HI everyone.... Yes that's what I said when I saw the 2 lines on the pregnancy test...
I will start from the beginning. Steve and I have been married since December 1994, we had Shane in July 1998 and Sydney in March 2000. Wow, perfect family, can we be done now!!! Yes, and we decided we were. Well, I had thought lets not do anything permanent in case I change my mind. I was young (30 when Syd was born) and came from a big family so I always did wonder should I have another!!
Well as my kids got older and I was farther removed from baby and toddlerhood and was starting to understand freedom was coming my way (somewhat!!) I decided nope, no more....!!! And then WHAMMMMO here I am... One silly night of too much alcohol (on DH's part!!) and I am preggo.....
Anyway, 17 weeks today to be exact. I thought about starting a journal, but was soooooo sick for about the first 14-15 weeks, and still somewhat in denial that I just couldn't muster it up. So I will start from here
Although, I do want to share that I had an ultrasound at 11 weeks 5 days, because I was terrified there was more that 1 baby in there and there isn't!! But she took a peek between the legs and detected sort of a stump that she thinks is a penis, but wouldn't say for sure!!!
I had been POSITIVE this was a girl, I still feel that way a bit, and I am not sure how accurate that is at such an early age. Anyway I was hoping a little for a girl, because I have a sister that I am very close to and wanted a sister for my daughter. But of course my main concern is the baby be healthy, and if it's a boy my son will the thrilled!!!! So I have my next ultrasound January 18th and hopefully will find out for sure.
I think this is long enough for today!!! I will fill in more of the blanks later!!!
17 weeks 2 days yippee!! I must say that by the time a third pregnancy arrives, the thrill is gone the novelty has worn off, I am already looking forward to not being pregnant!! That being said, I really do like being pregnant....ok ok I know that doesn't make sense. But I am trying to enjoy it now that I feel better because I know it will be the last time. I have been feeling my baby move around for about 10 days or so, and it makes me a little sad because after this pregnancy I won't ever feel that again.
Ok enough of that. Today is seriously nasty where I live, horrible winds and rain, so I have not left the house! I am still working (hairdresser) 3 days a week, Tues, Thurs and Sat. but it's very hard on my back and legs this time around and I'm trying to limit my hours.
I am counting the days until my ultrasound, 12 now because I just can't wait to know for sure what this baby is, to start thinking of it as a him or her. I see cute stuff in the stores when I am out and I can't buy anything yet
I have to decide if I am going to have the AFP test, my insurance is kinda funky and I have to pay for the majority of all my lab work. Before I had Kaiser so I just took everything they offered. This time I am seriously thinking if I really need it, there's a chance of a false positive which would result in more lab testing... I just don't know. I've always gone through life with the attitude "well THAT won't happen to me" and for the most part it's worked!! I feel the same about this baby, I am sure he/she is fine but is that just arrogance??? Anyway I will try to make up my mind by Monday.
Well, my sweeties are needing a bath, and the dishes are needing to be washed, DH is on the laptop playing poker so must be up to me!
Take Care everyone
Ahhh, Sunday night, kids are in bed, laundry is done, house is picked up, bills are paid, things are looking up...
I only have one gripe, I cannot believe how pregnant I feel... my stomach is tight and heavy, my back is killing me, my ankles are swollen and I still have 22 weeks to go...how will I ever do it.... I guess I must go on, I have no choice!
We had a pretty good weekend, I worked all day yesterday, then stopped to see my parents who live pretty close by. I came home, DH had dinner made (gotta love that) and the kids were in pretty good moods. Just hung out at home today, doing laundry and stuff. Now I am looking forward to crawling into bed with my book...
I still haven't made a decision about the AFP test, I am leaning towards a no. I've read some posts from women who had false positives and most of them went on to have level 2 or 3 ultrasounds, which I am having anyway, so I would think they would see something then if there was something to see. I don't think I would have an amnio even if I did have a bad reading on the test. So anyway I guess I have decided
This baby is really active, the kids are so excited and wish they could feel h/she moving, but it's too soon for them. I love that they are excited though! Shane especially, I think because he's older and really understands there is a little person in there.
Well that's all I can think of, good night all!!
Wow, 18 weeks already. It seems as though as soon as I started to feel better time has just been flying. I am so in love with the second trimester!!! I went to the gym this morning and just ate the most awesome chili cheese dog I have ever had Seriously, my appetite is just out of control and I need to be careful! As I type that I am thinking is there chocolate in the house
Yesterday I worked, that was good, getting out of the house is good for me. Today my good friend is coming to visit with her 2 and 4 year old. She is going to make her homemade macaroni and cheese, YUM.... so I can look forward to dinner. Ok enough about FOOD!!!!
