First let me just say that im sorry i havent been around lately. i have popped in here and there but only for a few minutes at a time. ihave ALOT Of catching up to do! wont have time today though, busy busy day!
Kendra is doing wonderful! She is such a good baby! we have her 2nd pediatrician appt this morning. whichis good cause she has a pussy eye and a raw hiney :(. not sure how her hiney is raw looking we are gentle with her and she is changed regularly. Thanks to the help our our LC, Kendra is breastfeeding. Turns out she doesnt like my nipples AT ALL, so she will only nurse with a nipple shield on my nipple. i am pumping and feeding and formula feeding in there as well. i need to start paying attention to the breast feeding thread i suppose. would probably help. She is a good sleeper, not fussy at all, only cries when she is hungary, but we can tell before she cries as she chomps on her fists when she wants to eat. oh and my personal favorite part, she loves to snuggle with her mommy! My husband is so wonderful! he gets up with me in the middle of the night, helps me get her latched (hard to get her latched with a nipple shield sometimes), get bottles if i need one, etc etc. Like the song "then" by Brad Paisley, i thought i loved him 2 weeks ago. Seeing him with our daughter has made me fall in love with him all over again. All in all, this past week has been alot easier that i thought it would be. Though i must say that the hormones are WAY worse now then when i was pregnant. i cry all the time. ok, usually i am admiring her when i cry, or listening to certain songs, or watching hubbie with her, youget the point LOL i have 2 songs that make me cry my eyes out, i played them both for her hen i was pregnant and now every so often i play them for her. the first is Janelle "amazing" and the second is "The Story" by i cant remember her name off hand (sorry im tired).
i am SO in love with this child. i look back over the last 6 years and all the struggling DH and i went through to conceive, all the heart breaks, negative pregnancy tests, the tears and it was ALL worth it. i wouldnt change a thing. All of the struggling brought me to Kendra. I still pinch myself at times to make sure that this is all reality. i never ever thought i could ever be this happy. I am glad she is here, it is good to have my body back, good to roll over in bed without any pain, good to have most of my appetite back. i even have my sex drive back ten fold! unfortunately, DH will have no parts of it right now for fear of hurting me! Ok, he's probably right but i feel normal again and i dont see me waiting that long HAHA ANYWHO, while i am glad she is here i do miss feeling her in me. i miss feeling her feet moving in there.
Ok, enough sappyness from me! like i said im tired!
here are a few pictures, 9 days old