So I just had my first breakdown a bit ago. My friend from the army called and for some.reason I just lost it and started crying. I've been having contractions since last night and some.are.going to my back so I think its.all really sinking in. I'm thrilled he's gonna be here soon, but the more I think about how.rough its gonna be not having anyone here to help me at all is finally taking its toll on me. I'm honestly scared to death at this point. Never having a child before and now having one w/o help is scaring the crap out of me. I go to my 36 week appt in an hour so I'm going to see what the doc says. I'm worried about not getting to the hospital on time cause I have to wait for someone to come get me. I know I have a high pain tolerance so what if I wait to long. I know its normal fears but they are all coming to reality now.