6 more days until the ultrasound, YAY, I can make it I know I can. I just really hope they can get a good crotch shot, how disappointing to be wanting to know and the baby won't show. That actually happened with my daughter, she was laying on her side with the umbilical cord between her legs. All the tech would say is "well you know if it was a boy he'd be showing it off" that was very frustrating. I ended up paying a private clinic $75 bucks to do another one so I could know, I absolutely have no patience for waiting!!!
All and all I feel really good, sleep is coming pretty easily, my kids are so excited about the new baby, and I have just accepted it and decided I can do this and I will. I refuse to be unhappy, yes, it will change my life, but not forever and maybe it's a change I need and just don't know it yet. I am sure this baby will end up being the light of my life and I will wonder what the heck my problem was! I've also decided that having a boy would be just fine as well, my son has mellowed out so much since being in the first grade I am beginning to realize how awesome having a son (or 2) is! He was a difficult toddler, but I can start to see the young man he is going to be and I am so proud already!
Well I think I best hop in the shower and get ready for company, I am going to make a caesar salad and some homeade bread to go with the mac and cheese....
cheers and here's to a great dinner...
Well it's been a while since I've been on, I am having some computer problems. Turns out I didn't have anit-virus software and thought I did, anyway I finally had someone over today to look at it and turns out I need more memory and anti-virus software, and he thinks I may have a virus. YUK!! Anyway I was able to finally get online!
The biggest news is TOMMORROW IS THE DAY!!!! Can you tell I am excited! I am hoping sooooo much this baby will cooperate and show its stuff! I just want to be able to think of it as a he or a she. I went to the gym today with my kids, (no school for the 1st grader) and Shane wanted to climb the climbing wall. Well a very cute young man named Seth helped harness him. Great name! Definitely going with that one if its a boy!! Anyway I am very excited. DH will not be going with me, he is in the middle of building a house right now (he's a contractor) and the house is 35 miles the opposite way of my appt. which is 45 min from our house, so he would basically miss his whole day and he's already behind because of the rain. So my big sister Debbie is going with me, she's very excited to share this, when she had her kids (she's 15 yrs older than I) they didn't have ultrasound available. Anyway DH doesn't want to know the sex, and I think there's a better chance of him finding out if he's there!!!They are also making me see a genetics counselor which I think is a waste of time. Imo I think they should do the ultrasound first and if there is a problem, then they can send me for counseling... Oh well, I just can't wait period I hope I can sleep tonight.
Not much more to report, I am still feeling good, and my appetite seems to of calmed down a bit. I think I am having braxton hicks contractions, I didn't have them with the first 2, or if I did I didn't feel them. But if I over exert myself, I definitely feel my stomach or uterus tighten up, very weird feeling, I almost feel like I can't breathe very well. They don't hurt, thank goodness!! Just my body doing its job!!
Well, I will post again tomorrow after my appt.
OH My Gosh!!! So many good things to report
Yesterday was a great day!!! I had my ultrasound and genetics counseling in the morning. First was the counselor. She was pretty nice, asked a ton of questions about mine and dh's family history. She talked to me again about the AFP test, but I told her I was thinking no. She said I should reconsider, that ultrasound doesn't always pick up things that could be wrong. Since I've gotten a new state funded insurance that will pay for the rest of my pregnancy I was considering it. However, on to the ultrasound!!! I saw my perfect son in all his glory, no mistaking his maleness I wasn't sure how I would react, I felt a twinge of disappointment that lasted about .3 seconds, then I felt relief that I finally knew for sure and could get on with life! The best news of all is that he appears perfect! There were no soft markers for any abnormalities, which really I already knew that, intuition I think. But to hear it from the doctors mouth was so exhilirating! And on to the second best news, he was still measuring big! During my first ultrasound in which I was supposed to be 11 weeks 5 days, he was measuring 10 days bigger, which would of been 13 weeks 5 days, but my doctor didn't change my due date, she said we'd wait until the next ultrasound! Well he was measuring exactly 10 days bigger still. Which means 3 things, first he is growing PERFECTLY!!!! second, I am 10 days further in my pregnancy So yesterday I was supposed to be 18 weeks 6 days, and I find out I am 20 weeks 2 days... YIPPEE!!! That means I am more than halfway there! To a pregnant woman, this is pure bliss! The third is I am too far along for the AFP test, so I don't have to think about that anymore! Only one bad thing about the moving of my due date. My 24 year old niece is getting married June 4th, the day before I am due and both my older kids are in the wedding. My dh was teasing me, he said you'll either be HUGE or need to be wheeled into the wedding. I really just hope I can be there either way!!
