Back to work tomorrow

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StarShine65712's picture
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Back to work tomorrow

I am going back to work after being off 12 days... I simply have to go back. The family needs two incomes. I don't feel ready to go back so please keep me in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow. I dread everything... I want to be left alone and I don't want to answer any questions to anyone. You know? Like how are u feeling? Uhmmm how do u think I'm feeling!?!? Sigh.

Leah261's picture
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You're in my thoughts and prayers sweetie. I'm going back to work Tuesday after being off for two weeks. I figure I might as well go back now considering I might need to have another surgery and I might as well work while they'll let me. It's so hard to go back though. What type of job do you have? I'm a substitute teacher so I work with kids which is why I stayed out so long. I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be but I'm scared though. I'm afraid all I'll think all day is "I wonder what my baby would have been like at this age" and things like that. Thankfully only one person at this school knew I was pregnant but...one is enough to break you down sometimes. I'm so sorry you're going through this too and I hope that it goes as well as it can for you sweetie. Sending you some giant hugs also!

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I work in a warehouse for wind & willow foods. Lots of lifting... It's not the work itself it's just being around ppl. Lately I've been happy being alone with ppl close to me

StarShine65712's picture
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And thank u thank u for the hugs!!!!!!! Means so much!!!!

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I understand the being around people part. The last thing you want is to be around people who aren't part of that inner circle and hurting too. I guess I'm lucky that the people I know at work don't know I was pregnant. Some knew I was trying and one of them actually referred me to the RE that got us there but no one really knew anything and they knew we were struggling and it was hard so I doubt I'll get a lot of questions. It's still hard to think of going back to the real world. I ordered some food last week, DH got me out of the house and took me to lunch, and they got my order wrong and I teared up. I just hope stuff like that doesn't happen at work. I hope tomorrow goes great for you sweetie. And even more hugs. You can never have enough hugs. Smile

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You are too sweet Smile thank u for making
My night a good one :). I'll update tomorrow how it goes

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Just now seeing this. Hope your day is going okay at work. :bigarmhug:

~Mary

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I hope your first day back hasn't been too hard. At the very least it will be behind you soon. :bigarmhug:

StarShine65712's picture
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My first day back was ok... I stayed quite and went to breaks out in my car. Helps me feel better if I'm alone if that makes sense

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(((BIG HUGS))) I am so sorry you are going through this. I am glad your first day back was ok.

Clarkton's picture
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Yes, that totally makes sense. Everyone processes loss differently. I'm glad it was ok for you.

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Hi, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I hope you continue to draw strength from those close to you and you that you are in our thoughts and prayers :bigarmhug:

Leah261's picture
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Glad to hear that your day back was okay. I went back today and was super nervous and didn't sleep hardly at all last night. It went well though. No one really knew what I went through there so there weren't tons of questions though they didn't wonder why I hadn't been in in a while. I told some of them...as it turns out almost all the women I spoke to today had lost their first baby and one of them last month so the support was helpful. I feel like I got lucky in how it went. I am exhausted though. It's amazing how exhausting being around people and smiling when you want to cry can make you. I hope work continues to get better for you and that your heart can begin to heal soon. Hugs to you dear!

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Glad the first day back wasn't too bad for both of you!