Thats it..I'm done. I need this precious bundle OUT OF MY BED! My back hurts from sleeping in one position all night. My arm hurts from cradling her all night. I am not sleeping well, and every time I wake up and find her to close, or her head covered I have a heart attack cause I think she's not breathing. I desperately want to sleep on my stomach, but cant with her there.
So starting RIGHT NOW she is going to sleep in the cradle. I got her to sleep in for about 45 minutes on the weekend. That was a record. I've taken the rockers off so it doesn't move. We've gone back to swaddling. I even put a little U shaped roll around her head so she doesn't startle herself into the wooden side (what woke her up last time). I know the roll isn't SIDS approved, but neither is her sleeping smooshed up into me in bed.
I just need to have the strength to keep it up at night...it is easier to lie down with her, and while I love the snuggles, we both need our own space. So even if I have to settle her a hundred times tonight, I will do it. I hope.