What Have I Gotten Myself Into?!

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What Have I Gotten Myself Into?!

Name is Charlene and I am 23 years old. I've been married to my husband for almost 3 years now. We are expecting our first child, a son Jake Logan, 2 days after our 3 year anniversary on July 28.

The pregnancy was unplanned, I had not taken a pill in 3 days, and quickly found myself pregnant. We are very exicted though about our upcoming journey into parenthood.

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December 08, 2005 - 6 weeks 6 days

Holy crap I am pregnant. So many emotions I feel like I am about to explode. More coming soon when I can better form what I want to say.

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December 12, 2005 - 7 weeks 3 days

So this is what went down. Due to a lack of you know what rearing its ugly head and from the urgings of my husband Thursday night I picked up a pregnancy test. So I get home, take the test, and wait for the one pink line that means your not pregnant. But no it had other plans for me, it had two pink lines and there we had it I was pregnant. So many emotions running through me I felt like I would go crazy.

I had gyno visit already scheduled for the next day and I told her what was going on. She sent me to get a blood test and 5 o'clock I knew for certain we were having a baby! And boy have things gotten crazy, I see a huge change in my husband and I am loving it. Heaven forbid I have to open my car door myself. Heaven forbid I have to clean up. Heaven forbid I had any aches and pains. Things are changing in ways I can't even imagine yet. But I am excited and happy but also a little nauseated (but not throwing up thank God!).

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December 16, 2005 - 8 weeks

Monday I got to see the baby that is growing inside of me, she put my due date as July 26. The experience at the doctors office all just seemed so unreal, in fact this whole situation is surreal. There are moments when I don't even feel like I was ever pregnant and then sometimes it hits me very hard that, "Wow! I am having a baby!"

My emotions have been on a crazy and wild roller coaster and I don't feel like I am strapped in. There are moments of so much happiness and moments of so much distraught. I don't know how I am going to feel from one moment to the next. Don't think this means I am not happy to be pregnant because I am very much so. But with all the changes in my body it is expected for my emotions to run wild.

And yesterday my husband and my emotions got the best of me and boy did the tears ever flow. Steven sold one of his guitars surprised me with a dream camera.

I feel totally blessed and I haven't been this happy in ages (despite those pesky ole mood swings).

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December 18, 2005 - 8 weeks 2 days

So Steven and I had planned on keeping the pregnancy a secret until Christmas day. We were going to copy the picture of the ultrasound, put in a picture frame, and give it to our family to open (the "biggest littlest Christmas" present as I put it). But yesterday, the secret was too much to hold onto. The in-laws had come to visit us and we spent most the day out and about and right before they were to leave I brought in my mom, had them all sit down, and we broke the greatest news you could ever give. You could say they were pretty darn shocked (happy of course but very shocked) and I don't think it has fully registered wit them yet. I still don't think its fully registered with me yet.

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December 19, 2005 - 8 weeks 3 days

Today I stocked up on an arsenal of stuff for my fight against nausea. By my side at work I had some saltine crackers, ginger ale, and peppermints to suck on. And I only got nauseous for a little bit! And another thing I am happy about is my moods swings have lessened! (Although the back of my mind keeps trying to remind me that I still have 32 long weeks to go!!).

I need to call the gynecologist and get the number for the obstetrician they suggest to me. I should have called by now but I thought they had told me the obstetrician office would call me. I am thinking though of maybe finding one closet to the hospital I am wanting to give birth at (which is the ever so lovely and nice Presbyterian Hospital Matthews)

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December 27, 2005 - 9 weeks 4 days

Oh my goodness I thought my emotions were leveling out BUT MY EMOTIONS TRICKED ME DAMNIT! But let's not go there.

My Christmas rocked but ended way too soon as it always does. Hope you all had a Merry Christmas, yes you heard me Merry Christmas (screw you, you overly PC people). My unborn child received its first gift from the in-laws. 2 bibs, one that said "I Love My Grandma" and one that said "I Love My Grandpa". It's already begun!

I finally got a call about an appointment with an OB last week and it's tomorrow! So excited (I might, just might, get to hear my babies heartbeat for the first time) and so scared (big baby me don't want no blood taken). I will let you know how it goes.

