Be honest. Do you actually ENJOY being pregnant?
Yes and no. I LOVED being pregnant with T, even though I had gestational diabetes and had to prick my finger 3x a day. It was just such an exciting time, completely magical and happy about the baby growing inside of me. Also, being pregnant was like the only time in my adult life when I was totally at peace with my body, like I didn't worry about how big it was or how round, or whatever, I was just totally amazed by what it could do. So I totally loved being pregnant with T.
This time around was definitely marred with a lot more anxiety because of my two losses, and then add to that my SCH. I spent the first trimester mostly kind of waiting for the other shoe to drop, which is kind of sad. I had some wonderful moments (like every u/s but over all it was a lot harder. Now that I past 12 weeks and entering into the second trimester (and have also pretty much completely stopped bleeding from my SCH...knock on wood....) I am hoping that I will be able to relax a lot more and regain some of that untainted happy excitement that I had with T. Also, waiting to regain that sort of peace with my body as well...lol Right now I am in that awful stage of showing where, depending on what I wear, I kind of just look like I'm getting fatter rather than pregnant. LOL I am looking forward to looking totally preggers.
No. I don't enjoy this. Not to say I won't enjoy the end result. But I'm emotional ANYWAY and this is making me insane. My stomach hurts constantly and I WORRY about EVERYTHING. I'm super stressed as it is, but pregnancy is pushing me over the edge.
There are some things I enjoy and some I loathe!
I hated the entire 1st trimester. I think, even if I hadn't experienced any losses, I would still have hated it just as much. The m/s, fatigue, strange symptoms, spotting, anxiety and other unpleasant symptoms suck!
Now that I'm in my second trimester and feeling a bit better, though I still throw up here and there and the fatigue is still here, feeling my baby is the best feeling in the world. Every time he kicks I just melt. I just can't believe the amount of unconditional love I have for him already.
I also love that I can stick out my tummy and be proud of it! lol No more trying to suck in my gut for me!
I'm sure I'll be complaining the closer I get to my due date but for now I'm happy. lol