My name is Harmony. My DH and I have been TTC since 2004. We had a missed m/c in 2006 and thanks to Clomid and a 2nd IUI, we conceived my DS (who will be 2 next week). We started fertility treatments this spring again and conceived on our first IUI... unfortunately my HCG levels were low and not doubling and I ended up m/cing it. As soon as we were able to try again, we did.... 2 cycles have gone by and nothing. I have one more cycle with the IUI/Clomid mix and then we have to make some big decisions. I am turning 32 next year but my eggs/ovaries are about 8 years older according to my fertility Dr. He is highly recommending IVF, but I'm terrified of the procedure, the outcome and the debt that comes with it. Adoption is an option, but part of me just wants to be done with it all for a bit - take the winter off to regroup. KWIM?
I have been having a horrible week (AF started Tuesday). Doesn't help when all of a sudden that my DS is turning 2 and people think it's the magic age to start pestering me about him having a play mate. It takes all I can not to break down into tears. My brother and his wife just had their 3rd baby yesterday too - so I'm a mixed bag of joy, fear and sadness that he will have what I probably never will.
Sorry, I don't mean to ramble on, but I know pg.org is a pretty safe haven for this kind of stuff as I've BTDT.
Best wishes to everyone and thanks for reading and listening