Back again had my 4th loss, 2nd in a row....

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**Tiffany**'s picture
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Back again had my 4th loss, 2nd in a row....

And i gotta say Im so over being pg but not really pg. It's this weird sort of pregnancy limbo and it occurred to me this is the 4th time I've had to endure this. I mean I vehemently don't want it to be experiencing a loss again but there's something to be said for getting it over quickly. Each loss I've continued being "pregnant" for a few days to a week and a half. I have no idea when the healing process will even get to start as of now. That's nerve wracking not knowing when the m/c will start. My MW won't give up til we have another u/s next week. If you didn't see in August BB I went in for my first appt and should have been 8 wks but the u/s showed a sac measuring 5 wks and a yolk sac but nothing else. Bi tested positive over 4 wks ago and haven't had sex again since then. So it's gotta be a blighted ovum. My MW says its probably that but miracles do happen. I refuse to have false hope though. I am pissed really pissed that I have to go through all this again! I just had a m/c back in April at 14 wks!!! I know I'm incredibly lucky to have as many healthy children s I do but I still want just one more healthy baby....

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It's feels so darn unfair, though, doesn't it. I don't think it matters how many healthy kids you have (although they can be a great distraction) it still hurts. With my BO we were going on vacation so I had to wait 2 weeks for that repeat u/s. I definitely know what you mean about hating the wait to m/c. I'm glad I didn't m/c on vacation, but it would have been nice to resolve it quickly.
I hope we both get healthy, sticky beans soon. :bighug:

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So sorry. :bigarmhug:

**Tiffany**'s picture
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Me too Virginia we're due for sticky beans both of us. I'm going for my u/s tomorrow to confirm b/o . Bah I don't wanna go. Even though I'm not hopeful I know my MW is and that messes with my mind. I just want it over if its over so I can try again. Not that I'm in the least excited about ttc.

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I commented over at August but I just wanted to say sorry again. It is just too unfair.

**Tiffany**'s picture
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Confirmed missed m/c today. Not a b/o as originally thought apparently there was a very tiny fetal pole measuring 5 wks w/ no hb even last week i just didnt see it I guess. No change since last week except that the sac looks to be breaking down some. Hopefully that means it won't be too much longer until things happen naturally. If nothing has happened by the 14th we'll schedule a d&c. I am doing okay really I knew this could happen and was prepared even brfore last week. It really sucks and isn't fair but I'm not grieving too terribly. It helps that nothing much really developed after losing Noah and having to deliver him. I know this angel has siblings for company in heaven, though that itself is sad to think about, and that helps too. I can try again as soon as I'm done bleeding (which hasn't even started yet). And I'll go back on clomid after my first period.

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:bighug: