Hey Ladies, Sorry, I know that I'm such a roller coaster. One minute everything is great, the next minute I'm scared out of my mind. I just need to get this off my chest, and don't really have anyone else I feel like I can talk to about it. Yesterday I started having a little bit of red spotting. Only twice, a little bit when I wiped, but enough to scare me. I have started having it again this afternoon, despite my best efforts to take it easy and stay still (as if that could prevent a m/c anyway...maybe if I just don't move....) I called my dr, and they are having me come in for another u/s today at 3:30 (it's a little after 2:30 now, so I will be leaving in about 15 minutes.) I'm trying not to freak...it's just the SH, right? Right?!? But it's moments like these where it feels so incredibly hopeless, like there is simply no way that it's not bad news. This is exactly how it was with my previous two losses...spotting at 6 weeks, saw the heartbeat, but still had a missed miscarriage by 8 weeks. I feel like no matter what I do, it's just going to end the same way, and no one can give me a totally clear answer about why, because it's like there are so many reasons why. And as far as I know, we're addressing all of them as best we can, but even so. Sorry, I am just super super bummed right now. I just keep promising myself that no matter what happens, I won't ever have to go through this again. If we have the baby, we're done, if we have the m/c we're done. This is the last time. I can't keep going through this.