I'm reminded that adoption is not for the faintest of hearts. We let Malachi go yesterday and he was returned to his birthmother. It's really a long story involving legal stuff I don't understand but the birthfather is contesting the adoption and petitioning for custody of him and threatening to continue on unless she parents. She is young and scared and I think she is making the best decision she can with what she is faced with.
I really don't know how I'm going to move past this. We understood all the risks with Isaiah all along and just prepared for that but with this we were just blindsided. I NEVER, EVER held this child and thought for a second he wasn't mine to hold. I don't even know where to start other than just ask for your prayers.