Anyway, after the appt. my sis and I went directly to Baby Gap They have lots of their winter stuff on clearance and I bought him a couple of things for next winter at great prices!! I love their stuff! Then we went on to Hardrock Cafe and had an awesome lunch! What a great day! My dh doesn't want to know the sex of this baby so that will be a challenge, mainly referring to him as the baby instead of him!! Hopefully I can do it.
So today I am working in my office, cleaning and getting ready for the daunting task of doing our taxes. I have to get my sub contractor list in order and send out my 1099's before the end of January, so I am working on that today. I am going to take a break this afternoon when I pick up Shane and go to the gym. Exercising really seems to be helping me in so many ways. Gives me more energy, I feel stronger and more toned and it also helps relieve some leg pain I've been having from a new vericose vein that has popped up since I've been pregnant. All and all, I feel great today, God has blessed me with another healthy baby, my family is well and thriving, I feel on top of the world!!!
Oh and how could I forget!! My friend came back to fix my computer, he added 512 megs of ram and anti-virus software. OH MY GOSH, what a difference that has made, my computer is easily twice as fast as it was before. I am sooooo happy about that!!!! Well best get back to work.
wow, 21 weeks today, VERY hard to believe. Seems like just yesterday I was wishing I was double digits so the ms would go away.
Not much new to report. I am very irritable today, especially at dh, he can't seem to do anything right poor guy. Shane and I went to the mall to shop for a birthday present for my girlfriend, we had a good time. He's pretty easy when I just have him, it's the 2 of them together that gets hard to handle, and just think soon I will have 3 of them....
Tomorrow I am taking my girlfriend out to lunch for her birthday, I am looking forward to that. Otherwise not much going on. This baby is pretty active although I am noticeing alot of sleep time, lets just hope that continues I am a little concerned about the 3rd trimester with this one. I have read that the uterus walls thin out with each pregnancy which is why women feel more earlier and also I think why late pregnancy movements from the baby can be so painful. I remember that distinctly with my second pregnancy, the last 6 weeks or so whenever she would move it was just pure agony. I am worried this one will be unbearable, already a few of his movements have stopped me in my tracks.
I also think I'm having many more bh with this pregnancy, it doesn't seem like I have to do much to bring them on. I don't like to complain or whine, but I sure think physically this will be the most challenging of my pregnancies, not sure if it's my age or because it's my 3rd.
Well I am going to browse through Ebay at the maternity clothes...that is so much fun!!!!
Have a great night....
I had some horrible news today. One of the girls that I have worked with at the salon for over 10 years died yesterday. She just got married this last summer and her husband found her on their kitchen floor. It appears that she died from a head injury, but they aren't sure if she fell and hit her head or if something else happened maybe an anurism that was the cause of death and the head injury came after. They are doing an autopsy to try to figure that out. She was only 42 years old and has a wonderful 21 year old son that we all adore. The shock of it all is just overwhelming. Just on Monday she was in the salon holding the brand new baby of a client, she was exhuberant and alive, and now... You just never know.... I feel horrible for her family. I feel so fortunate to have this life inside of me, but at the same time I feel so completely sad.
On to other things... I had a dr's appt today with the NP at the new clinic I just changed to. I hadn't shared before that I was having to change doctors for insurance reasons. I was too upset and didn't want to write it down!!! I really liked my other doctor, but I got a new state funded insurance that will pay for the rest of the pregnancy and delivery but my other doctor was no longer contracted with this program so I had to find a new one. The big bummer was that my other doctor delivers at the brand new hospital that is about 10 miles from my house, I was really looking forward to delivering there. The new doctor I changed to doesn't deliver there, she delivers at a much older hospital 25 miles from my house. UGH.... But when I talked to my sister, she reminded me that I would only be in the hospital for about a day and it is really no big deal, certainly not worth the extra $5000.00 or so this baby would cost if I had stuck with my old insurance and doctor. Anyway, I had my first appt. today and they are super nice and I think I will be in good hands. That was a relief.
I also started back to school today. I am taking drafting and CAD classes at the community college. My husband is a contractor and I want to learn how to draw residential plans for new houses and additions. We have so many people who call looking for a contractor and someone to draw their plans, so we thought we needed to offer that service. And since my husband is not the computer savvy one in the family, I decided to try it. If it works and I am able to make a decent amount of money then I can quit at the salon and work from home drawing on my computer, I am so excited about this prospect I can hardly stand it... To be able to be home for my kids and make money is more than I ever could ask for. School is really fun, I love learning the program and creating. I haven't started the residential part yet, they make you start with basic drafting which is mainly machine parts, but the important thing is I am learning the program.
