Need a minute
So, I am doing fairly well recovering from my loss but I had some news that threw me into a poor pitiful me tailspin today. I think if I share I can let it go and move on. I found out today another one of our close friends is pregnant with Triplets. TRIPLETS. I mean we've been trying to have one since 2009. I have two other close friends pregnant and one with a newborn. I just feel like I am being tortured. I am so happy for my friends but I feel like a failure evert time I see any of them.
Okay I needed this vent. I know it's not going to be easy all the time, but I just wish it wasn't quite this hard.
I know, Danielle. It's hard. Hang in there, girl. :bighug:
Oh Danielle, I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. I wish I could give you a real live hug. I understand exactly what you mean by feeling like a failure. Please know that you are not a failure, though, I suspect you already know that. ;)
Please vent away because that's what we're here for and we understand what you are going through.
Danielle, believe me we get it. Huge hugs and vent any time you need. It sucks.
:bigarmhug: :bigarmhug: :bigarmhug: I'm so sorry...I know how tough it can be to hear news like that. We have 2 preggos in my school, with 2 others that I think are but just aren't telling yet. It's so disheartening to watch others have what we so desperately want I know, but I also know that our time is coming soon despite how rough it's been lately.
Thanks all of you. I think just typing my thoughts out helped me let go some. I feel much less bitter/jealous/envious than I did yesterday. It's really nice to have this community to lean on as my local friends either don't know what to say or are avoiding the topic. It is hard to not have that support network that you usually rely on.
Sorry, I am late to this. I just saw it. Anyway, I just wanted to give you a big hug. I struggle with the same thing, trying not to be bitter or jealous when I see the people around me getting pregnant, having babies. I don't want to be like that - I want to be truly joyous when the people I love are going through these amazing happy times. But gosh it's hard sometimes, because that little Green Monster in me does act up sometimes. The hardest two are my cousin and DH's cousin. My cousin Shanna (who I love dearly) was pregnant at the same time that I had my first loss in 2010. She went on to have a beautiful beautiful little girl, and I am so happy for her. Then, she found out that she was pregnant again back in August, when I was just starting to find out about all of the health issues that I have that could be causing my miscarriages. I love her so much, and I am so happy for her, but sometimes it still hurts because I wish that was me. DH's cousin is currently pregnant and due in January, which is when I would have been due with this last baby I lost, so every time I see her it is like a living reminder of "this is how far along I would be right now if I hadn't lost my baby." Again, happy for her, but sad and achey too. Anyway, we get it. Huge hugs, lady!