to keep remining myself. Of course I'll look, but NO BUYING!! Actually, speaking of buying...I will be buying baby gear on Saturday! My old roommate Val is having a baby girl in July and I just got the shower invite. Unfortunately the shower is May 6, the day we leave for Hawaii, so I won't be able to go. I am also missing my friend Sarah's graduation that day. For our boring lives it's pretty ironic that two important events are happening when we wont be here I'm really bummed about missing both. Val is one girl you would never expect to have a baby. When we lived together she was the first female to graduate the Central Oregon Community College Mechanics program (that's CAR mechanins) and she drove a '57 Chevy truck that she was rebuilding. Her live was "rigs." She also grew up modelling, she is a very beautiful girl. Then she met Tim, my bestfriend's brother. She got in to real estate, traded the Chev for a Lexus and turned in to this surprising girly girl, making trips to the day spa and getting pedicures!! This...from the grease monkey! Now a few years later she is unexpectedly pregnant with Tim's baby. So much has changed for her in the 7 years that I've known her, it's really amazing. She is a strong individual and I know she can do this. I am very excited for her, and I wish I could see her in her perfectly pregnant state. The last time I saw her was at our wedding...Hmmm...she did catch the bouquet...maybe this is all my fault!! And as for Sarah, I am so proud of her for going after and finishing her Master's in Education. School was never easy for her and despite a few road bumps along the way, but she's come through! I couldn't be happier for her, and again, I am sad to miss her graduation. And all for Hawaii! Don't get me wrong, I am excited to go to Hawaii! I've never been and I've always wanted to go, I just didn't plan on it being the same day as some of these other important events! But life goes on, and I will send my love to both of these amazing women on their special days.
The appointment started on the right foot with an entire 30 second wait in the lobby! I couldn't beleive it! I had to look around before I got up to make sure the nurse wasn't calling some other Cathi who was in the waiting room...but, nope, it was me! It was a new nurse today, and she was much more pleasant than "PAM." (Hopefully Pam got the boot!)
After just a short wait the doctor was in the exam room, asking a few quick questions (I mean quick: "Any cramping?" No. "Any bleeding?" No.) and was then returning with the ultrasound machine. I still hadn't been given a sheet or told to undress yet though when she told me we were doing an abdominal! Okay, I thought, cool. But it wasn't that cool!! Of course it was great to see the growing baby and beating heart, but there definition I was hoping for wasn't there. But the doctor was very pleased with what she saw and was quite encouraging, so I was okay with that. After the ultrasound she asked about the progesterone (Yes, I'm still taking it...No, I don't need anymore.) then we started talking about our upcoming trip to Kauai. She was mostly talking to Scott since they have both been there, so I sat on the table and listened, glancing down every so often at my ultrasound picture. She finally told us to come back the day after vacation, and to have fun. On her way out she told me to smile, I should be happy. I said "I'm smiling, I was just listening to you guys talk." Then Scott chimed in..."I know what's wrong, you thought you were going to get a transvaginal ultrasound." I denied it, but the next thing the doctor was saying was, "Do you want one? I'll go get it." I was shocked, but quickly said yes! I was surprised at how NOT busy she was (I normally wait an hour and she rushes in and out!), and commented about it. She said, "Yeah, but I have a woman across the street at the hospital pushing, so if I don't come back you know where I went!" God, she was in a good mood and it was GREAT!
So I undressed and we did the transvaginal ultrasound, and I'll be the first to admit that I was MUCH happier instantaneously! The difference in clarity and detail is amazing, and it was especially cool because she spent time actually looking for and pointing out features of the baby. I don't know what was the coolest, but we got an amazing view of the heart and she was able to point out all four chambers, and we could see great detail in the hands, face, spine, and umbilical cord as well. At one point I mentioned that a hand was moving, and she told me that it was actually wrapped around the umbilical cord, which was making the hand pulse! That was pretty amazing...to think that the umbilical cord is pumping away steadily enough to make a movement in the hand visible on an ultrasound screen. The little one wasn't wriggling around too much, but did give us one good show. We stared in amazement, and I wished it wouldn't end, but I'll tell you this...it was one of the greatest 5 minutes of my life. I was so happy to see my baby growing well , with my husband holding my hand and clearly beaming as much as I was. It was just perfect, and I am so thankful that the doctor provided us the opportunity to have that experience.