P.S. We think we have a babies name picked out Casey (can't decided on how to spell first name, lemme know your ideas) Rayne Beaver for a girl and Jake Notsureyet Beaver if it's a boy (and suggestions for a middle name for the boy that sounds good lemme know).

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December 30, 2005 - 10 weeks

Yesterday I had my first OB appointment which went well. The nurse tried seeing if we could hear the baby's heartbeat with a doppler but alas it just wasn't to be. Just to soon to hear with my thick middle. Then we met the only female doctor of the practice who was super friendly and set me at my husband at ease. Being that I am the biggest baby when it comes to giving blood so they sent the phlebotomist aka "blood taker" into the room to take me blood with me laying down. I was a real trooper though as they took 6 vials of blood!. Then she did a pelvis exam with my husband and nurse in the room at the same time, what a part that was. Found out my due date is July 28 instead of on my husband and I's anniversary. My next appointment won't be till the 25th and be then we will definitely be able to hear the heartbeat.

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January 02, 2006 - 10 weeks 3 days

Things haven't been going too well in my life recently, a lot of shit went down this weekend. To say I am a tad bit unhappy would be a gross understatement. And to top it all off I have been feeling really bad lately, especially in the late afternoon/evening. Oh so utterly completely exhausted I've been. A short trip out for about 40 minutes to Wal-Mart and Lowes left me feeling totally drained. I ended up going to bed at 9pm on New Years Eve. No counting down the new year with the ball in Time Square.

Sometimes I swear this baby will be the death of me but I still feel totally blessed. I wouldn't wish this away no matter how much it feels like it is "killing me" because I know it will be so worth it when I finally meet my baby face to face.

I found out if I take a nap for about an hour and 1/2 in the afternoon I feel like I can make it till bed time (which is always early at 9pm). So hopefully that will help me cope better with being tired until everything levels out around the beginning of my second trimester (knock on wood).

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February 10, 2006 - 16 weeks

Long time no see but the only thing I really do online anymore is obsessively look at pregnancy websites and livejournal communities.

So last week or so someone fraudulently used my debit card number online to purchase a 1,500 Dell computer thus putting my husband and I in the negative 600's with our bank around. Then overdraft fees kicked in putting us 1,000 in the negatives.

I seriously advise potential Dell customers to stay away from them! I have worked for them before and I knew how evil they were but I didn't know the extent until this fiasco. They didn't care about helping us fix the problem, they had the gaul to hang up on the lady at our bank who called to try to get somewhere with them. Things were quickly resolved though no thanks to Dell's part!

Two weeks ago I went to my second doctor's visit. They made me drink this lovely sweeter than sweet fruit punch flavored glucose drink to test me for gestational diabetes (a type of diabetes you can get during pregnancy). It went down okay. I chugged it down in a matter of seconds because there was a time limit to drinking it. Later on I wanted to throw it up and I had this major sugar rush as the sugar hit my blood steam. An hour later I took a blood test to see how well my body broke down the sugar. A week later I found that the results came back negative so one less thing to worry about in my pregnancy!

While waiting to get my blood taken the nurse went to find our babies heartbeat with the doppler. She found it quickly and it was at a strong and steady159bpm! It was the first time my husband had heard the heartbeat and he was quite thrilled (and so was I even though it was my second time)!

So things are going well with my pregnancy. I've gained some weight but not enough to show the world that I am pregnancy. And my energy is finally coming back!

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February 16, 2006 - 16 weeks 6 days

I hardly update much because pretty much things with my pregnancy have been going great. No problems have a risen (although I wake up with muscle pain oh joy!) and this pregnancy is pretty much moving along easily. A little too easy, I am just waiting for the "other shoe to drop" as the saying goes. What if I haven't had any complications because it is just setting me up for something big in the future? I tell you I am such a pessimist and worry wart.

So my work place is shutting their doors (we are division of a bigger company but this division isn't getting enough work to stay open) at the very beginning of March, horror! But the upside is they have an at-home-position which would be perfect for someone in my situation. It's only part time but you get paid based on speed and accuracy and I am verifier so I think I can make a decent pay check. I am still going to keep my options open.

