I used to be a frequent visitor/poster to preg.org, but I haven't been around in a while. I decided to come by here because I've suddenly been hit with a feeling of urgency to decide if/when to have #3. I have a planner personality (probably to the extent of borderline OCD), and had decided years ago that I wanted 3 kids. A few months or so after having #2 I felt like I was done. My first two are just under 2 years apart and I love their age gap. That's why the sudden urgency. I'm thinking I might really want 3 (and that would probably be it for sure because I've had 2 previous c-sections and don't want to press my luck).
The thing is, I'm a SAHM and money is TIGHT and DH hates his job. He is deligently searching for something else and he's miserable. It seems like the worst time to want to throw another baby in the mix. I don't want to get pregnant tomorrow. I just desperately want things to change so that I can at least feel like I'm "allowed" to consider it.
Like I mentioned before, I don't want a big age gap. I had originally imagined there would be a 3 year (or so) gap between #2 and #3 but that is definitely not going to happen. If we were to have #3 I think I'd like to TTC around June, so that I would (hopefully) have the baby before #2's 4th birthday.
My other thing is I'm not really a big fan of being pregnant and having surgery... But I think if I want another bad enough, it will override those feelings. And maybe is already starting to?
I've only casually mentioned it to DH because he is just not in the right state of mind to be talking babies with his stress with work. So, for now, I just have the thoughts bouncing around in my head... EVERY DAY!