Feeling selfish (and deserving) of this Mother's Day.
This is the only Mother's Day that I've ever wanted to spend on myself. I got a text message from MIL (whom I love very dearly) that really pissed me off. It's hard to read inflections in text messages. The text read: "I have pink summer dresses, but you guys have to come for mother's day to get them." WTF?!! I she trying to bribe us?!!
Mind you, we haven't yet discussed Mother's Day plans with her, but usually we drive the hour to go see her and go out to dinner to celebrate with her and great grandma. But this year, I'm feeling like I want to celebrate alone with my completed family. Is that selfish? I just feel like this is my last Mother's Day with a "new" baby and I want to cherish it. I want it all to myself. Not to mention how depressed I get whenever there's talk about going out to eat anywhere. This last fall, I went off dairy for Evie, completely. MIL lives in a small town and there are NO allergy friendly restaurants there, so it's anyone's guess if they have dairy free items or not. It's too stressful. And we took our 3 year old off dairy back then as well and going out to eat with him is hell cause he won't eat what I order for him and they ALWAYS give HIM the kids menu (not me) so he sees the pictures and... he just doesn't understand still.
Anyway.. just wanting to cry a little cause I feel like she's trying to steal my special day from me (even though she has no idea how I feel and was probably not intending to hurt my feelings in anyway.
Thanks for letting me vent.