Well I haven't been around much about 3 wks ago I had a nervous breakdown and ended up InThe psych hospital they diagnosed me with post traumatic stress disorder. After almost dieing when I had pre eclampsia and not being able to breastfeed I was depressed I felt un connected to kesler and constantly overwhelmed with my ppd. I am better now they adjusted my antidepressant and I am seeing a counciller I am happy to say I am feeling more bonded to kesler. Health wise I am doing better but drs r still monitoring my bp, heart and kidneys. Kesler is doing great he weighs a whooping 18lbs10oz and 26inches he will be 5 months on the 27th. Skyler is doing well too. Hope all you ladies r doing well. I have sure missed the board but I needed to come to terms with everything before I posted and I was worried about posting it on the fb group cause I did want other ppl on my fb to know what had happened as it's kinda embarrassing.