I'm feeling some anxiety about trying again. I finally got the green light to try again on Wednesday. I got my last hcg test and it was 3. FINALLY! It was finally down enough that they think my body is all ready to go. I have the Femara and have worked back up to my former pre-pregnancy dose of Metformin so I'm ready to go once AF is here which should be in about a week or so. But I'm so nervous. I feel kind of weird about it. I feel absolutely ready to try and didn't want to have to wait this long to begin with, but I'm going back and forth between feeling super excited and optimistic and feeling like it's never going to happen. In some ways I feel like I was pregnant just yesterday and the pressure of being pregnant again and being nervous about holding on to it scares me. And in other ways I feel like it's been so long that I have a hard time believing I was ever pregnant which makes me feel like it'll never happen again. I'm also nervous about how I'll react whether it works first try or not. I'm afraid if it doesn't I'll be heartbroken and if it does I'll be terrified and afraid to bond. I'm just having a lot of conflicting thoughts about it. I know we're going to try but I guess I'm just nervous about how I'm going to deal with TTC and fertility treatments again after going through this for a year already and having a m/c.