Wednesday I went for my 3rd pre-natal check up, it was pretty much your run of the mill visit. I did give up more of my blood to see if I have a chance to be the carrier of a child with downs syndrome. I will know in 2 weeks the results and we will go from there. If they think there is a possibility that the child could have it I might end up getting an Amniocentesis which I really really really prefer not to happen. Oh and in one more month, March 20 to be exact, I get to go get an ultrasound and see what sex the baby is!!!!!!! I can't wait, a month seems so far away.

P.S. My husband and I have gone to the dark side, we bought a . . . .

A/K/A a gas guzzeling SUV. It is considered the family car but technically I like to look at it as my vehicle.

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February 22, 2006 - 17 weeks 5 days

Decided to be brave and show off my pregnant tummy. (See end of entry for photo)

I've been sick since last Friday with a bad cold, it didn't keep my husband and I from going to the beach that weekend though and thankfully the worst of my sickness wasn't until Sunday evening when we were back home. I called my OB Monday and talked to one of the nurses about what medicine is safe to take and thankfully I could take Sudafed and some Robitusm DM. So suffice to say I have been drugged out for most of my sick days.

And boy did my belly seem to grow in a week! I now can barely fit into my tie string pants, I was hoping to wear those for quite some time. I am now left with just 3 pants I can fit in (and they are maternity pants). The downfall of my stomach getting bigger is I wake up with hip pain like every hour in the night and I just can't get comfortable. Oh, what fun it's going to be when I am really showing!

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March 08, 2006 - 19 weeks 5 days

that can't be me?! But I guess alas it is me.

So 2 weeks ago on February 27 I celebrated my 23 years of living. I never imagined when I was "younger" that I would end up married with a kid on the way at this age. It wasn't what I had planned for my life just yet but I wouldn't have it any other way, this all was meant to be. For once I am truely happy with no fear of the happiness leaving me like I usually do when I am at a good place in my life.

The blood test, the one I talked about in the previous entry, came back in only one week and it was negative! Such a relief.

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April 03, 2006 - 23 weeks 3 days

I am now working at home and so far am enjoying it and find myself working more than I thought I would. The motivation to work is still a little hard to gather up. I usually work from 8-11am and 12-3pm four days a week. The money isn't that bad either despite the part time hours.

Last two weekends have been busy. Went to a friend's wedding and to the beautiful Outer Banks.

Then the big question I had so desperately wanted answered was found out 2 weeks ago. Steven and I are expecting a BOY! and his name will be Jacob Logan. View image for ultrasound
I need to scan the picture of him giving us the middle finger during the ultrasound and I wish you could have seen him hiccuping the whole time (must have been that Mountain Dew I drank to give the boy a jolt for the ultrasound).

Boy has he been a very active little baby today kicking mommy dearest in the stomach. It's a weird feeling, I still find it hard to believe that a tiny human being is doing all that weird stuff to my stomach. He's kicks are getting harder, hard enough that I and Steven got to feel it with our hand. It only happened once but I know I can expect to feel it more and more as I get bigger and bigger.

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April 11, 2006 - 23 weeks & 4 days

The past weekend, what once was my room when I was growing up, was turned into what will become my son's room. The old ratty carpet was ripped out and tile was placed down. The god awful pink painted walls (it was not my idea when it was my room, I hate pink) were painted a cheery yellow color. A classic Winnie The Pooh border was added where the wall meets the ceiling. And with much cussing and frustration the crib/changing table was put together by Steven. Now all we need are a few more essentials and the room will be ready for Jake's arrival. To see the complete room just makes this pregnancy seem even more real because even after I've seen the ultrasound, heard his heartbeat, felt him kick me it still just doesn't seem real that I am carrying a new life inside me and that he will be here before I know it.

Oh, and a belly picture of me from last week.

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April 22, 2006 - 25 weeks & 1 day

I was laying on my back on my bed as Jake started kicking the crap out of me. I was watching my stomach and what do I see with my own two eyes? My stomach jump with each swift kick he delivered to my stomach. That's my little soccer player!

