Sitting here nursing Addisyn now, will be leaving in about half an hour. Soooo not ready. The only thing that makes today better than it could be is that I don't have to drop her off at the sitter cuz dd1 has preschool so he will drop them both off after school. I don't know why I bothered putting on eye makeup cuz I'm sure I will be crying. I'm also going to call the ob today cuz I suspect ppd.