DH got a job... and now I'm rethinking it
Cold feet? DH is job switching so our financial situation still won't be awesome, but much much better. Me and DH haven't really been talking babies lately. I see newborns and siblings and think I want one, but then I start thinking about the hormones of pregnancy, the hard work and rollercoaster ride of a newborn, our limited space in regard to our house and vehicles... but I feel like I need to make the decision quickly. If we have another I'd prefer to not have a big gap in ages and I would like a spring baby (I know... OCD as its finest). So I've given myself a deadline of July, but I feel it closing in on me. Why can't I make a firm decision?! :mad: I feel like I was 100% sure I wanted #1 and we TTC in full force and got pregnant right away. #2 was a surprise, but I knew I didn't want #1 to be an only child so it was going to happen regardless. So #3 feels like such a toss up. I don't feel the NEED to have one, but sometimes the desire and sometimes not. It's frustrating!! I want to be deadset one way or another.
What if I have a boy? I thought I wanted one, but I love being a mom of girls. I don't know how well I'd do with a boy. What if I decide to TTC and then freak out when I get a BFP? What if we decide not to have another and I end up regretting it?