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April 26, 2006 - 26 weeks & 5 days

Things are still running pretty smoothly with my pregnancy but there are two things that are bothering me (both dealable though). I am always hungry! I find myself constantly going to the kitchen to fix me up something to eat (occupational hazard of working at home) and I really need to watch my weight! Second is my sleep has left much to be desired. I wake up in the middle of the night and have trouble falling back asleep quickly. And I am in pain! Whatever side I am sleeping on I will have a pain on my hip or back on that side. Which has me worried about how it's all going to be when I get bigger and bigger.

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May 4, 2006 - 27 weeks 6 days

So tomorrow I will be 28 weeks which marks the beginning of my 3rd trimester. Where did the time go? Seems like December, when I found out I was pregnant, happened just yesterday. Only 12 more weeks to go and I don't feel anywhere close to being ready for the new journey I am soon to embark on. Can you ever be truly be ready for your first child?

As I am typing this Jake is kicking me, I swear he knows when I am thinking about him and talking about him and writing about him. His kicks are quite strong when he wants to.

Two weeks ago I went for a doctor appointment. It was a very very very short visit, the wait in the waiting room being longer than anything. She measured my tummy, right on track, and asked me if I had any questions which I never do (any questions I dio want to ask I always draw a big fat blank on). She told me next appointment I would be taking another glucose test (I took one when I was 12 weeks) which I'm fine with unless I find out I have to take the 3 hour one. The 1 hour one wasn't that bad, even the drink, but the drink made my breakfast come up in the back of my throat. My next appointment is in 2 more weeks, the week I turn 30 weeks!!!!

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May 5, 2006 - 28 weeks

Well hello 3rd trimester, I hope you treat me right like the other 2 trimesters!! Although I have a feeling I am going to have a rough 3rd trimester being that the other 2 were pretty much easy. Holy crap I can't believe that I am on the final stretch!!!

Finally got off my toucas and called the maternity center at the hospital I am going to give birth at and schedule a tour of their facilities. They are fixing up a new and expanded maternity ward but alas it won't be ready till fall of this year. Anywho I go for a tour the beginning of next month. I decided while on the phone with them to also schedule for their breastfeeding class which I am taking on July 6.

Found out the past 2 days that 2 of my friends are going to be mothers. One for the first time and another for the 2nd time (she has a 1 year old cute as a button girl). They have a long way to go, I couldn't imagine having to start back at first trimester again.

More and more I find myself start freaking out a little bit that I soon will give birth to my first child. There is so many more things I have to do and buy, I just don't feel like I will ever be ready to be a mom, it can be quite overwhelming.

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May 18, 2006 - 29 weeks & 6 days

Tuesday went to my 29 week appointment. Drank that oh so sweet Fruit Punch tasting glucose drink and found myself burping up that drink all morning. Waited forever to see the damn doctor only to see him for 5 minutes. Then some lady poked me and took my blood, I'm becoming a pro at getting a shot. I won't be going back to the doctor for another 4 weeks unless of course, knock on wood it doesn't happen, I fail the glucose test.

Again took my photo a day early, here is my "30 week belly"

BTW (going to jinx myself though) I have had 3 decent nights of sleep with hardly any pain!

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May 26, 2006 - 31 weeks

31 weeks today, 2 more months to go soon, and I am super excited!

I use to spend hours on the internet looking for pregnancy journals to read because I loved reading other people's journeys to motherhood. Now though I find myself constantly looking for birth stories, makes things a little bit more real. If you know of a place where I can read birth stories I would love to know of them!

I realized I have only seen one of the doctors more than once which I am none to happy about, pretty much going to give birth with a doctor I hardly know. All my fault though for choosing a practice with more than one OB. If I ever get pregnant again I definitely plan on looking into getting a midwife or doula.

I love my husband to death and I find it so freaking cute when he talks to Jake through my belly telling him how much he loves him and can't wait to see him. Steven is going to be a great father, I wouldn't want a baby with anyone else.

