Bonita - I don't blame you at all for being nervous. I am anxious to hear what your dr has to say about everything that has happened, and what your next steps are. What time is your appointment tomorrow?
How is everyone else doing? It has been quiet on this board lately?
AFM - I am doing well, although I haven't been sleeping well the last several nights. I wake up about as tired as I was when I went to bed- bleh.
Oh, and I peed my pants yesterday. DH said something that made me laugh right when I was taking a big drink of water. That make me choke and cough on my water and spit it all over the living room floor, and then the coughing made me literally pee my pants. Luckily I was standing up and not sitting on our furniture. Ah the joy and dignity of pregnancy...
9:00 EST. I am not sure though if he will just do blood work and then make another appointment for when those results are in, or do an ultrasound.
I dreamed last night that I went in, had an ultrasound and was pg. I know that is not likely but I can't help it. It has made for a long torturous day.
I had that problem with Brianna. I did a lot of Kegel exercises and was able to stop. It is embarrassing though I know.
I'm glad he at least put a rush on it. Do you know what happens after the b/w gets back?
Sorry that you had a dream that made it that much harder on you. (((hugs))) I bet you can't wait until this whole thing is resolved.
Speaking of dreams, I had a bad dream last night! I dreamed that Tristan was being really really really bad, and I finally snapped and slapped him really hard across the face. Oh my gosh, I felt sooooo bad about it. I've never even spanked him, let alone slapped him. In my dream it was hard enough to leave a pink handprint on his little face. I know it was just a dream, but I feel so freaking guilty for even dreaming that. I got my face slapped a couple of times when I was a kid, and it's so much worse than a spanking, not just because it hurts more but also because it's so much scarier. I never ever want to make my kids feel that way, no matter how bratty they're being. Anyway, I know it's dumb to be that shaken up over a stupid dream, but it reallllly bothered me. I was all hugging him this morning, like "You know I love you, right? You know I would never intentionally hurt you, right?" Awful.
I've had dreams that DH or my mom get hurt (the two most important people in my life). When I wake up, I'm freaked out. If DH isn't in bed with me, I'll call him until he picks up. I've woken my mom up at 1am because of a dream. I'm sure T knows you'd never do that intentionally, but I'm sure the dream sucked just the same. I've only peed myself twice so far. Once I was throwing up so violently that it just came out and I couldn't do anything about it because I just kept right on throwing up. And once I sneezed. Now if I have to sneeze and I know I haven't been potty lately, I try really hard to hold it...the sneeze I mean...haha.
Doctor's office just called back. My HGC was 0, so that rules everything out except a miscarriage that has not passed yet. They want to go ahead and schedules the test that they were going to do before to find out where the problem is. I think I will have it done even though it will be my whole deductible. I would like to know what is going on so this does not keep happening.
Bonita - I'm so sorry for your loss.
How are you holding up?
Is it the HSG test that you are going to do? I'm sorry that it will be so expensive, but I do not blame you one bit for wanting to get it checked out. You should not have to deal with this over and over again.
Does your deductible reset in January? If so, would it be possible to schedule your HSG for a month out that way your deductible is met for 2013 instead of meeting it in 2012 and then having it reset to $0 again in a month? I know it's terrible to wait, but if you are going to have to pay $1K out of pocket, you may as well have your deductible met for as long as possible.
Yes, That is the test. I can have it done whenever I want, but Christmas break might be easier for me because DH is home to watch the girls.
I am doing ok. Really, this was the best possible outcome. I knew it was not a viable pregnancy. I felt the options were a tubal pregnancy, a missed m/c, or some kind of tumour or cancer. All things considered, that was the best option. Plus, it does mean that at least one of my tubes is open.
Bonita, OMGosh, you have been through a lot the past few weeks. HUGE HUGS!!!! I'm so sorry you are going through this...before you pay the 1K for the HSG, can you ask your doctor about pre-menopause? I've heard that pre-menopause can elevate your hcg levels. I know you've mentioned before about your concerns with pre-menopause. Just thought I'd throw it out there as another possible cause and I really hope that didn't come across as really rude and insensitive (not my intention at all!). I really hope you get some definite answers soon so you can move on from this. I also am hoping for the best possible scenerio and outcome for you.