So this is what went down. Due to a lack of you know what rearing its ugly head and from the urgings of my husband Thursday night I picked up a pregnancy test. So I get home, take the test, and wait for the one pink line that means your not pregnant. But no it had other plans for me, it had two pink lines and there we had it I was pregnant. So many emotions running through me I felt like I would go crazy.
I had gyno visit already scheduled for the next day and I told her what was going on. She sent me to get a blood test and 5 o'clock I knew for certain we were having a baby! And boy have things gotten crazy, I see a huge change in my husband and I am loving it. Heaven forbid I have to open my car door myself. Heaven forbid I have to clean up. Heaven forbid I had any aches and pains. Things are changing in ways I can't even imagine yet. But I am excited and happy but also a little nauseated (but not throwing up thank God!).
Monday I got to see the baby that is growing inside of me, she put my due date as July 26. The experience at the doctors office all just seemed so unreal, in fact this whole situation is surreal. There are moments when I don't even feel like I was ever pregnant and then sometimes it hits me very hard that, "Wow! I am having a baby!"
My emotions have been on a crazy and wild roller coaster and I don't feel like I am strapped in. There are moments of so much happiness and moments of so much distraught. I don't know how I am going to feel from one moment to the next. Don't think this means I am not happy to be pregnant because I am very much so. But with all the changes in my body it is expected for my emotions to run wild.
And yesterday my husband and my emotions got the best of me and boy did the tears ever flow. Steven sold one of his guitars surprised me with a dream camera.
I feel totally blessed and I haven't been this happy in ages (despite those pesky ole mood swings).
So Steven and I had planned on keeping the pregnancy a secret until Christmas day. We were going to copy the picture of the ultrasound, put in a picture frame, and give it to our family to open (the "biggest littlest Christmas" present as I put it). But yesterday, the secret was too much to hold onto. The in-laws had come to visit us and we spent most the day out and about and right before they were to leave I brought in my mom, had them all sit down, and we broke the greatest news you could ever give. You could say they were pretty darn shocked (happy of course but very shocked) and I don't think it has fully registered wit them yet. I still don't think its fully registered with me yet.
Today I stocked up on an arsenal of stuff for my fight against nausea. By my side at work I had some saltine crackers, ginger ale, and peppermints to suck on. And I only got nauseous for a little bit! And another thing I am happy about is my moods swings have lessened! (Although the back of my mind keeps trying to remind me that I still have 32 long weeks to go!!).
I need to call the gynecologist and get the number for the obstetrician they suggest to me. I should have called by now but I thought they had told me the obstetrician office would call me. I am thinking though of maybe finding one closet to the hospital I am wanting to give birth at (which is the ever so lovely and nice Presbyterian Hospital Matthews)
Oh my goodness I thought my emotions were leveling out BUT MY EMOTIONS TRICKED ME DAMNIT! But let's not go there.
My Christmas rocked but ended way too soon as it always does. Hope you all had a Merry Christmas, yes you heard me Merry Christmas (screw you, you overly PC people). My unborn child received its first gift from the in-laws. 2 bibs, one that said "I Love My Grandma" and one that said "I Love My Grandpa". It's already begun!
I finally got a call about an appointment with an OB last week and it's tomorrow! So excited (I might, just might, get to hear my babies heartbeat for the first time) and so scared (big baby me don't want no blood taken). I will let you know how it goes.
P.S. We think we have a babies name picked out Casey (can't decided on how to spell first name, lemme know your ideas) Rayne Beaver for a girl and Jake Notsureyet Beaver if it's a boy (and suggestions for a middle name for the boy that sounds good lemme know).
Yesterday I had my first OB appointment which went well. The nurse tried seeing if we could hear the baby's heartbeat with a doppler but alas it just wasn't to be. Just to soon to hear with my thick middle. Then we met the only female doctor of the practice who was super friendly and set me at my husband at ease. Being that I am the biggest baby when it comes to giving blood so they sent the phlebotomist aka "blood taker" into the room to take me blood with me laying down. I was a real trooper though as they took 6 vials of blood!. Then she did a pelvis exam with my husband and nurse in the room at the same time, what a part that was. Found out my due date is July 28 instead of on my husband and I's anniversary. My next appointment won't be till the 25th and be then we will definitely be able to hear the heartbeat.
Things haven't been going too well in my life recently, a lot of **** went down this weekend. To say I am a tad bit unhappy would be a gross understatement. And to top it all off I have been feeling really bad lately, especially in the late afternoon/evening. Oh so utterly completely exhausted I've been. A short trip out for about 40 minutes to Wal-Mart and Lowes left me feeling totally drained. I ended up going to bed at 9pm on New Years Eve. No counting down the new year with the ball in Time Square.
Sometimes I swear this baby will be the death of me but I still feel totally blessed. I wouldn't wish this away no matter how much it feels like it is "killing me" because I know it will be so worth it when I finally meet my baby face to face.
I found out if I take a nap for about an hour and 1/2 in the afternoon I feel like I can make it till bed time (which is always early at 9pm). So hopefully that will help me cope better with being tired until everything levels out around the beginning of my second trimester (knock on wood).
Long time no see but the only thing I really do online anymore is obsessively look at pregnancy websites and livejournal communities.
So last week or so someone fraudulently used my debit card number online to purchase a 1,500 Dell computer thus putting my husband and I in the negative 600's with our bank around. Then overdraft fees kicked in putting us 1,000 in the negatives.
I seriously advise potential Dell customers to stay away from them! I have worked for them before and I knew how evil they were but I didn't know the extent until this fiasco. They didn't care about helping us fix the problem, they had the gaul to hang up on the lady at our bank who called to try to get somewhere with them. Things were quickly resolved though no thanks to Dell's part!
Two weeks ago I went to my second doctor's visit. They made me drink this lovely sweeter than sweet fruit punch flavored glucose drink to test me for gestational diabetes (a type of diabetes you can get during pregnancy). It went down okay. I chugged it down in a matter of seconds because there was a time limit to drinking it. Later on I wanted to throw it up and I had this major sugar rush as the sugar hit my blood steam. An hour later I took a blood test to see how well my body broke down the sugar. A week later I found that the results came back negative so one less thing to worry about in my pregnancy!
While waiting to get my blood taken the nurse went to find our babies heartbeat with the doppler. She found it quickly and it was at a strong and steady159bpm! It was the first time my husband had heard the heartbeat and he was quite thrilled (and so was I even though it was my second time)!
So things are going well with my pregnancy. I've gained some weight but not enough to show the world that I am pregnancy. And my energy is finally coming back!