30 week belly

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May 26, 2006 - 31 weeks 4 days

My moods they are a swinging, make sure not to get in the way or I might knock you on your ass. Right now, sitting here on my lazy arse, I feel ..... just can't find the right words. Right now, reading mommy blog, had tired me out and made me feel so overwhelmed with the prospect of having a baby. I am not ready for this, I am not ready one bit for what is about to happen in just 2 more months. The mommies all seem to be coping pretty well so why do I feel like I won't be able to cope with the demands a baby brings. I guess it all comes down to change, I don't handle change too well, and I am afraid I won't be able to flow with the changes. But I have to, I have no choice, because I have already fallen for the life that I am holding and nurturing inside of me.

Things will be ok. I just have to keep reminding myself of that. People have been becoming mothers for centuries on end.

BTW HOLY CRAP 2 MORE MONTHS TO GO! Hospital tour of maternity ward this upcoming Sturday.

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June 16, 2006 - 34 weeks

I am still alive and still very much pregnant.

So I am now 34 weeks pregnant! I feel like I have been pregnant forever but at the same time I feel like time has gone by so fast. Tuesday I went to the OB found out I passed my diabetes test and that, that it feels like Jake is heads down (I had such a strong feeling that he was breech), and that I will start seeing the doctor every 2 weeks now!

This Sunday, on Father's Day, we will be celebrating Jake Day. As in I am having a baby shower thrown by my mother-in-law. I have been looking forward to that day for the longest time. I can't wait to see all the cute things Jake gets. Then I am having another baby shower thrown by my mother the beginning of July with my friends.

Had the maternity ward tour 2 weekends ago, it was a surreal moment to see the room I will be giving birth in and then the room I will spend 2 days in. The place is pretty nice and it seems like a good place to have a baby.

The discomforts of pregnancy are really starting to get to me and now I am starting to waddle, I feel so off balance. I never get a good night of sleep, turning over every hour due to hip/thigh pain. My back hurts whenever I am cleaning up the house. I get so exhausted when I am busy busy . Whine whine bitch bitch moan moan I know. I really don't think I should complain because compared to a lot of stories I've heard about other people's pregnancy I am walking on easy street. I really am thankful that pregnancy seems to "suit me" as some people say.

When I am tired, things get too overwhelming, when every bone in my body hurts I think of how truly I am blessed and all of those things fade away leaving only the happy thoughts of my husband (he's been great this entire pregnancy) and the life I am sustaining in me.

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35 weeks 4 days

Tomorrow = 1 more month to go till my little Jakey is here, unless he decides to come early. FREAK OUT!! This pregnancy thing couldn't be more real to me but it still doesn't seem real that the end result of this pregnancy is a little baby boy.

Had a doctor visit today, did the Group B Strep test, they had me do it myself. Jakes heartbeat little bit faster today, 160 versus the usual 150 or so. Express my concerns about some cramping while being active and the pressure on my chest lately, said just Jake crowding my organs and whatnot. Guess I will just have to tough it out. Weekly visits now (next one Thursday on the same day I am taking a breast feeding class).

Had a baby shower two weeks ago thrown by my mother-in-law. Got tons and tons of clothes, bibs, receiving blankets and burp clothes so I am thankful I got quite a bit of money to go to Target and buy all then non-clothing essentials. Having another baby shower thrown by my mom next weekend,, hopefully I will get more than the above mentioned stuff.

Forgot to post my week 34 belly picture, so here it is late.

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37 weeks

Yesterday I went to my 36 week appointment, it was a very rushed visit and I didn't get to ask the few questions I have. It's all my fault though for letting the doctor make me feel like I would be a bother if I too his precious time to ask question, I am paying them for a reason after all. Next week I thankfully won't be seeing that doctor. But otherwise the appointment went well. Jake is heads down and the GBS test came back negative.

Later on that evening my husband and I went to a breastfeeding class held by the hospital. Yes, he came on his own free will, I didn't have to drag him there. He wasn't the only doting husband there with their wife. There is a lot that goes into breastfeeding, those who say it's second nature and that its easy just don't know. It may be second nature for a baby to suckle at the breast but it isn't second nature that the baby gets a good latch onto said breast.

After the class we decided to go to the oh so expensive but oh so worth it Melting Pot. We decided to call that dinner our 3 year wedding anniversary even though it's not until July 26. July 26 being just 2 days away from my due date we felt it too risky to wait till then to celebrate.

Again late with the belly photo, here I am at 36 weeks

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