So I went to the doc yesterday to get blood work to check my hcg again and the level was 8. I was supposed to start AF next week after I'm done with the pill, but as soon as I left the office, I noticed I'd started bleeding. So I called the doc office and they made me come in today for an u/s to see if it was AF or not. As it turns out I STILL have a small amount of retained tissue. They said it was just the tiniest amount but considering my level is still 8 they won't let me try this cycle. I am so completely devastated by this. My doc went ahead and gave me Femara for next cycle and he said he thought it would work first try again. He said he'd be shocked if it took more than two tries. I suppose that should be comforting but I'm really afraid to have any hope anymore. Here I was thinking I'd start fertility meds this weekend and now to find out I have to wait ANOTHER month. Clearly my RE was not happy having to tell me that. He said he knew how hard it was but he just wanted to be sure and he didn't think it was safe. So now I just wait. I wish I'd never let my OB do anything and that I'd gone straight back to the RE when we knew I was losing the baby. This has just been completely insane and I have no idea how to get through ANOTHER month of waiting. These last 8 weeks have been so awful.
Leah, I'm sorry this nightmare is never-ending for you! I can definitely sympathize...I remember bleeding for 2 months after my 3rd m/c....it was pure torture to have to wait. I had a similar problem after my 1st m/c. I passed everything at home but I had retained tissue. I had to take cytotec and it did help a little but I still had a tiny bit left. My OB was confident that it would resolve as soon as AF showed up and she was right. I passed everything with AF and was able to try again right away. Would your RE be open to giving you another u/s on cd5 of your next cycle? That way you still have a chance to start Femara if all is clear? ((HUGS))
Oh Honey, I am so very sorry.
UGH, so sorry! I agree with Jina's suggestion.
Well I guess day 5 would be like...Monday or something though it's hard to tell since I'm spotting now and I guess it's not really AF. I don't know. My RE has me take Femara on days 3-7 though. It seems to produce less eggs but healthier and more mature eggs. I don't think there's any chance it'll be down that fast though. He said I'd almost certainly have to have AF before I'll lose it all and my body needs more time. My level was only 8 and he said he considers less than 10 negative but it really should be back down by now. In the last week it's only got down a tiny bit. Last week it was 12, ten days before that it was 29 and they thought for sure it'd be gone by then so...it's just not happening. Maybe the baby psychic lady will be right after all...if I get pregnant right away when we're allowed to try then I'll be due in April and she said she saw a girl connected with April. My due date would probably be right around when I lost this baby...maybe this is all happening for a reason I don't know.
I'm so, so sorry you are having such a rough time. I know how hard the wait to TTC after a loss can be.
I wanted to share my experience with you because your timeline seems so similar to what I went through. I found out I had a missed m/c at 11.5 weeks (baby measured about 9.5 weeks) on Feb. 23, 2010 followed by a D&C one week later. I never had any follow up u/s but my doc did test my HCG level every 2 weeks. I never took any meds to bring back AF just waited it out but I had charted for 5 cycles trying to TTC that baby and so I went right back to charting the day of my D&C to see what my body would do. I am able to give you all these details now because I have it recorded on that chart and just went and looked it up. At 2 weeks post procedure my beta was 87, 4 weeks after was 16, and 6 weeks after was 4.4. I spotted on and off all throughout that cycle post D&C. I also confirmed O with temping at 2 days short of 6 weeks post procedure. I had my normal luteal phase and got AF right on time (13 days after O) and that was 3 days shy of 8 weeks post D&C.
The next cycle we did not TTC b/c my doc had suggested waiting at least one cycle after the D&C cycle and I decided to follow that advice after observing my body was still not back to normal. I felt this way because I spotted from the end of AF daily until I O'd that cycle. I was so tired of the constant bleeding at this point because I had spotted on and off the entire D&C cycle and then everyday the first 2 weeks of the next cycle. Blah!
We were finally able to TTC the next cycle, 2nd cycle after my D&C, as it was pretty normal with no extra spotting and that's when we conceived again. I was due on Feb. 26th, 2011 which was within 3 days of when I had found out I lost my baby.
The waiting is so hard, especially with the not knowing what the future holds. I pray you can find some hope that while the waiting is not easy it will be over in a finite amount of time. Try to get involved in something, anything, to take your mind off what you are not able to do right now and focus on the future date, not that far away, when you can TTC again.
Again, I'm so sorry your expectations of being able to try this cycle were dashed. I think that is what is making the wait so hard right now.
Last edited by Clarkton; 05-18-2012 at 09:40 AM.
I'm sorry your levels are going down so slowly. I hope the next month or two passes by quickly for you so that you can try again asap! I agree that it would be best to let your body completely heal before trying again even though the wait is torture! I hope the baby psychic is right...how awesome would that be?! Good luck!!
Oh Leah I am so sorry you got bad news. It isn't fair, none of this crap is, and this long recovery time just adds to your pain. I really wish I could say something to make you feel better. I think of you often and really am rooting for you to conceive again soon and get a take home baby. At my obs office they don't check your HCG after a loss unless there seems to be an issue and if you have a d&c or like me give birth vaginally they don't do an u/s either though when I m/c at home w/ my 2nd loss they did an u/s. It makes me worried about my levels too but I just saw my MW for my PP visit and she said everything looks back to normal from the exam. I finally stopped bleeding last week and AF was supposed to be due the 17th according to FF using the day I gave birth to Noah as cd1. She's nowhere in sight though no cramping or signs that she's near either. Ugh I hate this crap. First you want to stop bleeding and now I want to start again w AF.
I know what you mean Tiffany. It sucks! I couldn't wait to stop bleeding and now I just want a horribly heavy AF so that I know that my chance for getting all of the tissue out is good. Today is my last day of the pill and my boobs are starting to hurt a lot so I'm sure it'll be here any time now. I'm still spotting too and it picks up when I work out. DH got me the new zumba set and I've been doing that a lot and trying to get back in good shape. I'm getting in much better shape a lot faster though I think. Lol. I can see abs again. I think I'm just going to work out as much as is healthy and stay super busy until this interminable month is over. Ugh! I can't believe how long this process is taking sometimes.