So.... if I havent fully introduced myself which I think I have - My name is Jill and I am 32, DH and I are both active duty military and have 2 DD's. Our plan was to have 1 more and as with any fertility treatment comes the possible blessing of multiples and are pregnant with twins (one boy, one girl).
So yesterday, I traded in my car for a mini van! I needed something that could fit 3 carseats (DD#2, is 4 but super petite so not even close to a booster seat yet), DD#1, and of course DH and I. I had so much anxiety about it... I was like what if I am jinxing the pregnancy by buying so early - but really I have so much on my to do list to prepare, if I dont just keep trucking at it getting prepared, I am likely to go into early labor for being a freak of last minute items LOL, I am panicking about finances - I mean with us both being on active duty right now we are ok, but after my shore duty tour, I am due to go back to sea so I have been considering getting out and trying to find a job (that I know will pay less) but can work around DH schedule or something to keep the kids at home and out of daycare? Thats not for a couple more years but its still in the back of my mind - can Iprovide for my kids without the struggle? I am afraid of what if this is more than I can handle, although I know that will pass once I get into a routine...I think with the mini van purchase, it was like a flood of all the worst case scenarios and all the things I still havent done or bought in prepartion for their arrival and I am only 17 weeks!!
I am guessing this is normal, I suppose I just wanted to vent to people I know understand or who have been there... Any advice, is really welcome