I was so anxious to get pregnant again. And I am happy I am. But I have been so sad. I have been bawling about Kamdyn a lot. I was 16 and Pregnant and bawl and bawl. My precious angel has been gone 4 months now. He was supposed to come this month. I miss him. I got through these phases of feeling like it didn't happen and then it hits hard again. I worry about trying to hold my new baby. I am worried that this new baby won't come. Last time I told myself all the m/s is worth it because you get a baby in the end, people try to say that now but it's hard to feel like that is the truth.
Just really struggling ...
Try not to beat yourself up about being sad.....I am coming up on 4 years since I lost my DD and I still cry just about everyday at some point.
Some times of year it is worse then others, and that's okay - the added hormones are probably not helping things for sure, but this is still very fresh for you.....this new baby isn't ever going to replace Kamdyn.....for me I feel like the reason that I had a boy after I lost my DD, was because I wasn't "ready" for it have been a girl - silly maybe, but that's how I feel......so maybe this will be a little girl you are having now to bring a new kind of joy into your life, to help heal from losing Kamdyn
DS Sawyer 4/1/06
DD Payton too beautiful for this earth, born silently 7/19/09 at 33 wks
DS Greyson 6/29/11
DS Parker 4/14/14
Thanks for your reply. It really helped. I wonder if mine is going to be a girl.... I am definitely nervous and excited. The last few days have a bit a little bit easier which is good. I am still very sensitive. I was trying to read the May board.. but have decided that I'm not ready to hear all the birth stories.. And that's ok.