Hey there ladies!
This board was my haven 7 years ago. I have such mixed emotions right now, and I know you all understand.
Dh and I were TTC for almost 5 years and finally got pregnant. Everything seemed fine of course until my u/s at 10 weeks showed a much smaller baby. It even had a heartbeat. Our doc said we would most likely misscarry and was supportive of us allowing it to happen naturally. About 2 weeks later I m/c. We were devastated, but the doc was optimistic that now that my body had gotten pregnant it would again soon and as soon as we felt ready we could TTC again. We did succeed in getting pregnant again 3 months later and delivered a healthy boy (Sam). That was 6 years ago.
We started TTC again when Sam was 1 year old. We were actively charting, OPK's, etc with no luck for 3 years. I finally gave up and stopped actively trying, but continued to not prevent. Last fall we sold all of our baby stuff. I resigned myself to the fact that Sam would be an only child.
In january I fell skiing and badly injured my knee. I let it heal for 2 months then had surgery to replace the ACL at the end of April. I had some complications that delayed my recovery but was able to enjoy our family camping trip to Denali park at the end of July. AF was due to come while we were camping, each day I carried my pads in the pack in anticipation. But she never showed. When we got home I tested since af was 10 days late. I was VERY surprised to have a positive test! apparently recovering from knee surgery didn't stop us from having fun in the bedroom
I had my first appt with the OB August 30th, they did a dating u/s and their calculation was one week earlier than mine. This of course stressed me out that I was destined to m/c this one like before. But everything looked fine at my 12 week NT scan and I started to relax.
We walked from our hotel to the mall for a celebratory dinner (the OB office is 125 miles from my town). I slipped on the floor at the mall and fractured my patella (same knee of course!). I had surgery the next week to wire it together. Let me tell you, surgery and pain medications on top of morning sickness is not fun!
The next week the OB office called to tell me my screening test came back with a high risk for downs, I have protein in my urine, my blood sugars have been high, and due to this "elderly" pregnancy they referred me to the Perinatologist.
I was so hoping for a relaxed non-intervention pregnancy!
The Peri has been awesome and totally respected my decision to not have an amnio. I have had 3 detailed u/s and he cannot find any markers of genetic abnormality or any issues with the baby (its a boy by the way). The only thing they can find is mild restriction on blood flow through one of my uterine arteries but the baby is growing right on track so they will just monitor it.
I am 24 weeks now and I still cannot get attached to this pregnancy. I can't bring myself to buy anything, I am avoiding the baby section of stores, Dh wants to talk names and I just can't do it. I thought by now I would be getting excited. I just can't seem to believe that I will be bringing this baby home, its like I have convinced myself that something bad will happen as a way to cope just in case.