Hates to play the waiting game

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Hates to play the waiting game

First off, I miss all of you and most of all the conversations. My patient just went back to school so unfortunately I am there all day with him and once work is over I am a busy super mom I never have any time to just sit.

So I am sure that I am m/c, the spotting has picked up and is now a red light flow. No cramping or clots as of yet which I know the worst is yet to come hoping it does not happen when I am at school with my patient since I can not leave him. Ugh, and thats the part I hate the most just waiting it kills me. I just wish it was over with fast but my body always seems to take the long route and just slowly let go. Hurts physically and emotionally. DH is supportive and still has hope even though I know what's to come because my body is telling me all the signs. I feel bad and utterly hopeless. DH and I agreed once OB comes back we will start further testing and try to figure out the problem. Looking hopeful to the future and possible answers to all our problems.

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I'm very very sorry to hear that, and I hope that you are able to get the answers that you need.

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Unfortunately, we have all been through loss on this board, and we understand what you are going through. We are here for you. Please take care of yourself and be gentle with yourself throughout this process.

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I'm so sorry! I hope it happens at the best possible time for you if it's going to. Sad

I'm glad to hear you are going to have some testing done. I really hope you can get some answers and hopefully a simple solution can be found. Please KUP. I'm sure I'll be around the TTCAL board so come update us on your testing when you get to that point.

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I am so sorry you are going through this. Is there any way you can go see another doctor to see what's going on? I really hope that's it's a subchorionic hematoma and not a m/c. I agree with everyone, I'm glad you're getting additional testing done to finally get some answers. (((HUGS)))

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Thoughts are with you as you go through this. Like Alissa said we have all been there. Just know you are not alone and I sincerely hope you find some answers.

Joined: 08/08/12
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Thank you all for you sweet thoughts. Went to OB today just to check that everything is progressing naturally with the m/c OB said I have passed almost everything and there is a little more that is right at my cervical opening that I should be passing within the next 4 days. I am going to wait to follow up with testing once I have stopped bleeding. However, OB (mind you this is not my reg OB just a fill in) said that testing would not be necessary because I already have a healthy normal child therefore testing would come back negative and that I just have to try and try again until I finally carry a healthy pregnancy. LOAD of crap! ALL I wanted to do once leaving the office was burst into tears. I left feeling even more hopeless then I ever have before.

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Oh I'm so so sorry to hear all of this! Sad Sorry about your loss and sorry to hear what that doc told you. That absolutely is a load of crap! I wish I were there to give you a real life hug. (((hugehugs)))

I really hope you don't give up after this. I really believe if you find a good doctor that will be proactive and help you find anwers it will make all the difference.

Please KUP on where you go from here once you get past this and begin to move foward.

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Oh man, that's awful! My very first OB was like that and I completely split after ONE session with her. Here's hoping when yours gets back, you get a better answer than just keep trying!

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That's CRAP. Find another doctor, stat!

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"Alissa_Sal" wrote:

That's CRAP. Find another doctor, stat!

I completely agree 100%!!

I know he's not your normal OB but I still think you should find a new doctor at a new practice. Look them up and read reviews before you call. Remember that doctors work for YOU. You deserve answers and a doctor that is willing to go above and beyond for you. Trust me, finding a doctor you completely trust and makes you feel like you're getting the best care out there is priceless.

I wish you much luck on your TTC journey and I hope to see you back here soon with a sticky BFP!