My sister told me there was a forum on this site that dealt with loss, and I'm glad I found it.
On March 24 I went and did an ultrasound because I was having abdominal cramping. The radiologist had me do a pregnancy test, but did not tell me the results. Instead she called me on the phone after I left the office and informed me I had an incomplete abortion and would have to do a D&C.
I met with the GYN and he did not agree. So over a week and a half I did 3 blood hcg tests (721, 666, 793). With the last level at 793 we were hopeful, but the doctor told me since we still did not know the location of the fetus, I should be on the lookout for bleeding and cramping.
Thursday night I started cramping like I was getting my period, and when i went to the restroom, there was blood. I went to the emergency room at the hospital at midnight and stayed there until I was admitted Friday morning at 9:30.
Based on the two doctors that saw me and the fact that I was bleeding, they came to the conclusion I was losing the baby. I did an ultrasound, and it showed nothing in my tubes or uterus, and only showed fluid in my pelvis, which was not much of an issue, because of the amount of fluid that was there.
They checked my blood count and it was low: 8.5 on average....when normal is 12. So they ordered another blood hcg test. Saturday they informed me that the result came back at 50. I have lost my little angel. They think it was a tubal pregnancy or an early pregnancy that could not continue.
I know you all can relate to this, and I just need to talk to someone.
Im heart broken, saddened, frustrated, angry, bitter. And now I feel absolute anxiety and fear when I think of ttc again. Suppose this happens again?? I really dont think I could go through this again.
I was discharged yesterday, and I have to do another blood test on Tuesday and take it back to the hospital for a follow up to make sure the hcg levels have fallen below 1.