Here is a picture of the little one (little is right, he or she is still only 4 cm!). This kid's going to be a ham...already smiling and waving from inside to womb (actually, we were very lucky that he/she was facing directly out the cervix to get this shot!)
In other appointment news, we asked the doctor what days she does deliveries, and we learned that she does them everyday that she is working, and is on-call on Wednesdays, and on-call one weekend every month. She said if she is physically in town, she will come to the labor or delivery of every patient. (She said hopefully it's in the middle of the night so her kids won't know she's gone!)
Since the appointment went well, I think we're finally ready to tell Joe and Brooke, which we didn't do over the Easter weekend. We started to call them last night, but remembered that Joe is out hunting for birds for 10 days or so . I think tonight I might email Brooke the picture and surprise her with that. In fact, I might tell a couple of people that way. It's a little impersonal, I know...but the surprise factor makes up for it. And I won't be seeing these people for awhile, so it totally works.
Alright...I can't believe I'm going to admit this, but I participated in a Taco Bell run at work today! I haven't had Taco Bell in two years...at least. But hey, I'm pregnant!
At 11 and a half weeks I am still totally able to wear all of my regular clothes, but I've been hearing all these women say "The maternity is so much more comfortable" so I decided to see what they were talking about. I tried on a pair of jeans and a pair of shorts, and I left the store with both! They're both no-panel (good for 1st and 2nd trimesters) so they just have the elastic waist in the back and regular front. I must say, they are MUCH MORE comfortable than my regular jeans are right now, even though the elastic in the back still seems a little silly to me! I wore a pair of regular size 8 pants yesterday, and swam in them in every area but the waist, so it's nice to wear the materninty that fit EVERYWHERE like my regular pants, but with a little more room in the waist. It's pretty cool. I never figured I'd be so impressed with maternity clothes, but here I am, marveled by it! I guess I'm just happy that my belly is growing...this is all so new and exciting!
Such an important milestone and I couldn't even bring myself to write about it! Oh well...today is a good day too It's beautiful outside and I'm working with the door open (if you call this working ), just waiting to get off in 4 and a half hours so I can speed home and open my doppler! I just checked the DHL website and supposedly it's sitting on my door step. I can't wait to crack in to it. This morning (or was it last night???can't remember) Scott asked me to wait to try it until he gets home. Poor guy...I just laughed at him! He's been working from 5am till almost dark (7 or 8pm) all week so he can get some things done at work before we leave for Hawaii. So I feel bad that he's been working so much and missing out on spending time together, but there's no way I'll be able to wait. I told him I need to practice using it so when he gets home I can find the heartbeat for him right away. He agreed to that, but I still feel a little bad. It is something I would like for us to experience together, but the anticipation is so built up that it just wont be possible for me to wait. But by the time he gets home I'll be a pro and he'll be able to listen to his baby's heartbeat right away. (Providing that I'm able to find it...oh, I hope I hope I hope I can find it!!)
The last few days I have been living on Light All Beef hot dogs and lounging in my maternity jeans. This is what I do when Scott's not home in the evenings! Terrible I know. I can't believe how GOOD the hot dogs have been. Heated up nice and hot and golden brown on the BBQ with ketchup and mustard...feels like the 4th of July! But I still can't figure out why a pack of hot dogs would come with 10 dogs but a pack of buns only comes with 8. What kind of a rip off is that!!??!!
I need to get off my hot dog kick and start eating some real food. Vegetables still don't sound good to me, which is so odd, but I can eat them if they are cooked and in something, or on a sandwich, but a salad is the last thing I feel like eating. I hope I don't follow in the steps of my mom and sister with GD. I couldn't bear to give up all the carbs I've been eating! I told my sister it would be "very bad for me" if I have GD and she said, "Actually, it would be very good for you!" I know she doesn't WANT me to have it, but she was implying that it wouldn't hurt to ease up on the pasta, bread and rice! I know she's right. Big sis always is!
Okay...so now it's only 4 hours till I'm outta here...
I just got home and cracked in to the doppler, and it is a pure wonder! I found the baby's heartbeat right away (within 10 seconds!) and just listened in joy. After a few moments I counted the rate out and it seems to be between 140 and 150, which makes me purely happy!
I can't wait for Scott to get home...he is going to be so amazed.