I was feeling pretty good about this pregnancy at first...I started having symptoms at 4DPO, light nausea, lots of pulls and aches down low, etc. Then the doubt started creeping yesterday, this morning I didn't feel like the test line was dark enough (I know, I know, it means nothing...pretty sure I didn't dip it well bc I didn't have my contacts in yet), and I'm not feeling much in the way of symptoms today. I tested again a bit ago and it is darker now. But yeah, I hate the doubt and worry. It's impossible to just enjoy being pregnant. Blah!
I'm done testing for at least a week. I also go in tomorrow for a blood draw so that will be more info than a dip stick can give anyway.
Lynn, I'm sorry that your line didn't seem darker this morning, but ...a line is a line!! I didn't feel "pregnant" until 6 weeks ...actually, I still don't feel "pregnant", I just feel like crap. Doubt and worry is gonna be your constant companion, I'm afraid. But totally stoked about your doc appt!! What time is it? ...not that I'll be stalking you..
Yes, I agree with Jessica. Not having a "dark enough" test line doesn't mean anything, but unfortunately you are probably going to worry a lot, especially in the beginning.
When I was first pregnant, I told myself that I wasn't going to worry after we saw a h/b on the u/s. Then, I told myself I wasn't going to worry when I saw a h/b on the u/s that I had when I was farther along than my two losses. Then, I told myself I wasn't going to worry once I reached 12 weeks. Then I told myself that I wasn't going to worry once I had my NT scan at 13 ish weeks. Then I told myself I wasn't going to worry once I started feeling movement. Now my current worry is: do I feel enough movement? I know I'm not even quite 16 weeks and I didn't feel movement at all with T until 17-18 weeks, but I still freak out if I haven't felt it for most of the day. I think what I'm trying to say is, we'll probably always worry a little bit during these pregnancies, but it will be worth it in the end, and at least we have each other to vent to and for support.
Please do tell us about your drs appt, even if it was just the usual blood draw and weight. We want to hear all about it.
I totally understand. It sucks being pregnant after a loss. Especially in the first trimester. It's so hard not to worry about every. single. little. thing. Remember that symptoms will come and go. Like Jessica, I didn't really start feeling pregnant until 6 weeks and then my symptoms completely disappeared at 8 weeks. I freaked out and went in for an emergency u/s and everything was fine and my symptoms came back with a vengeance a week later.
I'm glad you're putting the sticks down. You are right, the b/w will tell you way more than those sticks! Good luck with your appointment today and I can't wait to hear all about it!
PS Lynn - Added you to our EDD thread.
I feel ya. I thought I'd feel better by this point. I've heard the hb on doppler and I've seen the bean wiggling it's little arms/legs on u/s. Still, I worry. I guess it'll never really go away. I worry about the two babies I already have ALL the time. Early pregnancy just sucks, though.
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