Im tired. I hurt.
I went to the midwives today because the part of my c-section where the drain was has a huge hard lump that hurts like hell and has been getting bigger and worse. The OB that did the c-section came to see me too and said it was "just" granulation (healing) tissue. But Im needing to use my leftover ultram for the pain b/c ibuprofen isnt cutting it. This is after I was off all pain meds for over a week.
Cassandra is growth spurting again, which means that her tummy is all jacked up and she wants to eat constantly. And her latch still hurts.
Brayden is having transitional mommy issues and will NOT leave me alone. At. All.
I ask DH to help with chores but he doesnt do them fast enough for me (and yes, this is my fault) so I feel completely overwhelmed, as Im doing laundry, cooking, and the running around to Dr appointments and stuff.
And Cassandra's going to the dentist tomorrow to get her posterior tongue tie lasered so that she can latch. I know she needs it, but Im dreading it.
I just want to cry. Im really overwhelmed.
I'm so sorry you're feeling so down right now. I don't blame you for feeling so wiped. It's hard to have a baby and and older child who wants his mommy. I'm kinda having that right now as well.
It will get better.... at least I'm trying to believe that.
Janelle and Brad 8-25-01
That all sounds really difficult to deal with. Try to drop the chores, I know that is hard but you have to let something give. Remember that you had major surgery and you have to let yourself heal. I made the mistake of overdoing it yesterday and spent half the day today in bed recovering from it. I hate how I ask my dh to do something and it gets done the next day, but I am learning that I just have to let him own it once I ask something if him. I don't understand it, if his boss asks him to do something he does it straight away. Oh well.
i'm sorry your feeling crummy. I'm feeling the same way too. I was so frustrated trying to get everyone in the car this morning that i ended up crying in the driveway for a good 10 mintues before i could even get on the road having 2 kids is ALOT harder than i was expecting. And i totally understad about the chores. i have my way that i like things done and it's really hard for me to let anyone else, DH or mom or inlaws, do them for me because i end up redoing it later. My mom has been coming over 1 day a week for a few hours to at least distract ds so I can spend a solid few hours cleaning up the house, the other days i've had to learn to let it go. we live out of clean laundry baskets and 75% of the time I'm using dishes out of the clean dishwasher instead of emptying it Can you try something like switching to all disposable paper plates and utencils? I had a really hard time adjusting when DS was born and my SIL recommended i do that, it took a big burden off knowing that atleast DH could throw his stuff away by himself LOL
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I'm so sorry things are rough right now! You will get through this! I hope your incision heals well and stops bothering you! How did Cassandra's procedure go? I hope it solves the latch issue for you and the soreness goes away- that is the worst. When DD was a newborn, I remember dreading every feeding because I was so torn up for the first few weeks. It makes everything so much harder. We've also had some issues as far as DD learning to share Mommy. It will get better! I know it's hard, but try not to worry about the chores as much. Or at least, plan a few hours where you don't worry about the chores (maybe try to take a nap instead) and then tackle them once you've had a little rest. Hang in there- you can do this and it won't last forever!
I know exactly what you mean and I am so sorry you are going through all of it. DH doesn't help around the house here much so recovering from a c/s and trying to do chores, and all the other stuff if VERY overwhelming. Big hugs!
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