Wow this is really long!! I will end with the baby is doing wonderfully, I feel him moving around and am getting to know his little routine!! I am in love with him already
Wow, time sure does fly
My daughter and I went to visit my MIL today, she is in a nursing home. Hopefully temporarily, they are trying to rehabilitate her so she can go home. She has ceribal palsy as well as Chrone's disease, poor thing. She's pretty young too, 68 or so I think. Anyway we went to visit her and I gave her a haircut in the bathroom in her room!! That made her day, and made us feel good to do something for her. Now I am home and my little one is asleep. I just bought the student version of AutoCAD, and I am going to load it. Hoping to do some of my homework from home this semester instead of having to go to the computer lab at school.
Other than that I don't think much is new. The girl I worked with who passed away last week, they think she had a pulmonary embolism, which I guess is a clot in one of the arteries to the heart. Still so sad to think about her being gone, with being so young and stuff....
My little peanut is growing away, very apparant in the size of my stomach!! Someone I ran across the other day asked when I was due and when I told her she was shocked "oh and you are showing so much already" don't people know what NOT to say to a pregnant lady??? That along with the fact that I have gained more weight than at this point in my first 2 pregnancies is not filling me with warm fuzzies...
This pregnancy is going so fast now, I think I need to start thinking about a crib and a few other things I need to buy. I really want to buy a used one, but I am still picky! Plus a rocking chair and changing table, some bedding etc... I want to do these things but sometimes I can procrastinate a bit I think my girlfriend is giving me a shower in a couple of months, that will be great because I need just about everything. Hopefully I will get a few of the bigger things so I won't have to buy everything.
Well, I better sign off and get busy on my homework, plus the chocolate pudding I bought for the kids is loudly calling my name....
Wow, long time no post I didn't realize it had been that long!! Quite a bit has been going on and I haven't had as much computer time.
The first thing is I bought a crib I am very happy about that. I found it in the local paper, it is fairly new, beechwood with a drawer underneath and comes with a matching changing table. It sure is weird bringing home all this baby stuff after just selling all the stuff we had about a year ago
Then there was the memorial service for Kathy, the girl I worked with who passed away a couple of weeks ago. That was a horrible day, all of us girls from the salon sat and sobbed through the service, we thought one of us should get up and speak about her time with us at work, but none of us could hold it together. I still have a hard time believing this has happened, yesterday was a day I should have worked with her, and pulling into the parking lot knowing her car wouldn't be there was heart wrenching
Today I had a Dr's appt. I finally got to meet the new doctor at the clinic I recently switched to. She was really nice, that was a relief. Although she did inform me that I cannot deliver at the hospital I had thought, I have to drive even farther to Sutter Memorial in downtown Sacramento, about 35 miles from my house because that is where my insurance will want me to go. I am trying not to let that get to me, I know my stay in the hospital will be short lived and it really isn't that big of deal. I also asked her about a tubal after the delivery, she thinks that would be fine and will have me fill out the paperwork the next time I go in. YEA!!! That will be great!
One strange thing that happened is my sister's dog attacked my other sister's son, my nephew Noah. He is 6, the same age as my son. The dog is a retriever/collie mix, about 12 years old and always very mellow. Noah was on all fours playing with a car and the dog jumped on him and bit him in the head, 8 hours later in the emergency room, they had to put 3 staples in his head. My sister initially said she was going to put the dog down, but then day or two later started to second guess that decision. I think she is too attached to the dog and can't bear to surrender him. She thinks she can keep him teathered or in a crate whenever she has visitors. While I can understand the attachment to the dog, I have 2 almost 3 small children and can't help but feel that is the wrong choice. I would most definitely feel uncomfortable with my kids at her house, what if she relaxes and lets the dog loose just once? But it is hard to convey these feelings to her, I want to be supportive, yet it really freaks me out........ UGH...
Anyway the baby is doing great, moving like crazy, although I do notice he seems to sleep alot! Earlier today he had the hiccups, that was awesome, such a great sensation, and I passed my first 1 hour glucose test, YEA!!! My weight seems to have stabilized along with my appetite, this appt. I had only gained 2 lbs. compared with 10 at my last visit Hopefully that will stay mellow!!
Well that's about it for now, I have some homework to contend with and perhaps tacos for dinner.